Haru's POV:

[Yesterday, 8:40 A.M.]

I drove straight to the company as soon as I left the hospital.

I was irritated by that all-mighty doctor...
I wish that I could change Myung's hospital, but Myung's parents don't want to see me or their son...
I know that I fucked up everything, however, I can't stop caring about him...

"Son of a gun! He didn't let me see him in the end!!!" I groaned as I slammed my car's door after I got out of it.

I walked through the hallway and my gaze fell on the secretary's desk which Myung used to sit at, smiling at me in the past... 
And now, my newly hired assistant, Alex, a foreign young boy in his first twenties was sitting there.

As he noticed me, he jumped out of his seat with a forced smile and scared eyes and said, "Good morning Sir!"

I glared at him as I was still pissed that Alex called me earlier to come to the office. "Bring me the urgent documents that need my signature along with a black coffee."

He replied with such energy, "Yes, sir!".

"Keep your voice low! I have a headache..." I complained and then stepped into my room.

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A few minutes later, my door was knocked on and then Alex walked towards my desk, putting the documents on my desk and placing a cup of coffee next to them.

"Here you go, Sir." He said and waited for me to respond, twiddling his fingers nervously.

I took a look at him, wearing a light blue shirt with navy blue trousers and a minimalist gold chain bracelet on his left hand. Wavy blonde bangs covered his forehead, and he was staring at me with his gray-bluish eyes.

I signed them after checking them quickly and then handed them to him, then I asked, "Did you inform our client that our meeting is postponed to tomorrow?"

Alex gasped and his eyes widened, showing that he had forgotten about it, "I~... "

I slammed my palm on my desk, and shouted, "Can't you do your job properly?! Just how many times have you made mistakes?!!!..."

"I'M SORRY!~~... I'll call~ them~ right now!~" He replied anxiously.

As I saw him trembling slightly in fear, suddenly a familiar voice haunted me, "Haru~ Don't be harsh on your employees~ You keep scaring them~"

I slumped my face in my hands as I rested my elbows on the desk and took a deep sigh. "Wish you were here, Myung" I mumbled.

-"Sir~..."

+"I'm sorry I shouted at you. Make sure to call them... you may leave now, Alex~"

-"It's okay~... Yes~..."

As he left the room, I pulled my cigarette out of my pocket and lit it. Then I took a long drag, the smoke filling my lungs. I closed my eyes and exhaled slowly, feeling the tension in my body start to dissipate.

"Gosh, Myung hated me for smelling like smoke~"

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After the work hours were completed, I stayedin the office to do more work. I hated going back home since I got useless thoughts. I preferred to stay here and keep myself busy.

It was around 11:45 P.M. that I stepped out of my room finally and I noticed Alex was nodding off behind his desk. I tapped lightly on the desk and he flinched at the sound, then sprang up as he noticed me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked as I raised an eyebrow in confusion.

"Ah... I thought you'd need me! So I stayed!" He said.

I was once again irritated. "Are you dumb? Why would you stay here when I didn't ask you?!... "

I saw tears welling up in his eyes as he lowered his head. "I'm sorry~..."

I huffed and said, "Let's go. I'll give you a ride."

Alex raised his head, looking at me, and refused nervously, "No! I can go home by myself! I won't bother you!"

I glared at him, "Just pick up your things and follow me!"

Then he gathered his belongings and followed me like a golden retriever which made me chuckle a bit.

As we got into the elevator and waited to reach the parking lot floor, I glanced at him for a second, thinking that his height and slender body is kinda similar to Myung's.

"How is it that you're so petite for a European man?" I wondered.

He turned his head towards me in shock and a blushed face, "My mom is Korean~"

"Mm~... That's interesting... I like the fact that mixed people always end up looking even prettier than others." I said nonchalantly.

As tears streamed down his cheeks, he turned his head away, whipping his tears in a flash.

I asked, confused, "Have I said something offensive again?!"

"NO. Of course not!... It's just that your compliment made me happy~... I've always been bullied because of that no matter where have I lived~... As if I don't belong anywhere~" He said shyly.

"Don't care what the haters say. No matter where you run away, they're everywhere. And they always find a way to torture people for stupid reasons... " I said as we got out of the elevator.

"Yes, Sir." He then followed me, taking faster steps to catch my speed.

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I dropped Alex off in front of his house and then drove back to my apartment.

I walked straight to my bedroom and slumped down on the bed, then grabbed my phone to look at Myung's photos that were still in my gallery.

Even though we were done seriously this time, I hadn't had the courage to delete them...
I scrolled through them, looking at the memories we had shared. I felt a pang of sadness as I remembered once more that those moments were lost forever.
My heart was heavy with regrets. I sighed and put my phone down, shoved my face into the pillow...

"Myung, how can I forget you when my heart still yearns for you?" I mumbled...

Then I rolled over on my back, staring at the ceiling, "I guess I can see now why people say first love never comes true... "

I laughed bitterly as tears fell down again...

~

Dantae's POV:

[Present time, 11:25 P.M.]

As I was still holding Myung in my arms until he was calm, I felt my body becoming heavier and numb, breathing hard. I noticed my fever had worsened since it combined with my exhaustion to the point that was trying to make me unconscious...

