As i’m walking to gym class i see the boy with glasses in the hall walking too. We look at each other, i immediately put my head down. I’ve always walked with my head down really, i know how to navigate without looking at where i'm going. Of course, being new to this school i'm not sure how to get anywhere, in complete honesty i’m actually following someone who goes to my class. It’s not creepy, its just a good tactic. 

As i walk into the gym and look around, i recognize a boy. I know him, he and i went to one of my elementary schools together! The reason i say “one of my” is because i moved, often. In total i had went to 5 elementary schools. I once had asked my mom why we moved so often, and she said shes ““trying to find where i belong.”” I didn’t really understand at the time but i do now. 

I walk up to him and say “do you remember me?” I have always felt like i’m easily forgotten, or that i’m invisible. “Uhhh you look familiar but i don’t really remember.” He said. I proceed to tell him i went to woodland with him in the 4th grade, and that my name was Kathryn. “OHH i remember now!” He said. I then smiled and walked away. ‘Why did i do that?’ i think to myself. I had liked this boy in 4th grade, of course he really isn’t my type now, but it’s nice to see old friends.

I see Shu standing in her spot, i’d walk up and talk to her, but i'm afraid she may get mad. I don’t know why she would, but i feel like she would. After our gym teacher tells us what we’re doing today, which is dodgeball- again. I stand behind the lines of the game. I don’t want to be in the way or get pushed, plus i’m normally the last one left in games of dodgeball because i can well, dodge, really easily. This skill comes from horse playing with my brother all the time. Cause he actually throws hits, with all his strength, and i can’t lose another tooth. 

Surprisingly Shu comes to me. I ask Shu for her snapchat, because if her and i are gonna be friends i’d like to communicate after school. She gave me her snapchat, i was surprised cause i didn’t think she liked me. This is where things got a little silent between us, she proceeded to tell me she has severe depression and anxiety, and that They are non-binary. I sit there in silence, i feel bad for Them, having those illnesses must be really hard.

I wouldn’t say i have depression, i’m just sad sometimes and it’s normal, i have no need to think i have depression. Anxiety on the other hand, i feel as if thats in most if not every teen. But i’m not actually a teen, i’m only 12. I happen to always be the youngest in my grade. Which is kinda sad, because being the youngest is fun until they try to get you to do their homework. Luckily that didn’t happen at my old school, most of the time. Most kids there were already smart, and didn’t need much help. I’m not really smart though, i can’t seem to understand simple problems.