I have always thought that the word “naive” has been used wrongly to describe innocent people with very strong desires or with very pure dreams, people that decide to follow blindly something they truly believe in, no matter how laughable that might be or how many warnings they found in their way to achieve it. To bet your life on something you think is right doesn’t make you ignorant or childish, it means you have trust not only in what you set your janzori on, but in yourself. The problem is when the rest of the creation breaks that trust, leaving you alone and making a joke out of your desires and dreams, in that exact moment is when someone truly becomes “naive”, I could had never imagine that was about to happen to me.

Paruchjne was a very cold and dark day, it was also raining, but not just a small drizzle, it actually looked like a huge storm was coming. After two days of drowning myself in my own thought and pity, I still felt fuiraleh and sick, maybe by staying in bed I made my mental situation even worse, but when you’re 15 and suddenly you have no azhnerechj’x, lied for the first time to your suffocating father about a very delicate matter, and also believed that maybe you have lost the one person you loved the most in the creation, it truly fills like the end of all times has finally reach you; yet I used the few energy I had left in my body to get myself ready for school. I tried to convince my mother that they would cancel class due to the bad weather, but she decided to ignore it, I could tell she was tired of having me there making “drama”.

As the streets were too wet to use my bike and the estoryka kri praaduli way too full of desperate wet Agryssians, I didn't have other choice rather than to grab an umbrella from the kitchen and walk all the way to school. Surprisingly I arrived early but still very wet, because apparently every step I took was equal to a higher level in the raining scale, as I couldn’t leave my shoes in the ichjliazh, I decided to go directly to the cafeteria and wait for the bell to ring so I could ran to the first hour, I thought I would have to wait alone but it turned out that I’d have till the last tuzhnechj of the school to make me company. After a few minutes, I was able to find my way through the other students and sat on the hidden table, at the same time as the headmistress Zernufi Alba Alkara announced that due to the horrible weather and due to the "bariko" conditions of the oldest school in the city, classes would be canceled, and we would have to wait for the storm to stop in the cafeteria so we could go home.

It wasn’t the best way to start the day, I remember thinking that it couldn’t get any worst but in that exact moment I saw Dominik talking to a bunch of other students and pointing to where I was, I felt very unsafe when all those people turned back and looked at me like if I were a criminal, I knew that it was about time before Dominik’s rumor spreader like a disease between the student body. I didn’t care if outside was a bloody natural disaster, I just needed to get out of that cafeteria, and I was planning to, but in that second, I saw through the door a girl with brown wavy hair, shaking her umbrella, I stood up trying to see who was responsible for this ghostly apparition, and while I got closer, I began to catch more and more detail, until it was undeniable the fact that the girl was Julia. After that sudden realization, I ran the distance left between me and her like if I was possessed, I pushed people and chairs, nothing could stopped me, and once I was in front of her, I hugged her as hard as if I hadn’t seen her in 8 long years, I even lift her from the floor.

- Havarizh’ Gairah you're okay - I said with her still in my arms.

- I could be better if you could just let me breathe - she said softly with a little laugh, soon realized I was suffocating her, so quickly I left Julia back in the floor ashamed of myself.

- Demiah’jaru, I didn't mean to hurt you with that hug - I said like an idiot.

- It's okay Luke, is nice to see that you missed me - she said recovering her breath.

- Just a bit - I answered trying to be funny, and of course it wasn't, but still she laughed, I miss so much that laugh of hers. When we found our way back to our hidden table, it surprised me the fact that Bianka had not appeared near us or anywhere in the cafeteria.

- Julia did something happened to Bianka? I haven't seen her around and is weird she isn’t here watching you like a blackcoat - I asked confused.

- Is funny what you think of her, but don't worry, she is just sick, Bianka will be back on Vurnechj, why do you ask though? - she answered while she took off her yellow raincoat that matched with her boots.

- It's that by this time she should be already here making fun of me or ruining special moments - I said with a sarcastic voice, Julia laugh again.

- Demiah’jaru, it seems like Bianka has been giving you a hard time, I know she can be very rude and that she usually speaks her mind, she tends to be like that with strangers, just give her time to trust you - she responded still laughing.

- I don’t blame her, I happen to have a “bad reputation”, anyway but how can you say she is "just sick" when she is going to be back until Vurnechj!? I mean, she must be very ill - I continue with my interrogation about Bianka's disappearance.

