Is he really Ash? Because if so, he looks more beautiful than when I last saw him. God, it’s hella funny how I thought about him today. He looks some-what more mature than when I last saw him. I decided once this kid came into that class that he was coming to lunch with me. Plus I need to know if he even remembers me. It’s finally the end of that stupid class “Hey um, Ash do you want to go to lunch with me?” “Um sure, is it going to only be us or are we going to meet up with other people?” “Not if you don’t want to. Do you want to?” upon instinct I wanted to grab his hand and drag him somewhere and fuck him but I didn’t. Because I have an acting brain. When I search his face I decide that even if this was unforgivable in my home I’m an entirely different person than I was back then. Honestly though the gay people here are either lying about it or their cheating on me. I hope he’s different.