*Please note that a character is being misgendered because the others don’t know. All other reasons aren’t valid to misgender someone.*
3-Successful mistake
Leith’s pov
Saturday morning how great. I don’t have to go to school or do some homework. Even though I normally have uneventful weekends I’d say last night wasn’t the case at all. I still can’t believe what I did yesterday...why did those idiots force me to say that to him? Gosh, my friends are stupid.
I don’t even know how I did it, how I had the guts to confess like that. All I wanted was to keep my feelings to myself but not it’s out in the wild, I can’t take it back. I really shouldn’t have listened to my friends.
Now that guy must be horrified. I can’t even forget the face he made last night upon hearing what I told him. What makes it worse is that Sarah is calling me how great. She’ll want the whole details. Why did she have to make me do that?
She’s such a gossip girl. As much as she annoys me, Sarah has been my best friend ever since we met in 6th grade.
She has mid-length bronze creamy blond hair that she puts usually on a side ponytail. She has blue eyes too, bright ones.
She’s not a petite young woman but she isn’t extremely fit either. She’s average. She would kill me if I told her that but that’s the full truth.
Regardless, she and I are two peas in a pod. I still love her despite how she gets on my nerves, just like right now.
Sarah: Good morning! Had a great night?
Leith: Yeah. Now why do you have to be this upbeat so early in the morning?
Sarah: Yo! It’s 11 a.m. chill out! What? Don’t tell me it didn’t go well? Wait now that I think of it you didn’t come back to us yesterday.
Leith: How are you only noticing that now?
Sarah: You know I was busy entraining girls.
Leith: Yeah, I highly doubt that.
Sarah: Hey! I know how to entertain girls!
Leith: Sure, keep telling yourself that but seriously what did you do after you and Mattie pushed me to talk to Kenton?
Sarah: I was talking to girls, I’m not kidding but seriously why do you doubt me? You never come to parties and you think we have no life like you?
Leith: No life? Not my fault parties aren’t my thing but what about Mattie, was he with you?
He usually tags along with you whenever I don’t go to parties.
Sarah: No, he actually wasn’t. You’re right he usually sticks with me as we are his only friends but instead, he left shortly after you left. He still has yet to call this morning. Do you think he got himself a little someone?
Leith: Maybe, I don’t know. Look can we get to the point?
Sarah: Ah yes. What happened last night? How’d it go?
Leith: I don’t know really...
Sarah: What do you mean you don’t know?! You were the one there, not me.
Leith: It was awkward...did you really have to push me to do this?
Sarah: Yeah, I had to at some point. You seriously have to stop avoiding him like a scared cat. Geez Leith, how do you want him to notice you if you don’t make a move?!
Leith: Sarah! It’s Kenton! You can’t possibly think that! Kenton is unapproachable!
Sarah: Yeah, more like you’re introverted ass didn’t want to.
Leith: Keep telling yourself that but did I really have to tell him that?
Sarah: What did you tell him?!
Leith: Um, I straight up told him I like him.
Sarah: You did what?! Are you nuts?! You can’t do that! The guy doesn’t know you. You can’t go and tell someone you like them when they don’t even know you! Ugh, what am I gonna do with you...?
Leith: In my defense, he was drunk so he won’t probably won’t remember...
Sarah: Oh come on Leith! Why’d you have to confess to him when he was drunk?
Leith: Mattie and you pushed me to talk to him, did you forget about it? Besides I had to...At least it’s out of the way.
Sarah: Your decision still doesn’t make sense but how’d he react through?
Leith: It went better than I thought?
Sarah: Why does it sound like a question? What happened after you told him that?
Leith: Well, I actually saw him in an empty hallway in the house. He was actually just there all alone with his beer. I thought this must be my chance. I walked up to him and straight up told him I liked him. He was utterly confused.
Sarah: Of course, he was, who wouldn’t be? Thankfully we know he likes guys at least so you’re lucky on that.
Leith: Thank goodness he likes guys because I don’t think I would’ve been able to handle a homophobic jerk.
Sarah: Wait he wasn’t mean in any way right?
Leith: No, no he wasn’t. He was at a loss for words at first but then he managed to tell me something in return.
Sarah: And that is?
Leith: He told me this: “Oh uh wow I wasn’t expecting this.” He also said this: “Hm I’ve noticed you before but why are you always avoiding me?”
Sarah: See I knew he would have picked up the fact you keep avoiding him. Even he can notice such a thing, he’s not a total jackass.
Leith: It’s what he told me next that still makes me all giddy in my heart.
