It has been little over a year since the day Sam found me in the river. His place has become a second home to me. I love my homeland and I always will, but I love how stress free it is living with Sam. His little cabin in the middle of the woods has become my sanctuary.

My male wolf awakened after staying a couple of days with Sam. It gave me both relief and anxiety. I was glad that he awakened, because I was really worried about him. My wolf has always been so strong. The strongest wolf out of my pack. He had never needed a rest before. When he kept on sleeping, I thought something might have been wrong with him. I was so glad when he woke up looking like his strong self. Nothing seemed wrong with him.

Then, the anxiety hit me. Sam might sense my wolf and throw me out. I knew he would never try to start a fight with me. It just isn't his character to do so. He likes to solve things peacefully, especially since he's been through enough in his life to last him a lifetime.

I was sweating bullets when I saw Sam for the first time after my wolf had awakened. I was worried about what his reaction would be. To my relief, he was completely normal. He was just concerned about why I'd been so quiet when I came down to get breakfast. He thought that maybe I was coming down with a cold since I'd been soaked in cold water.

On the other hand, when my wolf saw Sam he was having a fit. My wolf wanted to come out and protect us from what he thought was a threat. I couldn't blame my wolf. Sam did look dangerous with all the scarring, and just like me this was his first time interacting with another werewolf outside of the pack.

Finally, I got my wolf to calm down and stop trying to come out, which was odd because I'd always been in my wolf form for most of my life. Being in wolf form was normal, and being out in my human form for very long was an odd feeling.

It's going to take some time to get familiar with staying in my human form all the time. But, there are perks in being in my human form like taking nice bubble baths or just reaching things that I need. It was sometimes hard when I was in my wolf form to do that.

My wolf never seemed bothered by our body staying in human form. Over this whole year, my wolf never acted like he needed to break out for a run. Regular werewolves usually have to transform into their wolves once in a while to exercise. The wolf gets very antsy and sometimes neurotic, if it doesn't get a good run in. Usually, when the wolf is like that you can’t focus on anything until you satisfy your wolf.

I do wonder why my wolf hasn't needed a good run. I’m thinking why my wolf stays put is because he understands that we would overheat if we’re in wolf form for very long. My wolf has an extra layer of fur than regular wolves. It's how my pack can stay in the cold environment back home.

But, the climate here is very different. It's hot. I do like the warm weather, but only in my human form. Just thinking of being in wolf form for a long time gives me a heat stroke.

Sam's wolf seems like it needs a good run at least twice a month. Sam will start to fidget and pace back and forth, until he just can’t take it anymore. He'll make an excuse to leave for a little bit.

When he comes back, he'll have the smell of wolf heavily on him.

I just couldn't help but wonder why in the world he doesn't know that I'm also a werewolf. Could it be because I'm so much stronger than him? Is it because I don't smell like one? Maybe he already knows and doesn't care, and he's just waiting for me to come clean to him. Or maybe, the problem lies with him? He might have lost his ability to tell what others are.

One day, when I was wrecking my brain trying to figure these questions out, all of a sudden I heard a voice like how I would hear my pack members' thoughts. Was somebody from the pack nearby? Did they find me?

I started to look around to see if anybody from the pack had come, then Sam said the exact same thing as the voice I'd heard earlier. I was flabbergasted, I was hearing Sam's thoughts!

How was this possible? We're not a pack. Did I somehow form a pack with him, or maybe he was the one that did it? I don’t really know how regular werewolves form a pack. Is it the same how we do it?

If we did form a pack, he should be able to read my mind, even though it would be in a command way. I started to worry. I didn’t want our relationship to turn out just like my pack, but I had to see if he could hear me. I thought of what I would've said aloud to answer his question.

I held my breath and there was an awkward silence in the room, then I heard Sam's thoughts again and he was wondering if I’d left. So, he can't hear me. Thank goodness. Relief washed over me, then I realized life just got harder. From now on, I'm going to have to be careful to not let out that I can hear his thoughts.

After a while, I got used to blocking out his thoughts. I would pull them in the back of my mind and reduce them to a whisper. This helps me to just respond to his voice, but it just feels so wrong. Werewolf packs are not used to having much practice of the thought process. Usually whatever a werewolf thinks about they will do, and Sam's no exception.

But when you're in a pack, you agree for your mind to be read. Sam has no idea that I’m doing this.

So, how can I tell him about this? That I’m invading his privacy. Sam definitely thinks that I’m a normal human and he trusts me like his own blood. In his eyes, I'm like the son that he almost had.

Sam often thinks of his past loved ones. I found out by listening to his mind that he was once a stray with nothing. When he met his mate that changed and all his dreams came true. His mate was the love of his life and he would do anything for her. He found a pack that welcomed him in and he was able to train and become a strong werewolf warrior in the pack, but it all came to an end.

A wolf pack of feral werewolves attacked them and in one night Sam lost everything. He fought hard to save his mate and took many hits that might be why the feral wolves had thought Sam was dead. He should have died with how many wounds he got.

Sam's mate was pregnant at the time of her death. They were expecting a baby boy in a few more weeks. Sam was there for her last breaths. She had made him promise to live on and be happy. That was one reason why he has survived this long with his mate being gone, he wants to keep their last promise. The other was for revenge.

That day, the feral werewolves were captured, but for some reason they were let go freely, which made him very angry at the thought of it. He refused to think of the reason why anybody in their right mind would let feral werewolves that are vicious and ready to kill anything in sight would be let go freely to live in the world.

So, Sam personally wants to go hunt each one of these feral werewolves one day. When that day comes, I'm going to help him with his revenge. That will be the only way I can atone for my guilt for keeping things from Sam while he gives me a home and his full trust. For now, I'll be the human that I want to be.