After practically yelling at myself inside my own head about not being able to focus, the bell rings and its time for lunch.

The teacher forces us to walk in a line to go to lunch, probably because yesterday we were kinda loud while others we’re testing. By us i mean them. I’m relatively quiet. I’m also starving, I haven't barely eaten for the past week. But i don’t really want to stand in line, it’s embarrassing to eat in front of so many people, i feel like i'm being judged constantly, i probably am.

Once we go to the cafeteria i decide to stand in the lunch line. The boy with the red hoodie class comes after a little bit. I try not to stare. I ignore them. I’m not gonna get hurt again. Haley says i look upset, i have a natural resting sad face that i need to work on. “I’m okay!” I say. She starts coming closer to me and says “Just incase-“ and hugs me. It’s not that i don’t need the hug, i’ve needed a huge for a long time now, but it’s that after being touch deprived for so long, you don't like being touched. ‘nOm’. “OW WHY DID YOU DO THAT!” She says. Honestly i have no clue why. I now feel even dumber than before.

“What did she do?” Gabby says. Since i don’t want to be embarrassed more, i start laughing. To ease the tension and to keep myself from having a panic attack at what an idiot i am. If you’re wondering what i did, i bit her. Thats when Haley says i bit her. Gabby starts laughing too. I’m sure Haley will be fine. 

Grant is staring at me through the glass, honestly its getting creepy. Is this what its like when i stare at people? I’m usually just observing them, he’s just an idiot. Is there something on my face? Did i do something to him? The more i look at him the more familiar he looks, actually. I’ve seen him before, i know i have. I’ll figure it out soon, i never forget a face. This can be a blessing and a curse. I have a good memory when it comes to dates, days, and people. But simple tasks as being told to do chores or telling myself to go do something, i will forget immediately. Todays also the day i go to that after school program, the one i was talking about before. Thats held every Tuesday. I only go to get away from my mom and sister.

After standing in line for what seemed like forever, i finally sit down with my plate. I don’t like lunch food but i don’t really have any other options and i really don’t want my stomach to growl when i'm in class cause thats even more embarrassing. The food looks better than my old schools food so i’ll give them that. Haleys telling Lauren that i bit her, i immediately regret all my life choices and wish that someone will strike me down now. no 

Lauren laughs at what had happened. But i have a strong feeling Haley wont get over this for awhile.