Sarah: What did he tell you?!
Leith: He told me that he doesn’t know why but he keeps being drawn into me! You should have seen how charming he looked when he told me that!
Sarah: Omg! I can’t believe he said that! Are you sure he meant it? You said he was drunk. It was a party so anything could happen.
Leith: Yeah I think he did. I don’t know but it makes me feel all giddy inside. Do you think he likes me?
Sarah: Woah, chill out Leith. He didn’t know who you are. Of course, he doesn’t like you. Like you said he probably had a drink or two and you know he’s a natural charmer. He does that to everybody. Damn, but I still can’t believe he still said that to you! I wish a girl told me that!!!
I laugh before proceeding to talk to her.
Leith: Yeah, I know how much you’d die for that. It was strange really yesterday. He kept looking at me with that look you know...but...but he surely doesn’t like me that way even if I wished he did.
Sarah: Aw Leith don’t bring your hopes down. You have to talk to him some more. You’re lucky he took it well. If that were any other guys they would definitely tell you that you’re weird.
Leith: I’m not weird am I?
Sarah: We’ll about that...uh well you kinda are but in a good way.
Leith: Sure in a good way. Do you believe that what he said was true about already noticing me before? How come he never tried to talk to me?
Sarah: Uh, I may or may not know a little more than you may think.
Leith: Wait what do you mean?!
Sarah: Sorry, I have to go now. I have to go babysit the little kids of my neighbours.
Leith: Don’t leave me like that!!
Sarah: Sorry boo but I really have to go.
Ugh, she hung up on me. Why did she have to leave the moment she had something juicy to tell me? Sarah, Sarah. I still can’t believe I actually told him I liked him yesterday.
Dang, I can’t believe he told me that in response! He’s not your typical boy, no he’s Kenton Miller!!! I feel all embarrassed now. Maybe I really don’t know how to deal with love. It really seems like I’m truly dumb. Admitting my feelings to him without telling him anything beforehand or even knowing him a little bit is not very smart.
Sarah’s right that was so dumb. Screw that Sarah is not stupid I am! Well, Mattie can still be called dumb but that’s beside the point. I screwed up everything big time!
Now Kenton thinks I’m a weirdo for telling him my feelings without saying a thing to him before! I can’t have him think that of me! He’s Kenton Miller the number one guy most popular in the whole school! Ok maybe I exaggerate but still, he’s popular.
I totally understand why. He has black hair and those dreamy blue eyes. He is quite tall but not too much either. Not too bulky but not slim either. The perfect match.
Getting his attention is not easy. It seems like the only way to get his attention is by asking him to f**k with him or something really promising. Maybe it’s not true but by the looks of things, it truly sounds like that.
I don’t want that with him, obviously! Well...Kenton and I doing...No!! Stop thinking about that! Why am I such a horny dog? I know I’m still a virgin but with good intentions!
I was hoping to keep my little crush on him a secret. I didn’t want him to find out! Now what? He’ll start talking to me? No, he might pretend this never happened.
After all, he has a group of friends he hangs out with, not with others. He’ll never want to be with me, especially not seen with me. We’re like opposites. Does he even know who I am?
"Hey, what's the fuss here?"
"Huh what? Nothing is going on."
"But I heard lots of noise what are you doing?"
"No, it's nothing. I swear I didn't do anything, Cade!"
"I never said you did something. What's going on with you? Why are you acting like that? Something going on?"
"It's nothing!"
"Ok, ok I get it, Leith. No need to yell at me but did you really have to make that much noise? I was sleeping."
"You sleeping? How did Mom and Dad let you sleep?"
"Well, they're not there actually."
"What where are they?"
"I don't know it seems like they aren't there. Their cars aren't there so..."
"Wait is Mia still there?"
"Yeah and?"
"Just wanted to know."
"Hm, suspicious. Do you want me to get rid of her?"
"No! Why are you saying it like that? She's allowed to be here if she wants to. She doesn't need to be at her friend's house every goddamn minute."
"Chill, I get it. She'll stay here. Now I can't sleep anymore as you literally broke my beauty sleep."
"When did you fall asleep?"
"What? Why are you asking me that? You can't tell me that if you fell asleep at 2 a.m."
"Oh, you knew that I went to bed at 2? Hm did you know I was at a party?"
"Oh yeah? It all makes sense, now." Suddenly someone comes running towards us.
"Liam!! Mom and Dad left did you know that?"
"I know now? What's wrong Mia?"
"Nothing it's just they didn't tell me where they went. Do you have an idea where they might have gone?"
