*Please note that Leith is being misgendered and remember that the others don't know even if it seems like yes because Kenton knows. All the other reasons aren't valid to misgender someone.*
12-Awkward first date
Leith's pov
Well, I wasn't sure what I was expecting when he said we'd go on a date. I mean I have no idea where he normally takes people on dates but I don't think I was expecting it...McDonald...
I don't have any problem with McDonald but...isn't this supposed to be a date? Aren't dates supposed to be romantic? It's supposed to be special, at least for me. I don't think a McDonald checks those things. Whatever, what is important is that Kenton took a big step by asking me out on a date.
"Um, we're here." We are standing in front of the McDonald's.
It's the middle of the afternoon so sunlight is almost coming to an end as it's slowly starting to get dark. It doesn't help that it's a cloudy day today, a typical December day. At least it's not raining. Soon enough it'll be Christmas.
"Ok"
"I'm sorry that I brought you here. I didn't really know what it is you like so..."
"Oh...don't apologize. I should be the one at fault here. I never told you what I liked?"
"Um, none that I can recall?"
"Wow...I really am a coward then. Can't believe I didn't tell you anything."
"Hey! Don't call yourself a coward. It's fine, next time I'll know."
"There's a next time?" I say surprised.
"Oh...that's if you want to make it a next time." He smiles awkwardly.
"Sure" I can tell that makes him happy to hear that.
"Let's get inside. It's kinda cold outside..."
"Yeah, yeah I know."
We go inside the McDonald's. We pick a table and we sit down.
"So..."
Oh gosh, why is it so awkward between us? We aren't usually like this so why is it awkward between us? Is it because this time it's a date?
"Um...how's your day been so far?" Oh gosh, Kenton is being so cringe right now.
Why does it have to be so awkward? I don't want the date to be like this the entire time. I need to figure out a way to change this.
"You know, you don't need to ask questions like this right? Have you been on a date before?"
"Well..."
"Actually, don't answer that. To answer your question, my day has been going great thank you."
"Why do you talk like you know everything about how to act on a date? Have...have you gone on a date before...?" I snort.
"Of course I've been on one but it's been a while that's all."
"Wow, I didn't think you ever had a date before..." Wow, what's with the criticism?
"What about you? You must have gone to one in the past, right?" I say, gosh how harsh of me.
"Actually...This is my first official date..."
Wait what? Am I hearing this right? How could this be possible?
"Oh..."
"I'm boring you, aren't I?" He says nervously.
"What? What makes you think that?"
"It's just that, you don't sound interested to be here, am I wrong?" Why does he assume everything?
"Oh...I'm sorry if I gave you that impression but I'm not necessarily bored."
"Oh, so I was kinda right through. Gosh, I'm so dumb. Don't apologize, I'm the one at fault here. I should have known how to act properly on a date."
I need to reassure him, this can't go on like this. I want Kenton's usual self back.
"Don't apologize for that...we are both nervous so...it's normal that we screw up."
"Oh...yeah...right..." He looks at me. It's obvious he still feels guilty.
"Oh, stop giving me that look. I very much prefer that huge smile of yours." He blushes. Gosh, I actually made the Kenton blush.
"You do?" Now it's my turn to blush.
"Of course I do! Who wouldn't?" Oh, I think I hit a nerve...Why through?
"Um..." Oh gosh, things are awkward between us again.
I would've never thought that a date between us would have been that way...I thought he would be more...outgoing. I guess this is a part of Kenton I had yet to see. I don't know if I like this side of him yet...If I really like him as I say, I should like every side of him, right?"
"You said you went on a date before..."
"Yeah and?"
"Um...who is he?" Oh gosh, he didn't dare ask such a question.
Yeah, he definitely never went on a date before. I don't know how's that possible but he just broke rule number 1, never talk about exes or talk about it on dates.
Through, even if it's obvious he doesn't want to hurt his feelings or mine, it seems like his curiosity got the best of him. I think it's fine if he wants to know, I don't see why not. I know the name of one of his exes so why not me?
Through, I feel like teasing him for some reason.
"What makes you think it's a guy?"
"Well...you mentioned you were gay...am I right?"
"Yeah, I'm gay. Well, I like guys. Just, don't overthink it. You were right it was a boy." He looks up at me surprised that I look so nonchalant about this.
"What was he like...?"
"Oh...He used to be my best friend but you don't need to worry about him. He moved schools a few years back if that's what you wanted to know."
"Oh...so you're over him...?"
