After supper they dress me nicely like before 

The pale blue fabric covering all yet showing everything 

They may as well have stripped me bare like a carcass

But I keep those thoughts to myself 

The silence makes my hairs stand

My hair is over my eyes again 

I barely see through them 

Maybe he’ll look at me if my face is covered 

Stupidstupidstupid

He wouldn’t touch you if he had a choice

It’s nearly the Blooming hour when he bursts in

Sure footed and cocky

The wind from his entrance shifting my hair brought to see his pout

This is what I have to come back to?

Green eyes souring until he stares at arms and legs 

I thought you had no markings, kitten…

He drops down 

Fingers tracing faint geometric designs on my arm darker than before 

I know it’s from the Light 

But it won’t last

Nothing from the Light ever lasts

Zubair sits back on his hinds to get a better look 

His lips ghosting over them

Maybe there is hope for you yet.

He kisses me tenderly all the way to my inner thigh

I can’t hold my gasp as he presses his nose to my 

Soreness

The bundle of pain 

still lingering

Air rushes past as he takes a deep breath 

Still smells like me.

Hands unrobe me this time 

I never foresaw him lifting me to the bed

Letting me lay on my back with less force than I anticipated 

Maybe his cat recognizes I’m his…

Hands grip my ankles with a bruising force 

All thoughts of him being possibly gentle shatters as

I’m exposed to him

Even worse than last time 

Him taking me doesn’t make me miserable 

I’ve dealt with worse

It’s the fact that I fooled myself into believing it’d be any different 

He buries himself into 

My neck

Nails turning into claws as he reaches his finish 

I can smell another on him

Others actually 

Why didn’t they gentle him down?

Exhaust him?

This time he bites close to an artery 

Pleasure 

Or my near death 

sends him over the edge

His lazily licks to complete his obligation 

To wrap up this act of dominance 

My blood covers his lips like a stain 

And he wipes it away with the back of his hand

leaving without a word

The siblings flock to me

Whispering reassurances and encouragement 

as they put me back together 

Elu and his sister aren’t here to witness this union

They’re here to make sure I don’t die