"No? Ask Cade here it seems like he knows more than I do."
"What no? I just woke up."
"Your bed hair looks ridiculous Cade!" She laughs. The joys of having a younger sister.
"You shut up!"
"I'll tell Mom and Dad you told me to shut up!"
"Stop acting like a baby. You're not 5 anymore you're 11. Geez, what do they teach you at that middle school?"
"They teach us a lot of things. You're being rude Cade."
"Says the girl who insults my bed hair."
"Hey!"
While they tackle each other I close the door. I have no interest in being a part of this sibling brawl. Hah, sometimes it's hard when only your brother at home knows who you truly are. I mean I'll never tell Mia. It's pointless if I tell her. She's so clueless about everything.
She's always been a little bit like Mom and Dad. She has yet to know what being rebellious means. Does she really have to listen to everything my parents have to say? Seriously she really is like the perfect daughter that my parents want.
She has the same auburn hair and long hair, as well as light brown eyes. She's just about the height she should be at her age.
Regarding Cade, my brother has the same hair colour, same eye colour, the only difference being that he wears glasses.
He is as lean as I am. He isn't nearly as tall as me but that's because he hasn't gotten his growth spurt yet. He's younger than me, 14 to be exact.
Anyways. I'm not a rebel by any means but I guess I kinda am...my parents say it's a sin to like guys and wait till they hear that I don't identify as a guy but rather non-binary. I don't even want to imagine what they'll think about that.
Well, Mia is too young to understand. She'll start saying hurtful things even if she doesn't mean it. What can I say? The society doesn't want someone like me.
At least Cade is a little bit more supportive than they'll ever be. He doesn't fully understand but at least he doesn't call me Liam anymore when our parents and Mia aren't near us.
There are only 3 people who call me Leith. Well, Sarah does for sure, there's Cade my brother and well Mattie as well.
Thankfully for me at school, they aren't as strict as at home and close-minded but still you won't see pride posters anywhere for sure. You won't die if you like boys or you like girls or something but it's preferred to keep it hidden. Sure people know what it is now but they still make jokes about it, it's hurtful really.
That's why I like Kenton so much. I admire him, he's one of the only ones who openly expresses that he likes guys. I mean he likes girls too but yeah. He's bisexual for sure but still, sometimes I wonder if would he be open to the idea of being pansexual if he were to like me. It depends on how open-minded he is which is not a thing in this outdated city.
Anyhow, I don't know why but I'm thinking about Mattie now.
He's my other best friend. A friend I made back in Freshman year. I like him, he isn't annoying and he respects me a lot maybe too much even. He tends to be shy but sometimes he isn't afraid even less when Sarah's there.
His natural hair colour is mid-chocolate brown hair and he has light brown eyes but he dyes his hair quite often.
Right now he has this weird gingery hair. It's the fading of his dark ginger hair he dyed a few weeks ago.
One day he showed up at school with pink hair, and Sarah and I laughed our asses off. It was so hilarious but others did not like it all that much.
He is taller than me by an itch. He isn't super fit as he doesn't like exercising that much. Oh, the lazy cow. He's a slacker and he knows. He also has a piercing on his nose. Something about giving a touch of uniqueness, he says. Not sure others think it's a good thing in our religious city.
Regardless Mattie is Mattie and without that, he wouldn't be who he is.
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"Ugh, can't believe it's Monday already! Can someone kill me?"
"Mattie stop being so dramatic. This is maybe the 1000th time we experienced the dreadful Monday. Now cheer up you have yet to hear what happened Friday at the party!"
"Wait what? What did I miss? Did you finally make a move on him?" He walks in the direction of my locker.
"Uh, well, it wasn't exactly that."
"What? What do you mean? Don't tell me you chicken out. Oh, come on! Here I was hoping you'd finally be able to make a move on him!"
"Uh well, I kinda straight up told him I liked him...?"
"What?! No Leith you didn't do that?! Please tell me this is a joke!"
"It's not a joke sadly."
"How did he react? Oh god, poor guy. He must have been horrified!"
"That's what I told him too!"
"Well he was at a loss for words but then he was acting all charming like..." Suddenly, I feel a hand on me.
"Hm talking about me, I see?" Wait, what?
Characters images!
As for some characters you get to see what some of them look like. They were all drawn by me and were drawn back in August-October 2022.
Here is what Sarah Davison looks like.
Here is what Mattie Willis looks like.
Lastly, here is what Cade Davis looks like.
*This is the new version of the drawing I did of him. It was drawn in June 2023.*
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