In the blink of an eye, spring came...
Since the weather was perfect, we were having our lunch in the yard every day...
Gathering all together was pretty fun and memorable to me that I still can remember those enjoyable days... I had so much fun with Haru and our other friends. We were laughing, talking, and enjoying the moment. We shared our stories, and it was a great way to connect with each other. Those moments were truly special to me.
the tingling feeling on my skin because of the spring breeze...
Cherry blossoms... Clear blue sky...
Haru, with his bright smile, was walking beside me...
All of these things combined made me feel truly alive...
~
Also, my first kiss happened unexpectedly... at the age of 17 that spring...
It was when Shiwoo, Haru, and I were on our way home...
They were bragging about how experienced they were with girls, kissing and you know other stuff... I rolled my eyes and shook my head. I knew they were just trying to seem cool in front of me, so I was annoyed by their showing off and told them to drop the topic... being a playboy ain't something to be proud of...
Then Shiwoo said, " Are you jealous because you couldn't even get the chance to confess to your crush before she found a boyfriend?... Just move on... find a new girl... and get out of your virgin zone..."...
Haru's face was like a question mark when he asked, " Crush?!... You've never told me about it..."...
"It's an old story... a one-sided crush on a girl whom I have known since I was 5, but it ended long ago when she got her boyfriend... So it wasn't a hot topic... Shiwoo likes to spout nonsense... ignore him. "... I answered. We laughed it off and continued on our way.
After we separated from Shiwoo and walked for a while, Haru broke the silence by asking me, "Do you still like her?" Is she in our school?..."...
+"Nah, I know that we weren't meant to be together because she thought of me as a younger brother... She graduated 2 years ago... "
-"Woah!... I didn't know that you had a kink for older ones!..."
+"Stop making fun of me~~... why are we still talking about this?..."
-"So~... you still... haven't had your first kiss yet?~..."
+"Of course Not!!!... I don't wanna..."
As soon as I said that, he didn't let me finish my sentence when he grabbed my neck and pulled me towards himself... then kissed me on my lips... His grip on my neck was so strong that I couldn't breathe...
The whole of my body froze as I was dazed and dumbfounded ...
I couldn't blink because my eyes were wide open...
The same way you feel when a thunderbolt strikes...
I could feel him smooching my lips and gripping me so tightly as he pressed his lips to mine...
After I came to my senses again, I pushed him away forcefully and shouted at him, "What the hell do you think you're doing?!!!!..."
He laughed and said, " Don't you think it's a waste that you still haven't experienced a kiss?... So I gave you a taste of it... "...
I was so mad that I started to hit him on his chest continuously, "What nonsense you're saying!!!... You ruined my first kiss just now!!!... "...
He grasped my wrists. "Hey! Calm down... it's no big deal... why are you making a fuss?!..." he answered.
I said, "Even if it's not important to you... doesn't mean it's the same for me~~...
You didn't let me finish my sentence...
I was about to say I want my first time to be with someone I like... But~..."...
I couldn't say more... He won't get it anyway...
He pinched my cheek and said while still smiling, "My cutie Myu Myu~... Don't be mad, hm~... think of it as it was just a peck between two friends..."...
I was speechless... What could I say?...
It was something that had already been done...
We can't take it back or something...
So I sighed and said goodbye to him and headed home...
~
Since I'm an overthinker, I struggled the whole night thinking about that sudden kiss...
I'm sure it was like a joke to him...
Of course, for someone like him, everything seems ordinary...
But for me, the case was different...
The feeling of getting kissed for the first time...
The sensation of the warmth of another person's lips...
When you can hear your heartbeat...
It doesn't need to be mentioned that it was Haru, my friend...
All of them were so new to me that I couldn't stop thinking about them...
Actually, I didn't hate it, which is why I found myself in that situation even weirder...
I don't like to fool around...
I dislike casual relationships...
Although everyone says I'm outdated, I don't care...
Because I've always wanted a platonic one since I was a kid...
The next day, Haru was like his usual self from the moment I arrived at class... Just as I thought I was the only one who didn't sleep a wink...
Haru was so carefree and calm when he was sitting in his seat, which made me annoyed that I couldn't hold myself back from smacking him on his back...
+"Ah!... Why did you hit me?!..."
-"Just got the feeling..." I smirked...
Then I tried to return back to my seat, but he grabbed my forearm and bit it hard...
-"Ahhh~... It hurts... Let me go, you bastard!" I grabbed his hair to let go of my arm...
While he was struggling, He stopped biting me and held my waist...
I lost my balance at that moment because I was horribly tickled on my flank and fell on his lap... He then let out a sigh and said, "Well, this isn't exactly where I wanted you to end up, but I'll take it!"...
Unconsciously, I let go of his hair... and my eyes locked on him...
His gaze seemed to penetrate my soul as if he desired something from me...
So I asked, "Why are you looking at me like that?..."...
"Because I like you... you're adorable..."... He said that with a smile on his face...
I was taken aback by his comment...
I stood up out of frustration and said, "Don't be ridiculous~... stop fooling around me~..."...
And I retreated back to my seat...
That was the first time he told me he liked me...
To tell you the truth, the only thing I felt was awkwardness...
I didn't know how should I take his words!...
Did he mean he liked me as a friend? Or he meant something else...
Do friends usually express their feelings to each other?...
Shiwoo and I have never been like this...
Haru is an easy-going person...
He often tends to flirt and be touchy...
So my brain kept telling me, "Do not take his words or actions seriously... You still couldn't figure out his personality ... or what he wants from you...
Why would he like you anyway?... "
~
We were on break time and I tried to take a nap by putting my head on my table since I got sleepy after too much thinking and there wasn't anyone in the class, so why not?!...
After 15 or 20 minutes, Haru entered the classroom and sat down next to me quietly...
My eyes were still closed, but I knew it was Haru just by hearing his footsteps. Suddenly, I felt something soft touching my forehead and nuzzling my hair silently. I'm pretty sensitive when someone caresses my hair since I'm not used to it, and it gives me an uncomfortable tingling sensation.
While I still remained in that position, I said, "Can you stop playing with my hair?..."
Haru flinched as he heard my voice and moved his hand away, "Ah~... I didn't mean to wake you up!..."
I opened my eyes and looked at him embarrassed. "I was awake~..."
He chuckled nervously and rubbed the back of his neck. "I couldn't stop myself from touching your hair since it looked so soft~... My hair is too frizzy and dry."
I glanced at his hair, "I hadn't noticed that although I grasped your hair today!...hmm~..."
-"Every single girlfriend that I've had, they literally called me a hedgehog every time my hair touched them."
+"Come on!... Don't exaggerate it!..." I laughed and lifted my head up.
-"Fine, I'll show you."
He put his arm around my shoulder and shoved and rubbed his head onto my neck and chest.
+"Ow~... Ow~~... Stop!... I get it!..." I tapped on his back a few times.
-"See?... Now you know what I was talking about~..." He pulled back finally...
+"Gosh!... It really feels like needles pinning my skin!..."
He grinned and put his palm on my head. "By the way, tomorrow we have a football match with another school. Will you come to watch it?~"
+"I'm not really a fan of that~..." I said hesitantly.
His gaze was fixed on me. "I want you to be there..."
Unconsciously, I agreed as I was mesmerized. I nodded, still under his spell. He smiled, and I felt a warmth inside me.
Since when I've become such an obedient person?...
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