I can't let Myung panic, watching me collapse in his arms. I wanted to move and leave the room, but I couldn't even lift my finger.

I said as I tried to be calm after another cough, "Myung~ Listen to me, just for this time~... get up and press the red button on the wall next to your bed."

He lifted his head off my chest nervously and asked, "What?!"

I inhaled deeply, then I answered, "Don't get scared, okay?! It's a simple cold, but I'm too tired ~... (cough)... So I think I'm going to faint~... Gosh~ I'm indeed a horrible doctor~"

After dropping my head onto Myung's shoulder, I felt my eyelids close forcefully while Myung was calling me, "Hey!... Seo Dantae!... Wake up!..."

And I lost consciousness completely...

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[10:30 A.M.]

As I opened my eyes, an IV drip was in my arm and Joe Jenny was standing above me, checking my pressure.

"You're awake Dr. Seo!" She said, noticing me...

I asked panicked as I sat upright, "What happened to Park Myung?!"

She sighed and said, "Doctor, think of yourself! you're in trouble~ My father is going to scold you~..."

I pulled the IV out of my arm, "That's my least concern!" Then I got out of bed.

She grasped my arms nervously. "You still have a fever! Just lie down! He's fine! He was slightly shocked but they took care of him!"

I pulled away her hands and said, "Thank you for your concern, Miss Jeo, but I need to go!"

I walked nervously to Myung's room, finding him walking back and forth while chewing his nails.
He spun around with an anxious expression when I walked in, glaring at me silently.
I stepped closer, glancing at his bleeding fingernails, then I said, "I apologize for worrying you last night~"

"I wasn't worried." He replied and then walked toward the window, looking outside as usual.

"Yesterday you wanted to see me and now you're ignoring me~..." I said teasingly as I followed him and leaned against the wall next to him.

He turned his head in my direction, irritated, "You're seriously an old geezer! How could you collapse in front of your patient?!"

I rubbed the back of my head as I was embarrassed, laughing nervously, "Hehe~ I don't know why I keep making mistakes in front of you~..."

"You scare~..." Then he paused without completing the sentence and gritted his teeth.

"Myung, are you aware that anger and fear are also parts of our feelings?... Last night you were scared and today you're angry at me, right?... Do you know what this means?" I asked as I placed my right hand on his left shoulder.

His eyes flinched and he stared at me silently, as if I was able to open a way into his mind...

"This means you were able to feel, and your emotions want to be expressed, but you're trying to suppress them since you're afraid of getting hurt more. Just now that you've swallowed your words," I added.

Myung took a step backward without answering me, completely bewildered.
I held his wrist and pulled him towards myself, looking into his eyes as he was taken aback.

"I'm going to take back all your feelings. I won't betray your trust! So let's fix it together." I grinned at him.

He then said with a smirk, "Then try to gain my trust!... Don't act like a fake doctor."

I ruffled his hair and said as I was irritated, "You stubborn kid! Fine! I'll act like a real one from now on!"

My reaction made Myung chuckle, which made me smile as I looked at him.
He indeed has a beautiful smile. now I'm witnessing it for the second time, and thinking he has lost this precious side of his made my heart ache once again.

As the mood between us had just become pleasant, Nurse Kim stepped in and interrupted us as usual!

I should call him Mr. Interruptor!...

I let out a big sigh and asked, frustrated, "What now, Mr. Kim?"

He calmly replied, "The president wants to see you, Dr. Seo."

Shit!... I forgot what Jenny said completely!...

"Myung, we will talk later~ Your fake doctor needs to go," I said as I turned my head in Myung's direction, and then I told Kim Soe-An to treat Myung's fingernails before leaving.

~

When I walked into President Joe's office, he glanced at me coldly and said, "Sit down, Dr. Seo."

I sat on the single chair in front of his desk, "I'm all ears." and lowered my head.

He said, "Are you aware of what you have done?"

+"I'm sorry, Sir."

-"You got 2 days off without informing us earlier. Then, you left your patient alone without asking another doctor to back you up. And last night you fainted in front of that patient whose condition was not stable at all!..."

+"I've made a huge mistake! I'll accept whatever the punishment is! I won't do it again!"

-"I'm going to deduct your salary this month. Plus, I'll change Park Myung's doctor in charge."

I got shivers down my spine, and I said anxiously, "But! President Joe! I just got close to him... and~... and I was able to communicate with him!"

He raised his voice and snapped at me, "ENOUGH! I'll find a replacement to take care of that poor boy!"

+"Please! I'm begging you! I don't care if you don't give me my whole salary, but let me keep my patient ~ He'll be back to his safe zone again and God knows when he'll react again!~ I'm not~..."

He cut off my words, "I'll fire you if you keep objecting! Now you may leave!"

I was so pissed that I became speechless for a few minutes. How can he do this?!...

I clenched my fists and said, "His previous doctors had just hurt him more and more by neglecting him... Leaving him alone in that room and since he was a quiet type you've never noticed once that they weren't doing their job!... Except for that one accident!... I'm the only one here who can heal him!..."

He glared at me for a few seconds and then said, " You're fired, Seo Dantae... Now get out of my hospital!"
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