"Of course I am. I wouldn't be here if I wasn't over him."
"Oh...ok,"
"Oh no don't tell me...you want to try to compare yourself to him. Please don't. You're already way better than him."
"Like what?"
"Oh well...it didn't end well with him...Let's just say he didn't take it well the news about my gender identity."
"Oh..."
"Yeah, so no need to worry about him."
"I see..."
"Oh, Kenton why do you so badly want to compare yourself to him? You're like the most popular guy at school everyone wants to be with you."
"Well...I don't want you to only see me as that.."
"What was that?"
"Nothing..."
"Hm...ok...Then...it should be fair that you talk about your past lovers...If you want to that is!"
"Sure...It's not like I have things to hide. Everyone knows everything anyway but they don't know the full truth...You kinda deserve to know...I guess. Well, you already know Ellianna. I actually liked her, one of those rare girls that I actually did like.
It actually started as a simple hook-up with her at a party a few months back...but I ended up liking her. I wasn't too sure it was a good idea to date her...It's kinda risky to date people you hooked up with at parties.
I ended up confessing to her and she agreed to date. Little did I know that she was screwing with my feelings. She was obsessed with me for sure...she still does but she doesn't really like me, at least not like I did. Turns out she was screwing with other guys behind my back. Once I learned about it, I made sure to end everything between us.
It was good timing as she was leaving on a trip to South Korea in a matter of days. It seems like she's not over me it seems like but that's because she wants fame, she wants to take advantage of my social status. not because she likes me."
"Oh...I'm sorry to hear that..."
"Yeah, it's not like it's the first time it happened. I'm used to it by now. I just know that I don't want that again. I'm sick and tired of getting my feelings played with."
Here I thought he was the one who would play
with others' feelings.
"Gosh, that sucks."
"Yeah, I won't take the risk ever again." Now I wonder why he asked me out...Does he trust me to not play with his feelings?
"Well, at least there's that."
"Yeah..." He says melancholic.
"This date kinda sucks, right?" I say.
"Oh no, don't tell me it's because we're in a McDonald's?!"
"No, stop panicking. I'm not saying it in a bad way. Let's just say things haven't been the best so far. It's supposed to be romantic, I guess, between just us two but here we are talking about our hearts being broken. It's kinda depressing." He chuckles and I do.
"But if romantic is what you want..." He proposes.
"No, don't feel guilty. It's not your fault after all. You didn't know what I like and it's your first date, which I'm still surprised."
"See, you really don't know me."
"Yeah, I can see that." He stares at me and I do too, only he seems to be trying to figure me out.
"Stop looking at me like that, gosh, I can tell how curious you are deep down. Tame your curiosity." He chuckles.
"I can't help it when you're so mysterious." He smiles exactly the way that catches tons of people's hearts.
It's still unbelievable that this smile is directed at me.
"You think I'm mysterious."
"Yeah, you seem to be able to read me well while I barely know anything about you.?"
"Ah, I guess I have special abilities." He chuckles.
"Then what is it that you like?"
"Ah, I don't know really...I like books...Unlike you, socializing and partying aren't my things. But please next time don't bring me to a McDonald." I laugh and he laughs too.
"Oh, I will for sure avoid this place again!"
"Other than partying, what do you like?"
"Ok, I don't like to party that much, don't just assume that. Through you're right about socializing. I like hanging around my friends. They're important to me."
"Then why do you party every single weekend?"
"Because it's fun? Yeah, it's mostly because I kinda have to but if you don't like parties, I don't have to go to them."
"No, don't let me stop you from going to parties."
"Seriously, I didn't know you hated parties so much. I'll tell my guys that parties are no longer my thing. I can have fun in other ways." If only he would say he could have fun with me.
"Do you like movies?"
"I guess yeah? I don't mind."
"Then I guess I like it too. Favourite colour?"
"We're going for questions like that?"
"Yeah, we kinda have nothing else to do."
"How about you tell me your favourite colour first and I tell yours after." I chuckle at his obvious attempt to get me to answer him first.
"It's that because you're curious about me?" I smile.
"Yeah"
"Grey"
"Oh cool, mine's red."
"Favorite food?"
"Hm...it's got to be lasagna."
"Lasagna? That's so good. Mine's kinda plain boring."
"What? What kind of food is kinda plain boring?"
"Well...it's Sushi..."
"What? What are you talking about? Sushis are super good. Why are you calling it plain boring? That's a fun favorite food."
"Really you think so?"
