I had a long and strange dream.
It was about a girl who was abused by her parents, harassed by her brother, and pitied by her sister.
Her childhood was filled with abuse from her parents that claimed ---- it was because of love and said that ----- it is all for the sake of her future.
Back then, the girl who still didn’t know about the world believed her parent’s words that all of the punishment they bought to her was her own fault for being a bad child.
So, the girl who wants to be a good child, start working hard on her own.
She study hard to reach the top rank ---- in hope that her parents would praise her and whenever she got a red mark on her exam, her parents beat her for not studied enough.
She hates pain and that is why she works hard to not being beaten by her parents.
She makes sure to always behave like a good child so to not ruin her parent’s mood and ended up being abused again and again.
But that girl was too naïve for believing a good child won’t be beaten.
Her parents just needed to fend off their stress to someone, and the girl was the perfect candidate to it for the oldest sister had long gone to the other continent far from her parent’s reach and they loved her brother too much that they will do anything for him.
Having such family, friendship doesn’t really matter to her anymore.
After all the betrayal from her so called ‘best friend’ leave behind, she doesn’t dare to put other people on her boundaries.
Cause’ it hurts the most when the people who you trust more than yourself stabbed you not only in the back but also from the front.
Then she devoted all of herself on studies.
Being absorbed by her studies and also her family matters, without realizing it she ended up with no friends, all alone in the dark side of the school.
She stands up alone, welling up all of her feelings inside her shattered heart without anyone knowing when will it be broken.
Time passes by and the despair inside her heart grows even more.
When her parents abused her.
When her brother assaulted her.
When she talks it out to her sister and she just laughed it off and think it off as a joke.
When her brother and sister’s business failed and her parents suddenly doting on her and depend on her.
All of it makes her sick.
The one and only ‘love’ for her family had already died a long time ago.
The longer she had live her life.
She began to hate everything around her.
She hates how her parents abused her and leave her with a trauma and the suffering she went through because of that.
She hates how her brother always got the love and affection that always she search for on her parents.
She hates how her sister can ran free in the world she doesn’t know without the interference from their parents.
She hates how her only best friend betray her and leave her behind.
And the most of them all, she hates how on her childhood, she still craves for her parent’s affection towards her even though it is already too late and pointless.
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In the midst of her hatred, she stands on a tall building and look down on the scenery below her.
What a good place to die. She thought.
Will it hurts? Well living was more painful after all
“HEY. STOP IT! THAT IS DANGEROUS!”
The sound of a man. She look past her shoulder and found a man catching his breath like a maniac.
she hates men the most.
She shuts her eyes and take a step forward as she waits what will wait her on afterlife.
Will it be heaven? Will it be Hell? Or will it be nothing?
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As the feel of air and the wind passed over me, I feel a sudden grab of someone from my back as they suddenly thrown me off and I began to lose my consciousness.
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I open my eyes and the first thing I see was darkness with a glimmering light just like a star in the night sky. I look around my surrounding and found someone beside me reading a book with a serious expression.
He? Looked up at me and smiled. “Oh, you wake up!”
I stared at him blankly, my mind was still in a daze. What am I doing before? Where am I? I am clearly in my room yesterday, right? Huh? Wait, who am I?
A flood of question began running through my head. My head hurts and my memories was in complete disorder as if someone has ripped it over and over again and throw it off in the ground.
“Ah, I see. I didn’t think that your mental state would be so weak. Even though I already used all of my energy to reduce the impact and make it as painless as possible. Your soul can’t take it any more huh?”
I don’t know what he talked about but I just nodded my head. This is so painful I can’t get my mind straight. I looked at him, eyes pleading for help. Please, help me!
The man looked to me for a second and sigh. He got closer and put my forehead to his. Unexpectedly, I can’t feel his breath nor his warm. His hand was cold just like his eyes.
“I will help you recover your mind and I can’t meet you for the time being. After that, you must rely on your own and don’t ever trust anyone in the castle even if they pledged a loyalty to you! Promise me! Whatever happened you must survive! Did I make myself clear?!”
“Y-yes sir!”
Once again he smiled. This time it is a relieved smile as he pats my head softly. “And don’t forget to be happy Vernian.”
“W-wait!”
Before I can get a hold of that man’s clothes. My vision has already blinded by the sudden brightness and I once again fell into a deep slumber.
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