I took a week long break so I could think about a bombshell that I, myself, dropped on the floor. I broke up with my girlfriend, and for me its felt like weird expirence. I've never really had a realationship or someone Im friends with, have an interest in me. 

We dated for about 3 months until I cut it off with her. I ended it because I was getting some red flags from her.

The first one was her talking to my friend (All of us were in a friend group) about being Polyamorous. For those of you who don't know what that is, its when your in a relationship with more than 2 people. My first reaction (obviously) was "What the fuck, why would she not tell me about that?" 

She was the kinda person who is (in my words) "BALLS DEEP IN LGBT." She was Gender Fulid, She was Bisexual, and she was thinking about being Polyamourus. I wanted nothing to do with it.

She also liked two another guy while I was dating her as my friend told me.

I told her over text that I wanted to break up with her and told her why. Turns out that her liking someone else was a rumor. I told her that we should just remain as friends. Nothing more or less.

I talked to her an asked if could be friends again. It sucks now because she hates me. Yes, i made a dumb choice, but it is what it is.

After I broke up with her, I felt mixed emotions. On one side, I feel free that I'm no longer chained to a relationship. I can be myself without being what she wants me to be. On the other side, I feel alone and unhappy sometimes. I'm just gloomy for no reason. I hope I can over come this slope. My friends have been helping me with the recent events and I'm glad I can have them at my side. I now know, I'm not alone, and in a way, I'm loved.