my mind is playing tricks on me,

or is it my heart that is pulling the strings?

I'd like to know, please let me know.

It is so confusing, why should it be?

will love stop being so complex to me?

I love puzzles but this is more of a mystery to me,

With no clues or lead, or suspects or witnesses to see.

Oh, how nice would it all have been,

if he just stayed as nothing but a friend to me,

maybe a different perspective have been seen,

And I would have been the same to thee.

Oh, the silence, I hate such silence,

when I speak too much, you know that I like you too much, 

But oh, why be so silent, I don't have that legal licence,

you feel too fragile, too fragile to touch.

Maybe it's a crime scene that only I had known,

where both mind and heart is trying to kill mine soul,

can't they both just stop? I've already had enough,

I'm at the ending, not the climax, hanging here, at dawn.

He lingers in my mind with his rent long overdue,

he wanders in my heart, jaywalked for once or two,

it's not just the thought that counts here 'cause it flew,

once I see you, a thousand monsters would stop to pursue.

Why can't I say no to someone like you?

You've already said no to someone like me, I'd like to do that too,

I want to stop wanting you and stop thinking about you,

I want it the same way that you do.

I need our relationship to return to the past,

where our friendship is raw and would last,

where you wouldn't look differently to someone like me,

who chose to like you, who wants to be special to thee.

It's been regretful, really, it does,

the day I told you that I liked you.

Maybe I was acting a little too much,

for you to distance yourself away from my touch.

Maybe it's because I've shown who I really am to you,

or I became too comfortable that it displeases you,

I'd like to apologize if I've acted the way I am,

maybe if I kept my monsters, you would have the person you'd like to have.

So I'll let you be though it's a little uncomfy,

I'm not used to being pushed to the side, and keep quiet for a while,

if it is what makes you fine, alright, okay,

I'd be here, and I'd smile.

Though please remember that you are still a friend to my eyes,

more than that, a bestfriend rather, would suffice,

you don't like me but I never asked it to be reciprocated,

just hoping you would treat me like before, with no strings attached.