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Head vomit

12-year-old's trans rant

12-year-old's trans rant

Aug 01, 2021

When I stand as a witness, you will be there, saying I'm the reason they killed themselves,
A blatant lie from the one who handed them the rope.
When I'm tried for my "crime", you will be there, saying that I'm a witch, that I can't possibly exist,
Words straight from between the shapeshifter's pointed teeth.
You were the judge, the jury and the executioner,
All the "her"s and "ma'am"s and "little girl"s like needles full of poison, roiling through my veins with a vengeance,
Clouding my judgement and fogging my mind.
& It's people like you who make me hide who I am, internalizing my anger and fear,
Like a stormy ship in a bottle.
& It's people like you who say "You can be anything", then tell me I'm wrong when I repeat it back.
Because "being anything" is for the boys, and the lie that I'm anything but first came from you.
The thing you'll never get is that what's between my legs will never compare to what's inside my skull.
I hope that when they bury me, the guiltakes you sick enough to burst.
I hope that while I decay, you see your crimes for what they are.
And I hope your atrocities haunt you to your own resting place.
You took away the life of a young man, all because you called him she.
boyman
Jaymes Mantodea

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Don't you just hate it when you sit in your closet to read/draw, and your dad always tells you to come out of the closet, but you have an internal crisis every time because you can't tell whether he means it literally or to tell him you're gay on a Tuesday at 10:00 I'm the morning?
Yeah, I do, too.

#that_comment_was_really_specific_for_a_reason_ #It_happens_all_the_time #I_really_hate_it_because_hes_the_king_of_dad_jokes #So_I_dont_know_if_hes_serious #Half_the_time_hes_joking #But_then_I_wonder #IS_HE_SERIOUS_AND_IM_JUST_CLUELESS

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This speaks to me. Also, I like the way you write these. It doesn't feel like just a random splurge of thoughts, and it still feels structured despite being a free-verse poem while maintaining the point you want to get across.

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