Saturday, December 30th, 2017

I kind of wanna incorporate how I always still liked you, and how special you were to me. Emphasis on WERE. I'm still stuck on the first part of the second verse, since I'm not sure how I'll transition over into the next part. I know that this is going to be a painful process, and I'm a bit scared of what will happen after I'm done writing this, but *c'est la vie. Here's what I have so far:

I was feeling down

You picked me off the ground

And you turned my anger off

Although I'd had enough

You're the sunshine in my day

The stars at night

And that's why

Okay, maybe that sounds like I'm not ready to let go of you. Maybe deep down, I'm really NOT ready for this. But you can't be prepared for this kind of thing, can you? If you are, that means you weren't in love didn't have in-depth feelings for them. Or you're used to you're crush not liking you; if that's the case, please look after yourself first before liking others. But who am I kidding, I'm no therapist. I can't even fix my own problems at the moment.

Sunday, December 31st, 2017

It's New Year's Eve. The last day of 2017, and the prelude to a better year: 2018. Well, HOPEFULLY, it'll be a better year. I've got New Year's resolutions, too. 1. Clean my room every 2 weeks. 2. Don't fall for jerks (didn't tell my parents this one though, haha). 3. Something else (I need to come up with one more).

I'm at my great-grandma's house to celebrate. We get to light up the big fireworks since her house is on the beach. I'm glad to be ringing the in the New Year on a happier note. Oh yeah, I've finally finished the song. The lyrics that come before what I wrote yesterday goes like this:

But how do I explain?

Some things aren't simple or plain

I've got a million things to say

Like, how you made my day, when

And then it goes to the lyrics from yesterday ^^. I'm really liking this song. And then the chorus changes to

I can't let you go, let you go

I've gotta hold on, no, hold on, no

Can't let you go, let you go

Oh no, oh

Can't let you go, let you go

Gotta hold on, no, hold on, no

I can't let you go, let you go

Oh no, oh

I'll probably add some more to it later, since it's a pretty short song. Regardless, I love it! I know it's not really an ideal breakup song, but it captures both the good and bad sides of a relationship (even though we WEREN'T in a relationship). Maybe it's just a toxic love song. Anyways, it's 5 until midnight, I'm gonna go outside and watch the fireworks!