- Relax Luke, this happens when she gets very worried about something or when she is under a lot of pressure, she begins to feel dizzy and then her head starts to ache and then the pain goes down to her spine, she usually remains like that for about five days, happens all the time, I will go and check up on her today after school - she said very calm, I was shocked by the way she took that matter, but they were azhnerechj’x for a long time so I guessed it was normal for them.

The seconds of silence soon became minutes, I was getting anxious, Julia was reading a new book while she drank her warm beverage, you could notice the scars on her lower lip and some on her neck if you paid attention; looking at her sitting there so calm made me wonder with thousands of questions about what happened in the last four days, there were actually just three: what happened after I left the qarihopte that night? Where we still azhnerechj’x? And what color was she going to choose? That last one was perhaps the most relevant. Once we reach 20 minutes of silence between us and after organizing my questions and ideas in my head, I took a deep breath.

- So I was wondering...- I began saying fast, Julia looked at me with the book still open in her hands.

- What happened after I left the qarihopte? And by that, I mean that night and the following four days - I asked a bit nervous, Julia closed her book and putted on top of the table.

- It wasn't much actually, after you left without saying goodbye, the doctor said I was very zajanoi the accident didn't left any permanent damage and that I could be able to go home on Uqifum morning, so I spent the next fifty hours looking to the ceiling, eating horrible qarihopte food, and having to take lots of medicines, finally I was set free yesterday in the morning, and didn't do gazhnah the rest of the day, I think that summarizes pretty well the last four days - she finally said and took a sip of her drink.

- Do you feel any pain? - I asked her in a shy way.

- Not anymore but sometimes is hard to breath so they still gave some pills just in case - she responded while crossing her arms, at that point I was trying to continue the conversation so I could shoot my other two questions without being weird.

- And did you get your results folder? - I asked calmly.

- You opened it and read the results for me in the qarihopte - she said smiling with confusion, and I looked like an idiot.

- Oh yes, I had forgotten - I responded smiling awkwardly.

- It's okay, and have you decided a color yet? - she asked me, saving from more awkwardness.

- I haven’t give it much thought yet, but my father really wants me to go to Verdya and follow into his footsteps, like my brother did, but I'm not sure - I answered a bit down.

- But it's that what you really want? I mean, is that the life that you want for yourself? - she asked me with her suspicious look.

- I don't know, his life was awesome till one point, and I don't want to disappoint him, but I don't want to be anyone's shadow either - I said looking at Julia.

- If your father really loves you and wants you to be ultari, he needs to understand and respect your decision no matter what, but if he doesn't accept it or think you're a disappointment, well he is going to have to live with it and you would have to learn that you don't need everyone’s approval to be ultari and successful in life - she finally said smiling while she took my hand, I tried so hard no to blush, but I failed.

- Havarizh’te Julia - I said smiling softly.

- Of course Luke, that's what azhnerechj’x are for - she responded and leaned back on her chair.

- So this means we’re azhnerechj’x again? - I asked her excited.

- When did we stop being azhnerechj’x? You are not getting rid of me that easy- she said with a huge smile and punch me softly on the shoulder, I was so relieved and ultari that it made me forget to ask my third question, also because we went out topic.

We kept talking and joking around for a while, it was those kinds of conversations that even though they were pointless with the right person they become the most interesting thing in the creation, accompanied by the best of feelings. I was telling Julia about the ride back home from the qarihopte and how painful it was, when some people passed by our table whispering and laughing, I knew they were talking about me, I felt terrible and stopped talking.

- Is everything okay Luke? - Julia asked me with her suspicious look. She was going to hear the rumors eventually, so I decided to tell her truth first. It took me more or less an hour to tell Julia my whole history with Dominik, from the first betrayal until what had happened the previous day, although I skipped the part where I said she was all mine, and how I knew he was going to take revenge by telling fake rumors, she listened carefully and nodded every now and then, it was the first time in my life I ever told anyone the truth about my “azhnechjzaa” with Dominik, and it actually felt bariko to let it all out.

- You two sure have a rocky past - Julia said sarcastic when I was finally done.

- But how are you feeling? Leaving him should not had been easy - she added.

- Well… I was enraged when it all happened, so in that moment I couldn’t feel anything else, later I felt horrible, because I realized that in 10 seconds, I destroyed everything I knew, but now I’m feeling better I guess - I answered speaking slowly and with a soft voice, it seemed like if I had reach a new level of peace.

- That’s the only thing that matters, that you are feeling better now, and remember you can count on me - Julia said smiling.

- Havarizh’te Julia - I answered also with a smile, knowing Julia believed me and that she was by my side made me feel relieved.