Menzi

It is 10 a.m and this is no place I should be at but instead of turning around and going to the coffee shop which is a few blocks away, I walk inside the bar and the place is dead empty except for the bartender who is wiping the glasses he gives me a once over as the door opens and the light shines through and carries back to what he was doing. I sit down and order whiskey with no ice.  

It has been exactly 2 months and 20 days since I last saw Dineo, and she has always been on my mind ever since that day I had sent that stupid text, I thought that maybe I would be able to forget about her and I have tried, but it all became useless when all I could see was her and that beautiful smile that she has, most times I would lie awake at night and wonder what she was doing if maybe she had forgotten all about me and I wish that I had not sent that stupid text. I wish that I had opened up my heart to her instead of being afraid, instead of letting the past rule over me.

Maybe we could have made it work. Who knows, maybe we would still be together today, but now I can never know.

I miss her so much, and I cannot help but feel like a complete idiot. I thought that I would be able to forget about her and be able to move on, but it turns out that I can’t no matter how much I seem to try, I can not get over her. 

“I knew that I would find you here.” Brian said, clapping me on my back as he sat beside me, “Drinking already?” He asked in a disapproving tone. He looked out of place as he sat there with his tailored suit, he shook his head as the bartender offered to pour him some whiskey. “You need to get over this girl.” 

“I can’t.” I said, pouring down the whiskey down my throat, and welcomed the unfamiliar burn on my throat. “I want her.” 

“Well, I need you to forget about her for a second because I want you to put the business first, you said that you needed something to keep you distracted, and I gave you something to distract you. Now stop licking your wounds, it is time for you to move on, man.” Brian stood up and fixed his suit. “Forget about that girl and go to that meeting that you were supposed to go to 2 days ago.” 

I watched him go as I ordered another glass of whiskey as I sat back on the wooden bar stool and looked at the news that was playing on the TV mounted up on the wall. 

I sat there trying to forget about Brian's harsh words, but he was right about one thing. It is time for me to stop wallowing around and try and do something that will make me forget, I took a deep breath before standing up and settling the bill before heading out.

The sun was high up in the sky, blinding my eyes. I stuff my hands in my pockets as I headed to my apartment. I throw the keys on the counter and walk into the shower. I stay there, letting it wash over me, almost begging it to help wash away the memories of Dineo and I.

Once I was done bathing I made sure to go and pack for my trip, I have another thing coming if I think that Brian would let me off the hook again, not when he takes his business this seriously.

Your ticket and make sure that you don’t miss that flight. The message read, I rolled myself as I shoved the phone in my pocket as I got out of the door, even though I did not want to leave. I might say that this trip is what I need and maybe that’s why that bastard made me to go on this trip. 

The flight did not even take that long, and before I knew it, I landed at Mpumalanga. I looked at the watch, and it was only after 6pm, which gives me little time to do nothing but just go to my hotel room. 

I should have known that Brian would have gone for a 5-star hotel, even though he did not have to.

The hotel was spectacular, even the room itself was breathtaking, but I did not have time to take it in before I kicked off my shoes and climbed into the bed.

Even though I am in another province, all that I can think about Dineo, I take out my phone and look at the video that I took of her when she was sleeping. I smiled as I looked at her, she looked so peaceful and safe in my arms.

How I wish I could turn back the time and be at that moment with her again and just watch her sleep. I chuckle as I think of that time when I could have any girl I wanted, but now all I want is Dineo.

I smile as I look at the wallpaper that I put of her, this is the time when we were washing dishes, and we ended up poring each other with water, and we ended up soaked, and we ended up getting in the shower together, and we did everything but bath.

She looked so happy, and I was also happy even though it was for a second I was at least happy, and I ended becoming a coward and ended everything through a text because I was such a coward to face her.

I took out my clothes and opened the covers and settled inside the bed, I placed the phone on the night stand and switched off the light and welcomed the sleep that came right after.