It is so unbelievably hard to act normal around Elliot when my parents are here, each time we are alone it seems like we keep getting further and further with things and I am so ready for it. Although it doesn’t really seem like Elliot is. 

He keeps saying that he doesn’t want to rush anything which I get but sweetie, come on, I want to have his body on mine like yesterday. It makes me wonder if he has even went far with another guy, I know for a fact that he has with a female which is something I kind of wish I never seen. 

I mean I know that I am kind of young but I know what I am doing so I am hoping that he doesn’t think that this is an issue. If only he knew the guy that I slept with was eighteen he would lighten up a bit.

Maybe I should slow down a bit since we haven’t been together or whatever we are doing for that long. It’s been a couple weeks though and I would seriously love for this to go a little further even if it is just a tiny bit. 

“If you ever get tired of Jaxon or just want a weekend to yourself Elliot please do tell us, seems like we are taking all your free days away from ya.” My mom tried to do a little fake laugh but to be honest nothing was funny. 

This is his job damn it, he can’t just not come and see me. Okay so maybe that sounded a little obsessive or clingy but it really is the only time we can spend time together. 

“It’s all good Mrs. Schneider, I really don’t mind being here I don’t really have that many friends that would want to hang out with me anyways. Jaxon is good company.” Well that just warmed my heart up a bit.

I couldn’t help but to smile when his eyes looked over at me and winked. I just, ugh, why is he so attractive?

“Oh shut up, I bet you all the pretty girls at your school are crazy about you!” Ew, what? No I don’t like where this conversation is going so I am going to stop it now. 

“Gross mom, can you not?” Elliot smirked at me probably cause he thinks I am getting jealous or something when I am really not, I just don’t like to talk about him with any other living thing. 

“Well on that note I should head out. As always, it’s been a pleasure. See you later Jaxon.” He walked passed me so that I could smell his cologne that was absolutely delightful?

Delightful? Seriously, what? Why did I say that? 

“How is Cassius doing Jaxon?” My mom completely scared me out of my thoughts, this isn’t something she likes to talk about. She seriously blames him for everything that happened. 

“He is doing great, glad to have him back in my life. You know, since he is my best friend and everything.” I know I have said this before but when I couldn’t see him or talk to him that shit sucked so much.

“Is he...staying out of uh, trouble?” What does that even mean? He is the last person to get into any type of trouble.

“Are we being serious right now mom? He is home schooled, what kind of trouble could he possibly get into?” Like I really could not believe she said something so stupid to me. 

I couldn’t even tell you the last thing he got in trouble for, maybe talked back to his mom? Hell I really do not know. 

“Well just look at what happened—“

“No, stop right there. Please do not keep blaming something on him that literally had nothing to do with him. I keep trying to explain this to you but you won’t listen.”

“Then explain it to me Jaxon, tell me how his involvement had nothing to do with it?” Is she finally going to let me explain everything to her? 

“Cassius didn’t make me sleep with that guy mom, he didn’t even know him. Yes I didn’t come out until Cass did but that is because he gave me that nerve, I feel open with him. If anything he tried telling me not to mess around with anyone because he didn’t think I should do things that soon. 

“I didn’t listen to him and I wish I did but you live and learn. I just wish you wouldn’t have all of this hate towards him when he did nothing wrong.” She looked at me and slowly nodded, like she as taking it all in. 

This was the first time she actually took the time to listen to me about the situation. It isn’t a conversation that I wanted to have with her but I want Cassius to come over here and actually hang out with me. 

“I know that this whole...thing has been messy and I am sorry for the way your dad and I have went about it. It’s just...it’s not everyday you see...ugh I don’t want to think about it. The point is Jaxon is that we are here for you and want you to be more open. 

“I think with you hanging out with Elliot the way you are is really good for you because he seems like a great person who can help guide you through certain things.” Does she even realize what she is saying? Like, if she only knew how he was guiding me. 

“I want Cassius to come over sometime mom. I miss my best friend.” 

"Okay. Just no funny business okay? Can you do that for me?" Does she seriously think that Cass and I are ever going to do something together? 

"What no mom, he isn't even my type like in anyway. That's why he is my best friend." She smiled a little bit before leaning on the counter to get closer to me. 

"What is your type Jaxon?" Why is this happening to me? When we agreed to be open this is not what I meant at all. 

"No mom, this is not something I want to talk about."

"Can I guess? Please?" Please kill me. Someone. Please.

"Will you leave me alone after?" She nodded her head at me so I rolled my eyes to let her know that I was totally not okay with this but she could continue.

"I bet you like someone who is strong. Who is extremely attractive. Maybe even blonde?" Uh what? Why the hell is she describing Elliot? 

Please tell me that she doesn't know about us already. I think I would hide in a hole and disappear for ever. 

"Why do you say that?" I could feel myself wanting to sweat, like she has done made me so nervous. 

"Because he damn sure is my type." And with that being said she started laughing and walked out of the kitchen to go into a different room. 

Did she really just call my man her type? Now wait a damn minute.