Over the course of the last few weeks, I've had to interact with my ex, solely because we have a class together and one of my friends sits next to him. So, we end up having very short conversation if any at all. In the time I had those short conversations, I've realized one thing about him that will never change.

That one thing was that he's someone who's only meant to be wanted, just to stare at or go all crazy over, but never to date. It's not worth getting into a relationship where he's fucking every other girl in the school and you don't even know. I mean sure if you're smart and listen to your gut instead of your heart then you'd know.

But it's not worth screwing yourself up for the next guy who comes in.

Listen to your friends and your gut, unless they liked him too in the same way you do. Then that's a different story, especially if your friends are always at the center ready to stop the drama. I had to learn that the hard way. They hid from me cause I pushed em away and gave my time to that bastard.

Point is, don't miss them when they're gone because if you thought it was worth fighting for, they would've fought too, just as hard as you did.

They wouldn't have gone off screwing every girl in sight just so they could back home and kiss you and tell you they love you and that you're the one and only.  Don't fuck yourself up for one person and lose yourself in them.  It's hard to come back from. And hard to get over.

Spend time with yourself and your friends equally as you spend time with them.

And when the time comes, let go of them with a clear mind. It's gonna hurt like hell, but it's only temporary cause that right person is still out there waiting for you.  And when you find them, hold on tight. And hope they stay with you too whenever you lash out.

Anyway, this is getting too long. Gotta go. I'll be back, probably.