Cloud was really a complicated puzzle for me.

One minute he was talkative and the next he was completely silent.

And his silent was really annoying me right now.

I have been sitting in front of him for a good ten minutes now and he hasn't said one little word to me. He hasn't even acknowledged my presence but I knew that he knew that I was there. He was just acting like if I wasn't in front of him and it was irritating me.

Cloud cleared his throat and I looked at him with the hope that he was going to say something to me but I was completely wrong as he only turned his page before he continued to read his stupid book. Normally, I didn't insult books. I was myself a bookworm but at the instance, I really wanted to take his book and burn it into oblivion.

I started to type my fingers on the table, hoping that it would annoy him to the point of shouting at me but still nothing. It was like he was prepared for everything that I was going to throw at him so it was better to just admit defeat. I sighed miserably as I let my head fall on the table.

Today. just after lunch, Rain had told me that Cloud had arrived at school and that he was in the library. I didn't waste a minute and sprinted to him but when I arrived, it was the same as now. Cloud was ignoring me.

"Cloud," I murmured my head still on the table, "Please, talk to me. This silent is really killing me."

Still no answer and I sighed once more.

"I need to tell you something," I started again, "You don't want to talk, it's okay but I'm going to talk so listen. Alright?"

I waited for an answer but of course, I didn't get one. I guessed I just had to talk then. I sat up correctly and looked at Cloud whose blue eyes were still on the pages of his book. I sighed before I started to talk.

"Today was a really bad day for me," I started as I played with my fingers, "Emma insulted me and it really hurt me, you know. She treated me of a liar, a slut and she said that I was a little piece of shit and according to her, we...we...kissed. She said that we kissed last Friday night at the party."

I looked at Cloud, waiting for a reaction but I didn't get one. It was unbelievable. He was very good in acting like I wasn't there. To tell the truth, it hurt me a little bit that he wouldn't talk to me. I didn't know what I did to him. If I remembered correctly the last conversation that we had, we didn't fight, it was the complete opposite. We went away on good terms.

At least that was what I remembered.

If Emma was telling the truth about me being with Cloud at the party then it meant that the last conversation that I remembered having with him, wasn't really the last conversation that I had with him. I remembered that the last time that I talked to Cloud was when Emma found both of us in the library. And that was all. It was the last time that I saw Cloud but now it seemed to me that my memory was untrue.

"I don't remember anything," I continued, "I don't remember the kiss. I don't even remember that I went to this party. It's so confusing right now. Everything is confusing. I no longer know what to believe and also no longer had any friends. Emma is angry with me. Nicolas broke up with her and she thinks that it is my fault so she stopped talking to me and of course, the others will also stop talking to me as Emma is their friend longer than I am. But it's alright, I sat with Rain today during lunch and I met his friends who must surely also be yours. They are twins, Cale and Calum. For some reasons, their names seem familiar to me but I can't remember where I heard them. It was also like that with my new English teacher, his name is Alexandro Vins."

At the sound of the name of my new English teacher, I felt Cloud tense. I examined him and he looked like he was burning with rage inside of him. Rain had the same expression at the sight of the new teacher. They must surely know him and the way Cloud's hands were strengthening around his book, this meant that I touched a sensitive nerve.

I decided to stay silent until Cloud calmed down before I continued my story. It was better. I looked around the library which as always was completely silent. It was no surprise after all, it was a library. But I never found someone, apart from me and Cloud, here reading a book or doing research work. It was really bizarre and questionable.

Maybe they all stopped coming here because of Cloud?

The fact that he was always reading a book there must have scared them away. I chuckled at my own thought. It was amazing how much some rumors about him could scare people away but I guessed that not all people was afraid of him. Take Emma for example. That girl really hated Cloud. I saw it in her eyes when she talked about him or even when his name was mentioned in her presence.

What made her hate him so much?

That was a question that I was asking myself for some times now. Emma couldn't hate Cloud so much without a reason. Something must have happened between them. Something that generated the hate that Emma had for Cloud. Then what was it?

I looked at Cloud, expecting to get all the answers to my questions. He was so complicated. I couldn't understand him and maybe it was because he didn't want anyone to. I never met someone with so much secrets in my entire life. He was like mystery itself.

Since I was a little child, I kinda had a love for mystery and I could find mysteries in books which according to me made me get a love for books. But I was also sometimes afraid to know the truth. Behind all mysteries was the truth.

The truth was terrifying but when I thought about Cloud's mysteries, I thought about how much I wanted to know his secrets. It was a difficult task. A task that would be so easy if Cloud just let me in. It was like he put a thousand of walls around him so that nobody could reach him, including me.

Or maybe I got all wrong?

Maybe Cloud was just afraid that people saw the true him, his true self. Or maybe, he was protecting himself from the darkness around him, but if he shut up everything, how could he see the light when it was reaching for him.

Cloud, you are so confusing, I thought.

"I want to know you," I told Cloud at last, "I want to know all of your secrets. It's just something that I can't help. I wish that you would just let me in. It would be so easy for both of us. I have so many questions that I want you to answer but you continue to push me away from the answers. You said that I must find the truth by myself but it's difficult, if you don't even want me to find the answers, Cloud. Why are you so complicated? And why the hell I am so much attracted to you? I just want to know the truth. Right now, I felt like I'm surrounded by darkness. It's tiring and unbearable to be left in the dark. I just-"

I stopped talking when I felt a single tear rolled down my cheek and I quickly wiped it away. But then another tear followed by another one fell down my cheeks and as much as I tried to stop crying I couldn't.

