I wish I was better...but I am trying my best.
Sep 25, 2020
When I was still invited to things, before I lost all my friends' thanks to IH making me sleep past literally everything, I pushed myself so hard to be enough.
I wiped my morning tears, I drank my water, I put on my make up and put my hair nice, ate my breakfast, chose my neatest clothes, and smiled to the mirror.
I put on a mask that inch by inch slipped off as I yawned, got teary-eyed from exhaustion, slurred my words without ever drinking a drop of alcohol, become clumsier and dropped things, couldn't keep up with conversations after using up all my energy just to show up.
Showing up took all the energy I had and it was never appreciated. Not even when I tried to explain it.
For them, I was too young to be so tired. I was rude for not hearing what they said.
Every moment of those meetings I thought: "I wish I was ok. I wish I was like you. I wish...but I am not."
KdPuff
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It must've been hard for you to go through this. it's ok to let people know sometimes and take care!
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