As I left the room, leaving behind every part of me I once thought would’ve been my eternal happiness, a can of vanilla iced coffee he had brought back for me, and a note under that can I realized, the hallway was silent.

I slowly closed the door, praying he didn’t wake up to the sounds of the creaking hinges. Down that silent hallway my breathing became heavy, I couldn’t understand why, it’s not like I was running for my life but the fear of knowing that I had no explanation to give if He woke up and found that I had gotten out of the handcuffs he had so generously loosened as not to leave any marks and was walking away from him to save my own life after I promised Him that I’d never leave and my life was his to do as he saw fit.

As I made it out the front door and walked down the driveway of the place, he had told me would be our home forever I couldn’t help but wonder, how did it end up like this? How was the person most important to me the one I feared most?

Maybe I didn’t fear Him waking up and catching me, since the worst he could do is kill me, maybe I was more afraid to see the hurt, disappointment, and anger that would fill His eyes if he caught me abandoning him just like everyone else….. How did things end up like this?