I'm not the type to put my hands on somebody but this couldn’t be stopped. I ran over to her and choked her. Her face turned redder my second I was about to kill her and nobody was there to stop me. "Stop!" she squeezed out. She tried to free herself and I noticed Neiva's ring on her finger and I lost it. I threw her onto the floor! "Sean told me to do it!" she screamed. "Do what?" I asked her. "Record and post it" she cried.

"What about the sex?" I asked her. "It was me I’ve wanted to forever I knew you first!" she screamed on the floor. Her neck was red with my hand print I was going to go to jail over this, my life was over I clicked on the video again and noticed that Nevia was tagged in it and some other things that I didn't post. "Deanna how could you!" I asked her. "Get the fuck out!" She threw on some clothes which were Nevia’s from my car. I yelled. I was about to cry my whole life was over.

I will never cheat we were beyond happy. Last night flashed through my mind all the signs were there this was my fault. I sat down on the bed and held my chest. "Keep the ring," I told her "she isn't going to ever marry me "now." "Get the FUCK OUT!" I yelled punching a hole in the wall. She got up and ran out of the house. I looked around for my keys. "She took my fucking car!" I hopped up putting on some clothes and running after my car.

I bumped right into Nevia her hair was fucked up her make up smeared and she had on someone's shirt. I was speechless I looked past her into his room and just as I thought it was sean naked. She rolled her eyes at me in disgust I had no words. She dug through her purse and threw plane tickets at my face and they landed near my feet. Tickets to Jamaica "Your brother has some of your late birthday gifts" she smirked at me. I was mad I was hurt and betrayed she had no idea who she just fucked and what he did.

"Oh... yeah happy belated birthday valentines," she said with her voice quivering walking back into the room, my mind told me to grab her but I was frozen still dealing with everything. She walked into his room and tongued kissed him while looking at me little did she know... she went to work.

I couldn't even do anything I just put on some clothes and walked 2 hours home. I opened the door and saw everything. The birthday cake and the dinner sitting on the counter cold, boxes of gifts for me. I walked around the house with tears dropping out of my eyes. I couldn’t hold it back my life was over in a flash. I went into the bedroom, I looked at the bed. Did they fuck in our bed too? I wondered if Sean’s clothes were on the floor in the room.

I made the bed and found an opened condom pack in the bed and that was it I couldn’t take anymore. I know I hurt her but this was fucked up! I swung punching a hole in the flat screen. I yelled and destroyed the house Deanna's pitiful face flashed in my head. But the thing that hurt me the most wasn’t Sean’s face it was hers even under that smirk all I could see was hurt and betrayal. After I calmed down I realized what I had done, she didn’t deserve this I tried to clean up as best as I could but I destroyed everything. I packed all my shit and ran away for a couple of months.

And to make matters worse why I can't ever contact her again is because a months later Deanna posted the ring tagged me in it and an ultrasound picture #happilyeverafter

I miss her but I can never look her in the eyes.