"Hey Kenton, have you always been insecure about that stuff?"
"Huh? What do you mean by that?...?"
"It's nothing to be insecure about. There's nothing wrong with liking sushi. See, I don't know everything about you."
"Thanks...you're really sweet Leith..." He smiles faintly.
"Don't be thanking me. I'm just saying what should have been said a long time ago."
"You really care for others. Have others told you that before?" Huh? That caught me off-guard.
"Well, not really."
"Well, I'm the first to tell you then."
Oh, why does he have to be like that? He's only making my heart beat faster with his cheesy pickup lines. Suddenly he takes both of my hands in his.
"I never noticed how soft your hands are."
"Stop!" I laugh embarrassed.
"What? It's true, trough?"
"Well, they are cold but that's because it's cold out there."
"I can never know if you're serious or not."
"Oh come on. I am being serious. We should get some food. We've been here for the last 30 minutes. I don't think we came here to not eat anything." I chuckle at the idea of that.
Yeah, the sun is already setting at this point even if we undoubtedly can't see it.
"Yeah...I kinda forgot about that."
"Me too." He stands up.
"I'll go order our food, what'd you want?"
"Just a cheeseburger with some fries will be enough for me."
"Do you really have to ask for the most simple thing ever?"
"Yeah, besides who's paying?"
"Me"
"I can pay you know?"
"No, it's on me." He smiles. Fine, he wants to play it that way.
"Then, I definitely don't want you to pay a lot for me."
"Hey, it's my treat."
"I know, I know still."
"Ok, ok I get it. But just know I don't care if you want a Mcfleury or whatever. Doesn't change anything for me."
"Are you trying to show me how rich you are or are you trying to sound like a gentleman?"
"I'm not that rich sorry. Thought you would know by just seeing my house." Gosh, now I feel guilty making him pay when I'm definitely richer.
"I'm just teasing ya."
"Oh...You're joking, that's new."
"Then you better get used to it."
"Ok, I'll go wait in the line."
"Yeah go"
He goes on the short line.
Even if we are somewhat having a great time...I just don't know what we are. It's hard to tell. We aren't dating but then again this is a date...I know that I should tell him about what I'm thinking but I don't want to burden him.
I'm just another one of his supposed lovers. There's nothing serious between us. He'll get bored of me soon enough, I know it. It hurts to think that. I liked him for a few months and I finally got to have what I always wanted but I just can't help but feel insecure.
He said it before he hooked up with people without dating them...but we haven't hooked up...what does that mean then...? He's so puzzling.
I don't know if I can continue what we have going on if there's no clarification about it. It hurts me every time he kisses me, holds my hand and then pretends like it's nothing. What I found strange about him today is that he's not his usual self. He's a nervous mess. He's all quiet and jumpy it's so unlike him.
The last time he did that...he confessed something so...I don't know what I'm expecting at this point. This is what I get for being a chicken.
Hmm, Kenton is still waiting for our order. Gosh, he's so handsome even from the bag. His black hair which I wonder how soft it is, his 6ft height and how well built he is. He's perfection for him. He's the guy I can't have. If only he would be mine...
He's coming back, I better stop staring at him.
"Hey, I'm back. Here's your cheeseburger and your fries." He sits down with his food next to me. Again, he's so close to me.
"Mm, it's kinda good."
"Of course it is, it's McDonald." We both chuckle then it's silent between us.
I'd like to say this silence is comfortable but I have this nagging feeling that he's about to tell me something.
"So...I've been...thinking.." Called it.
"Ok...and?"
"This past week...has been a blast with you. Last week proved to me a lot of stuff. Remember when I told you I was figuring out my feelings?"
"Yeah?"
"Well..." He looks directly at me.
"I'm certain now that...I like you..as in a like, like you." I instantly became flustered.
"I know...that you've been waiting for this. It's unfair that you like me and I'm treating you like this...I just...I kept silent.."
"I get it..." He takes my hand.
"You are intriguing Leith. I can't lie that you've caught my eye. That's even before you came up to me and confessed to me at Delilah's party." Oh gosh, he makes my heart melt.
"You've caught my eye in a good way. Things aren't the same with you. It isn't all fun and games like all the girls and guys I dated them again like you said you are non-binary. But no it's not because you're non-binary. I didn't think I needed someone who was more calm, quiet and not as obnoxious as me perhaps, my opposite?
I don't care about how people view you or think of you. What matters to me is how you view me. Well...I know this is awkward but...Leith Davis, will you be my first non-binary lover?"
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