As I've said: my life has been very rough, socially. I ..made it to adulthood so I shouldn't complain, right?

Being taught by people who have no idea what they were doing, at all; didn't help either. As much as I (apparently) learned, was easily forgotten when I received a tongue lashing on how wrong my actions and work was… So I mostly found serenity in gaming, I even found love: (as far as it could go into fictional people) emotions outside of anger and fear existed solely within those so I craved them more and more.. Up until the pressure of being stupid started becoming unbearable…

In a rural neighborhood where being loud, angry and raunchy was expected, I didn't have too many friends and relationship with family soured when I became a adult. I slowly but surely avoided contact with friends, family, strangers.. Everybody else that was solely interested in what they wanted. It got to a point where I was somewhat treated like a pet, rather than a person….……………….