After the hospital incident I didn't want to be alone, and luckily I had a big house. I invited Rosie to come and live with me after I gave her the run down of what happened. Jace took care of the first set of security measures on the house then work with me and Rosie to implement a more complete system. I needed and wanted a pet since I was stressed. When we went to the Institute they offered us a couple more things for security and sent us to a shelter that housed the pets saved by Shadowhunters at work. When we went in me and Rosie thought we were just going to bring home one pet at most but when Jace joined us he pointed us to a cage with two small kittens. They were siblings and the center asked if I wanted to take them together as they were siblings and splitting them up wasn't a good idea. In the end I went home with two small calico kittens.

 In the first week I had them I couldn't find a good name for them so I stuck with Butterscotch and Hot Fudge. Butterscotch was a boy kitten with large spots of orange and creamy brown. Hot Fudge was a girl kitten with patches of brown that looked like patches of chocolate. In the next few months I did work at the Institute and trained. It seemed that there was something my fellow Shadowhunters wanted to tell me but couldn't or maybe it wasn't important enough I brushed it off thinking if it was important, they'd tell me. Rosie lived with me on the second floor of my house and Jace came over almost everyday.

 It was already March. The doc was worried because according to her assessment I was due in late April to early May but my belly growth was small even for a single child pregnancy, let alone a twin pregnancy. Dr. Malus assured me that they were okay considering and ordered me to find a way to destress and that I should try to improve my frame of view. I hadn't realized that I was stressing but all the signs were there. I was in denial that there was anything was wrong. I talked to Rosie because I thought the people around me would know. She admitted that I seemed to be more quiet and would constantly apologize for things when there wasn't anything to apologize for. I decided I should start thinking about names. I included Jace and Rosie in my names picking discussion.

 We gathered in my room with the kittens and spent over two hours discussing names.

 "What about Johnathan? And Rosie?" Rosie joked. I looked at her almost serious face causing us to both giggle. I put my hand on my stomach and thought about what last name I would have them take.

 In the end we picked Rosalie, Xu Jin, and if I had two of the same gender the younger one would be Mallu. For middle names I chose Bai, I want them to have a name that can be passed to their children regardless of gender because in my eyes daughters and sons are both precious. The only name left to pick was last names. I didn't want them to take my last name nor did I want them to have Ezra's last name.

 "I'm almost jealous, why can't they be named 'Carstair' after me instead?" Rosie joked.

 "If we are going to consider them my children," Jace started serious but then continued getting into a sarcastic tone, "shouldn't they carry my last name?" Jace winked at me and all three of us shared a glance started laughing. In that moment I made up my mind.

 "I want them to be named Morgenstern. My mind is made and my children have been blessed with names," I stated. "On day I'll tell them the story about how I allowed two psychos to help me bestow upon them their names," I said smiling at my small swollen belly. "I think I'll name the second born Carstair just for you," I said seriously to Rosie. She looked at me like I was joking. "Good it's settled! I can't wait to have my own Carstair child. Good job Rosie!" I told them. Jace and Rosie looked at each other and made a pfft sound. They had no idea how much I valued them but I wanted them to have a slight idea. A name is power. I wanted them to be a part of my childrens name and therefore a part of their power.

 As it was getting dark I got the urge that I needed to leave and I received a call from the Institute. It was someone from the Lightwood family and she invited me out to have a coffee. The night was cool and I felt the need to leave so I agreed and met with the Lightwood girl. She introduced herself as Amely when I arrived. We went to a small shop with no name that was empty except for me, Amely, and the server. I was enjoying the quaint atmosphere of the coffee shop until after I drank my coffee. I suddenly lost ability to move or speak and Amely fainted in front of me. The server had disappeared and Ezra stood in the back corner of the shop. He smiled and walked over to me.

 "Finally meeting your family are you?" He asked I stared at him and felt tears welling in my eyes. If I wasn't paralyzed I'd have froze seeing him. Ezra brushed my hair and caressed my face. I couldn't shiver in disgust physically but I was for sure doing it mentally. He seemed to enjoy seeing me frozen but he also looked bored with it. Ezra poured something into my cup, moved Amely out of the seat in front of me, sat himself in front of me, and then fed me my coffee. Slowly I was able to move again but I wasn't fast enough instead as soon as I began moving Ezra crossed the table and grabbed me holding me into him. Since I was about eight months pregnant with twins no less my swollen belly was very apparent to Ezra. Ezra's face flashed many emotions before he finally moved holding my wrist in a position to keep me in the same position and he caressed my belly with his other hand.

 "Well, well, well..." Ezra said. "It looks like I shouldn't have left you alone. It seems my busy life has saved you and given you time to breed," he said almost angrily but more surprise was in his voice than anything. In my mind I was afraid he would hurt me or my unborn children and I began to shudder. Ezra looked lost in thought as he tried to put forth a theory so he could claim that my child was his. 

 "It's Jace's son I bear," I lied through clenched teeth. "I had been with you for many months but I sleep with Jace onc-" I say being cut of by Ezra grabbing my shoulder violently.

 "You're telling me that the child inside of you is not a Godspeed but instead it is a Morgenstern!!!" Ezra yells angrily with venom in every syllable. I recall the agreement with his father and decide that even though angering Ezra puts me and my children at risk I can escape if I use their names against him.