The redhead looked up, confused, “Like what?”

“It’s been nine years since we’ve seen each other and with how things ended…”

Saku shook his head, a tired smile on his face. That was when Suzu realized how close they were and just how tired Saku actually was. He looked like he was struggling to keep his eyes open, that he’d been keeping himself awake simply for Suzu’s sake. Suzu wanted so badly to embrace him at that moment. 

“I’ll admit, what happened was bad. But I like to think that we’ve both experienced enough of life to not hold grudges over something so long ago.”  

“But what I did it—”

“It was cruel, yeah. But, well, it was also necessary. I mean, who knows where we’d be if it hadn’t ended?”

Something about that answer just didn’t sit well with Suzu. It felt so shallow, so fake. There was no way Saku was really ok with what happened. 

And there was no way that Suzu was either, that it hadn’t left him with so much guilt and agony. He wanted nothing more than to go back and change it all. Make it ok. Make it so they were together again.

But in a weird way. They were together again. Sure, they were trapped in a car, during a storm, and hours away from anywhere, but they were together. 

And that thought alone was enough to push Suzu to do something stupid. 

Stupid but amazing.

He moved up and gently took Saku’s face into his hands before he pressed his lips against the other. 

Soft and silky. That was all Suzu could think as he kissed Saku. 

He did expect the other to possibly push him away or even slap him.

But Saku didn’t do that.

He froze up at first but then, he responded by eagerly kissing Suzu back. 

And god it was perfect. It was everything Suzu had missed, everything he had yearned for. How long had his body been aching for Saku? He wanted to lose himself in the other, and the temptation grew as Saku parted his lips ever so slightly, inviting Suzu to keep going. 

But Suzu resisted, he pulled back and looked down at Saku, staring into the blue pools that were filled with want. Want for him. 

“Saku you deserve better. What I did to you was selfish and cowardly. You should be mad, you should hate me.”

He didn’t want to say it out loud because he didn’t want that. But it was honestly what he deserved as he thought back on how he had so horribly ruined things.