Since I can remember, I have notice how people have always fight against the fact that life is unpredictable, because they refuse to accept that they couldn’t oversee what was waiting to happen. And when I laughed at those people, they would often tell me that I was just like them, and at the beginning I was stubborn about it, believing I was somehow superior from the rest, but when life forced me to live the unimaginable, I gave up, and with that pain in my tuzhnechj I wished really hard to have seen in advance that which fills my janzori with sorrow, and at the same time I got to understand that no matter how hard I tried to be ready there was no chance in hell I could ever be prepared for the storm that was coming for me.

That Lirtardum[1] when I woke up, I felt empty, I knew everything was over, and there was nothing I could do about it. I didn’t eat nor made an effort to shower, and the only times got up from my bed were for going to the bathroom, and if it wasn’t for the fact that my mother was away in Verdya, I would also be trying to stop her from entering my room. The next morning I didn’t wanted to go to school, but I told myself that maybe I was being exaggerated, so I gathered all my energy to drag myself out of the bed and got ready for the day.  

I arrived late to school, and for my voch’ssajani at the first two hours I had history class, that meant Muknilat Zientek was going to do something to remind me that he hated me, as always, but that day was going to be worse since I was late. When I entered to the classroom Muknilat Zientek wasn't there hopefully, and with that relieve I was about to sit down on the front, when I heard that someone was calling me, I turned my head back just to see that the ones calling my were my two supposed best azhnerechj’x, Dominik Tokarz, the "leader" of our group and also the most popular guy at school, and Elian Voker, Dominik's personal slave and the one that we called just Voker because he thought he had a girly name.

- Zavan’ Luke, how was the test? - Dominik asked me even though he didn't care, as I sat down on the row next to them, but before I could say anything, Muknilat Zientek and his smell of old books entered to the classroom, and with his arms crossed he stood up right behind me, looking at me like if I had just insulted his mother.

- Well Kromtareff Hadsan, now that Hakmetali Kovar isn't here who is going to keep you from been expelled from my class? - he said while moving his enormous moustache side to side. So there I was, completely embarrassed and exposed, I wasn’t planning to tell them about Julia, I was hoping that Dominik didn't asked me about it.

- Who is he talking about? - Voker asked me with that stupid expression he used to make and that really bothered me, I could tell that caught Dominik’s venomous attention, but not saying anything and ignoring them was the first mistake of that day.

I went as fast as I could out from the classroom when the bell rang and the first two classes were over, believing that would save me from confronting my azhnerechj’x.

- Luke, who is that girl Muknilat Zientek was talking about? - Dominik asked very rude.

- No one important, okay?! It was just someone I met in the preparation nachtrajari, and that is it! - I answered very angry, and I was acting like that because I didn't want it to repeat what happened almost a year before. Faith Bossen was my other best azhnerechj, eventually she became my herriku[2], and she was shy and sweet just like Julia, one nachtrajari before Galai I decided present her to Dominik, I didn't saw Faith or Dominik during the whole nachtrajari, until the third day of Galai that I discovered that my herriku was cheating on me with my best azhnerechj, after that I broke up with her, Faith seemed like she didn’t cared at all and made her relationship with Dominik official, ultimately she had a complete transformation of personality, but for the worst, I lost her and I didn't do anything about it, and I wouldn't let that to happen again with Julia, even if we were not longer azhnerechj’x.

At the breakfast recess, the three of us went to the cafeteria, I was just about to sat down on Julia's hidden table, when I saw Bianka sitting down there and remembered that Julia was no longer in my life, so I followed Dominik and Voker to the table I used to sit before the Personality Test, that was the second mistake, I shouldn’t had sat down with them and embraced that reality I was creating.

I thought that the morning was already depressing, but then after the 5^th class, Faith arrived and started kissing Dominik like if there were no tomorrow, and as if the rest of us didn’t existed, I couldn't stand that, so I just went alone to the cafeteria to have lunch, I went straight towards the hidden table so I didn't have to see Dominik and Faith “loving” each other. When I sat down, I took out my lunch from my backpack angry and fuiraleh at the same time, a few minutes later Dominik, Faith and Voker passed by the table, but they didn't even noticed me, so I continue eating alone while I looked through the window trying to see the "wurntika", but then Bianka arrived and sat down on the table with her arms crossed very sassy, and ruining the moment, again.

- Bianka Mlynar, to what do I owe the pleasure of your company? - I said trying to be sarcastic and rude.

- Luke Hadsan, aren't you supposed to be sitting down with the fake people over there? - Bianka said sarcastic and very rude, pointing towards the table where Dominik and the others were sitting down.

- Fake? - I asked her confused.

- Come on Luke, don't be so innocent, everybody knows that if you are that pompous of course you must be equally fake, is just how nature works - she said leaving me silent. I hated Bianka, in every single way it could possibly exist, but still she was my only connection to Julia, I needed to make an effort.

- Anyway... How is Julia doing? - I asked her after a while, I tried not to sound like if I was very worried, although I was.

- If you must know, I talked with her parents last night, they told me that Julia was doing better, she should be back to school this Paruchjne[3] - she replied while eating.

- Do you know what happened to her? I asked a nurse in the nlyflar’s infirmary, but she wouldn’t tell, and when I asked Julia in the Qarihopte Markazi she didn't seem to remember - I said with a shaky voice.

