It's been a while since I've made any posts on Tapas due to a bunch of life stuff and attemping to save up for moving out from my parents. I went through a lil rebrand, streamed art and other stuff as a PNG tuber, and just last week paid for a hrt service out of pocket!
The specific service I use is called FOLX, and they provide customizable plans inclusing a free zoom consultation with a nurse of your choice. It's also considered a healthcare service so they do help get you appointments at clinics for checkups or bloodtests. It's $139 a month for anyone looking to start their transitions and $89 for anyone over 1 consistent year of hrt and looking to slow things down. They do send the pakage within 5 days after consultation and send a fedex link while you can always email your nurse/doctor along the way if you have anything to ask. Fedex is required to get a signature so if you're still with family and they don't know or disapproves, it's best you sign or get it sent to a friend/relative who you can trust, but the package is discreet.
Yesterday I started taking my first dose of testosterone. Because this service sends your hormones directly to us, we have to self use it. There are a few different forms but the most affordable and consistent is injectable for both estrogen and testosterone. I know the estrogen part cuz one of my besties is a trans woman and she mentioned the injections are lot cheaper and she has to pay out of pocket even though her insurance has some coverage in specific clinics. Everyone's situations may be different so consultations is the best way to decide what form to take. I chose to do subcutaneous (under skin/in the fat) injections for the first time. I never injected anything into my body except for tattoos but tatting needles never go as deep. I'll probably choose instramuscular after a few months. The hrt package is sent monthly and is stocked with supplies to last a few weeks and has needles for either options.
Some changes I felt immediately after the first dose of testosterone are feeling a bit more energy and that my shark week cycle has been more sudbued. Luckily I took the first dose a day before it started. Of course everyone is different and experiences cycle differently. My normal cycle is endless pre cramping, the mandiddies get sore and bigger, and when shark week starts swimming, I get a super heavy flow with extreme cramps and full body tension the first 3 days. It lasts for a week and a few days at most. After my first dose, I have no diddie soreness even though i had some the day I took my dose. I also have no cramping but the awareness it's happening is there along with a light, maybe regular flow. Apparently some guys and women who get their shark week cycles can treat the bad symptoms with a little bit of t. Of course not everyone is the same so there could be someone out there with opposite effects from mine. I will be updating this a bit more regularly as I keep going on in my transition. Of course, I hope this serves as a reference of personal experience and help anyone out there with any confusion of their gender identity. I hope this helps anyone who considers medical transitioning or is questioning whether they should. Of course, with trans and gender non-comforming people, it's not necessary to do a medical transition if you're not sure you want to. We are all valid regardless of whether or not we make these decisions. Whatever makes you feel safe, normal and happy. It took me 6 years to question whether I wanted this, I really do and at the rate I'm going with my decision to go half dose will help me slowly develop to help with some of my dysphoria without going in all the way so quickly. I hope in the future, many people who are like us will be able to see the many forms we all may have and the different decisions we are allowed to make.
A public journal about my life as a queer trans person. Discovering myself as I live in a situation where I'm unable to control my life or support myself fully. My personal thoughts and random stuff. May include triggering or sad stuff.