Do I really feel this way?

I look at you and say no way.

But in the end my heart pulls taught 

whenever you invade my thoughts.

It's such a manotionus game I play

let you in 

keep you at bay. 

Breathing in 

breathing out 

how I wish I could shout:

‘God why have you forsaken me, to live with this uncertainty. Is it love or is it lies? 

Do I wish for friendship or their nights? Please god answer me.

Sincerely,

Uncertainty.’