"Why am I crying? I don't want to but I can't stop," I said and for the first time since I have been here, Cloud looked at me and I felt more like crying.

I started to feel something in my eyes but I wasn't talking about something like dust or anything. I was feeling something inside of my eyes and it hurt. But strangely, it was a familiar pain. I had felt it before. But the only difference now was that the pain was bearable. It was still there, I could feel it but I could also support it.

I closed my eyes before I removed my glasses. Slowly, I passed my fingers on my eyes. There was something, I just didn't know what. My eyes opened slightly and saw something standing behind Cloud. It was there and it made my eyes widened. It was like a black shadow but my vision was blurry and I couldn't see it clearly.

I quickly put my glasses back on but the shadow had already disappeared. I looked around but nothing. Okay, now it was really getting scary. I swear I just saw something. I continued to look around but then I heard Cloud cleared his throat and I looked at him. His eyes were already on me and we stared at each other. Then he did the thing that I was waiting for him to do.

"We did kiss," Cloud said at last and my eyes widened slightly, "I was the one to kiss you."

"But how can I not remember?" I asked him, despite the fact that another question was burning my lips.

"You were drunk," he replied and I shook my head.

"It can't be. I don't drink," I protested but Cloud only shrugged.

"Maybe, but you did at the party. You were drunk so of course, you will forget everything," Cloud explained.

"But Emma said that it was because of both of us that Nicolas broke up with her. Is it also true?" I asked Cloud hesitantly.

"Part true," he answered, "Emma was, like always, acting like a bitch. She searched for it so I snapped. Besides, it's only because of her that Nicolas broke up with her. I just made Nicolas see the truth."

"Which is?"

"Emma cheated on him with someone else. If you want to know who, it was with Cale," Cloud said.

"Cale. The Cale that I talked to?" I asked and he nodded, "So he slept with her. Didn't he know that she was with Nicolas?"

"He didn't at first," Cloud said, "It's Emma who was going after him and Cale had enough so he slept with her so that she could leave him alone. But then he discovered that Emma had in fact a boyfriend but Cale preferred to not say anything."

"But now he did," I said and Cloud nodded.

"Yes, he did because I told him to tell Nicolas," Cloud confessed, "But you have nothing to do with that. It wasn't your fault. Emma wants just someone to put the blame on and she puts it on you. But Luffy if she did that, that means that she isn't your friend and she never was in the first so stop thinking about her and move on."

"I don't have any other friends," I informed him and he looked at me.

"Yes, you have. You just don't see it," he replied before he finally closed his book. But there was also something else that I wanted to know.

"How was the kiss?" I asked Cloud without thinking. My eyes widened when I realized what I just asked him and he seemed as surprised as I was.

"It..It was..," Cloud started but then he shook his head at himself, "Luffy, sometimes there are some questions that are better left unanswered."

"But it was my first kiss. I just want to know how it was," I told Cloud as he stood up. He stopped and looked at me weirdly and I blushed slightly.

"Trust me, the first kiss aren't always the best," Cloud said before he started to walk away.

"But a first kiss with you is something else," I murmured or I thought I did as Cloud stopped in his track and looked at me and it made me blush again. But thankfully, Cloud didn't say anything, he just smirked at me before he walked away.

I stayed some more minutes sitting down before I stood up and started to walk out of the library but I stopped dead in my track when I felt a presence behind me. It was there coming nearer to me, I could feel it but I couldn't move. Whoever it was, now it was standing just behind me. I could feel its breath on my neck and it sent a shiver down my spine. I then felt its hand ruffled my hair slightly and I gulped.

I slowly turned around but when I looked behind me there was no one. I stood there in the middle of the library in confusion. I was alone. I looked around but still no one. I swear that there was just someone behind me.

Then instead of doing what any other human beings would have done in this situation, that was running away, I did the complete opposite. I started to look around the library. I was scared but that didn't stop me and I continued to look around. The wanting of knowing the truth was more stronger than my fear.

I passed through the aisles of books but still nothing. I continued to walk til I arrived to the last aisle which was at the back of the library. I stood here and looked around but there was only old books here. I sighed in defeat before I started to walk out of the library for a second time. I was nearly out of the last aisle when I heard something fell to the ground and I jumped.

I turned around and found a big book on the ground. I frowned as I walked towards it. I picked it up from the floor and looked at it. There was a strange symbol on the book. I didn't know what it was. I touched it with my fingers slowly. The symbol was like calling me. I felt something while I was touching it. There was also something written on it but I couldn't clearly identify it. This book was old, very old.

"How did that book fall down?" I asked myself as I put it in its place on the shelf. I started to walk out of here but I heard, again, something fall down. I looked back and it was the same book. I groaned before I picked it up again from the ground. "Okay, it's no longer funny. Who is it?" I asked but I didn't get a reply.

I looked at the book then looked at its place on the shelf before I sighed. The temptation of taking it with me was there but I had a feeling that I shouldn't. I looked at the book once more before I walked away, the book still in my hands.

But what I didn't know was that this book wouldn't bring anything good to me.