I felt I am in a long bad dream. I took two hours flight to his city. It felt somehow strange and familiar. I tried to make myself brave all the way. I kept telling myself that after all, the bride is just a substitute.
Until I reached the venue, my shell was shattered. A deep feeling of regret grabbed me.

I saw several of our common friends. I was so afraid they are going to see me. So, I went to bridal friends table far from the stage.

I saw Jamie smiling and greeting friends and families from afar. I can't believe I am here, at his wedding. I will witness someone I love holding someone else's hand and saying the wedding vows!

I buried my head down and pretend to be swiping Twitter and Facebook. But my eye lids kept twitching, there are tears coming out from it from any minutes. I finally realised I should not be here at all, it's a huge mistake!

'Queenie, you are my love.' I scrolled to old Facebook posts he made, tears finally came out.

The wedding finally started, the host are making jokes and telling the love stories of the groom and bride. I don't have any strength to look that way. At this moment, I realised there's no possibility between me and him anymore. My stupid ego pushed him to another girl. It doesn't matter that the bride is my substitute or what. She is the one he chose at the end, the one he chose to spend the rest of his life with.
The host asked, 'anything the groom would like to say to the bride?'

Everyone was laughing and cheering, no one paid any attention to me.

"Queenie you are the love of my life!" He shouted.

I lift my head up shockingly. I heard a round of applause. The bride smiled like an angle.

"Jamie is most romantic guy, isn't it? Who else can wait for 10 years for a girl? "A lady beside me said.

"Yes, if Queenie didn't move to Paris with her parents for all these years.
they should have been together since high school." Another lady beside me said.

I opened the wedding invitation with my shaking hands. 'Welcome to Jamie and Queenies Wedding!'

I asked with my shaking voice. "When did Queenie moved back?"

"Around a year ago, Jamie went to the airport and expressed his love to Queenie right there. How romantic!"

The lady beside me suddenly said "You know, you look like Queenie in some angle...."

So I am actually the substitute all along! He didn't want someone like me to spent life with, he was trying to find someone like her all this time! So, I am the joke, the substitute. And my name is Sarah!