The life of Lyle Hart had never been easy for him since the day he was brought into this world.

The constant need for love always lingered around him but at the same time he was not willing to love or receive love from anybody.It hurt him deep down to see all the other human beings receive love but not him,so he learned to burry and hide that feeling from an early age.He was not the type of pearson to follow after a human being after they broke of things,he was not afraid to loose the other since he didn't feel any connection to other beings,than the ones in his head.

Lyle here lingerd for attention and love from anybody possible since he could walk.

The feeling of his parents neglecting him for his aperens and the way he was born made him only feel like a burden and wanting to sacrifice so much for them to only hear a “i’m proud of you,son” from his parents.studying and working drove him into a deppreviced state of mind leading him to find pleasure and comfort in self harm,being alone and listening to music in his phone all day.He couldn't go one day without self harming,and his neglective parents not giving him food for days led him to have trouble with it.

Everything in his misery life led him to fall in love with suicide.Commiting wasn’t hard for him  it was the feeling of his parents not even caring enaugh to call an ambulance when they find his dead and blody boddy on the groundthat made him not want to do it because that will really prove that they don’t love him…..and never had.

He had committed suicide like 5 times but filed every time.The first two attempts were total failurs since he didnt even know how to do it since he was only 13.the attempts being suffocating himselfin pillows,didn’t work.third ad fourth time he was 15 and had an idea of how to do it since he researched and found out that over dossing n pills can kill you he tried…failed and woke up the next morning tofeealing like he is on his dead bed and throwing upp till he didn’t have anything more to throw up.

Fifth attempt was when he was a month before 16 and it was nearly successful if his older brother hadent found him and called an ambulance.the attempt being slashing hiswriste so deep so he would die of blood loss.whe he woke up noone was by his side….what was he thinking anyways who would want to see a horible being like him…..they would probably be happier if he died tiht there o the bathroom floor in his own pool of blood.it wassent enough that he was feeling a lot of pain he was sent to a mental ward he missed 2 years of high school.it was in the ward he lost all emotions and feelings for this devestatind world.Know he was just existing noy living for any purpos or reason.His body wouldnt die no matter how hard he tried…….he was just existing in his comfort zone.Just breathing and living like a corps who will not die.