By the end of the day, I had about enough of everyone here besides Xavier and Lucas. I should have known it wasn’t going to be a good idea to go swimming since there were a bunch of Alphas here, but I just wanted to have fun as well.
Because I looked so different, a lot of them were looking at me like a piece of meat. Although Rylan was hovering around me or close by, glaring at everyone who looked at me, I still didn’t feel comfortable. I felt like any one of them could attack me at any second.
Thank the Goddess that no one knows what I am.
Well, maybe except him.
I looked over, seeing that Evan was indeed staring at me, this unreadable expression on his face. I half-expected him to bother me while I was here, but I guess he was too afraid of Rylan to do anything. It made me feel a little smug that Evan couldn’t do anything, but it made me nervous on the other hand because now I have to deal with someone else. I wasn’t a hundred percent sure what Rylan’s deal was, or why he was so interested in me, but I had this feeling that it was no good.
“Are you going to that party tonight?” Xavier asked me as we sat in the living room, looking a little tired, “I guess it is a tradition to host it on the first night and do a bunch of games.”
I couldn’t stop the yawn that escaped my lips, feeling a little tired, “I probably won’t have a choice. If Rylan makes me go, then there’s that.”
His eyes widened in surprise like he didn’t expect me to say that, “listen, Icarus, are you sure you are okay? I’ve known you for nearly four years now and no one, not even Lucas or I, has been able to convince you to attend this event. What makes Rylan so special?”
If only you know the truth, I thought to myself before shaking my head, “I just owe him one since he helped me with Evan. After this, I won’t have to deal with him anymore.”
Xavier rolled his eyes slightly, “you know, even though you don’t look like an Alpha, if you at least tried to act like one, no one would be questioning it.”
I knew that he didn’t mean any harm by saying what he did, but it was like a punch to the gut. I sighed in annoyance, leaning back as I dragged a hand through my hair, wishing I could just go back to that day and run away before I got dragged into this mess.
“It’s not my fault I’m not a normal Alpha.” I mumbled, not wanting to play the guilt card but I wouldn’t have much of a choice, “people can think what they want, it isn’t going to change a thing for me.”
“I know!” Xavier protested like he was hurt, “but it is weird, Icarus! Although we have been best friends, sometimes I don’t think that I know you. That you are hiding something from all of us. You don’t lie to your friends.”
I knew he was right, but I needed to protect myself, “I’m not lying about anything, Xavier.”
Xavier jumped to his feet, startling me slightly because I hadn’t been expecting it. I looked up, seeing the anger and hurt on his face. I hated to lie to him, or Lucas, but I knew that I didn’t have much of a choice. If people were to find out the truth, who knows how they would react to it. I wanted to trust him, but I knew that it would probably be a bad idea.
“You’ll just need to trust me, Xavier.” I told him, rising to my feet, trying to calm myself down, “when I feel like it is time to sit down and talk about everything, then we will.”
Xavier’s jaw clenched in frustration, looking away, “I guess I didn’t know our friendship wasn’t that close.”
Shit, I didn’t mean it like that.
“XAVIER!” I snapped, feeling myself growing more frustrated, “if I could tell you, I would, but it is not safe for me to! You and Lucas have been the closest friends I have ever had, and I don’t want to ruin that.”
“What’s going on?” Lucas appeared through the door, looking confused, “are you two fighting?”
“No-” I started to speak, but Xavier cut me off.
“Icarus is lying to us, and won’t tell us what is going on!” Xavier growled, the air growing thick as I knew he was releasing his pheromones now, “our friendship I guess doesn’t mean that much.”
Lucas’ eyes turned to me, looking even more confused, “what is he talking about?”
“Yes, Icarus, what am I talking about?” Xavier growled, eyes narrowing slightly.
I closed my eyes, trying to calm myself down. I understood Xavier and Lucas’ frustration with me, knowing that I have been lying to them for the longest time now. I wasn’t proud of it, but I did what I needed to protect myself. But, was it really worth it to lose this friendship?
I know I can trust them…
“I’m a Dominant Omega.” I told them, watching them freeze, staring at me in shock, “I have been pretending to be a Recessive Alpha for nearly four years because of the stigma that comes around Omegas. I didn’t want to lie to you guys, but it was the only way I knew to make sure my secret was never revealed. I hope you can forgive me.”
The looks I was receiving, I wasn’t sure how to handle it. I was afraid that I had disappointed them, that they no longer saw me the same way.
“Fuck.” Xavier cursed under his breath, storming out of the room.
Yeah, I knew it.
“I’m sorry, Icarus.” Lucas apologized to me, starting to follow Xavier, “we will talk about this later.”
And then, they were gone…
I just might’ve made a big mistake.
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