- It was terrible, according to the Guardians that was the first time something like that ever happened, that fact is that Julia was climbing a wall with a rope tide to a huge nokantori branch, the rope broke, she fell down and smashed herself into the rocky floor, then while she was trying to get up, the stupid branch broke too and landed on Julia, leaving her unconscious, and for its delight, the branch had some other "tiny" very sharp branches on it that ended stabbing Julia on the stomach, chest, legs and part of her arms - she said sighing, that made lose my appetite and made me feel weird.

- Don't worry, she would be fine, I'm going to try to visit her at the qarihopte after class - she said calmly and with a soft voice.

- Bianka, is there any chance I can go with you? - I asked her while twisting my hands under the table.

- Demiah’jaru, I'm sure Julia would be ultari to see you, but I don't even know if they are going let me see her - she answered.

- Don't worry, never mind - I said disappointed, anxious and a bit mad, then Bianka looked at me in a very weird way and crossed her arms again.

- Luke, do you have that kind of feelings for Julia? And don't lie to me - she said firmly.

- Of course not Bianka, don't be absurd, she was just a very bariko azhnerechj - I lied angry with myself and with the janzori broken, and that was the third and most painful mistake, not acknowledging my azhnechjzaa nor my feelings.

- Excuse me, “was”? - Bianka asked immediately.

- Well yes, it was an arrangement only valid during the preparation nachtrajari, now is back to normality - I responded very proud.

- Arrangement? Very well, tell yourself that - she said laughing sarcastically.   

When school was finally over, I went to look for my bike at the school's entrance, I was about to go home when Dominik arrived walking very fast and with strong steps.

- Luke! - he said loudly, I was already sitting down on my bike when he pushed me, throwing me to the floor.

- What's wrong with you?! Why is everything with you have to be solved with violence?! - I shouted while I stood up from the floor.

- Where have you been Luke?! You avoided us the entire day, why are you acting so weird?! - Dominik shouted, he had his face so red, I could swear he was about to explode.

- That’s none of your business Dominik! Since when you care about anything I do?! - I said with my face turning red of anger.

- Since you have been gone just for one nachtrajari and then you come back acting like a completely different person and apparently going out with that girl Bianka, what is happening to you?! - he said more relaxed, yet the simple idea of Dominik, or anyone for that matter, thinking that I liked Bianka romantically made me sick.

- Bianka Mlynar?! She is just someone I happen to know; I would never go out with her! - I said picking up the bike from the floor

- Then who is the girl that Muknilat Zientek mention this morning?! - he asked me very insistent, I didn't wanted to tell him, but I was so angry that it just came out, I couldn’t stop myself.

- You want to know!? Fine! Her name is Julia Kovar, she is most beautiful and smart girl I had ever known, she is ten, twenty, thirty times better person and azhnerechj than you will ever be, and she is all mine! - I shouted shaking my arms in the air like crazy, Dominik's face turned red again.

- Oh, better than me?! No one is better than me, I have been your best azhnerechj since we were 4 years old and... - he was saying when I interrupt him abruptly.

- Best azhnerechj?! You treat me and Voker like gazhnah, you have ruined my life, you're mean, selfish and useless! I wish I had never met you! - I said shouting.

- You're nothing without me Luke! - he shouted too.

- Well I rather be nothing and be completely alone than to continue being azhnerechj’x with you! - I shouted, Dominik didn't say anything, I could notice a very small tear on his left eye, I sat down again on my bike and began to ride it away.

- You have done a terrible mistake Luke Hadsan! And you will pay for it! - Dominik screamed in the back, and as he said that was mistake, the fourth one in that day and the one I would regret in the future.

After destroying a fake azhnechjzaa with horrible person, I thought I would feel better, but once more I was wrong, while passing by the orange gardens, I realized that Dominik knew about Julia, that meant he would use her to do something, I didn’t know what or when, to make suffer, more or less like what happened with Faith, only this time worse and with a real reason. The last thing I needed in that moment was to see my parents at home, but the Rakuro’x hate me, so the first thing I saw when I opened the front door of my house was my mother.

- Zavan’tiezhe sweetie, how was your day? - she asked me like if she was talking to a baby.

- I thought you guys were coming back until more or less Zhelverika - I replied.

- Well... We decided to come earlier this time, so we could be with you - she said twisting her hands, I knew that meant she was lying.

- Why are you really back, mother? - I asked her while rolling my eyes to one side.

- Your father wants to talk with you, he is on the living room - she said, she was about to hug me, but I pushed her back softly, I wasn’t in the mood for Hadsan family melodrama, I went to the living room very serious, and there was my father, standing in front of the chimney, staring at the family painting.

- Did you need me Muknilat? - I said in most respectful way I found, he turned back to me, putting his arms behind his back.

- I just wanted to know how your Personality Test was - he said, I really didn’t wanted to talk about that, I just wanted to go upstairs and cry.

- It was fine, father - I answered, even though I was very tempted to answer something like “cut the chase, what do you want?”.

- I don't know if you have received your folder yet, but I'm sure that one of your results was green and I count that green would be your decision, right son? - he said coming closer to me.

- Yes Muknilat - I lied looking to the floor, and after the worst 15 seconds of my life, I went upstairs directly to my bedroom knowing I had done a terrible fifth and last mistake of the day, promising that lie had made my life even harder, and the chaos that those mistakes were going to bring over my life was so unpredictable that I went to sleep that night as if they were nothing. The next day I didn't went to school, nor the next, I felt mentally sick, but I told my mother I had a stomachache, so I stayed again in bed the whole day, planning how to make Julia my azhnerechj again and not to sound like if I was desperate.