River

I am confused.

After that awkward Monday morning, the rest of the day wasn't that much better either.

The only people happy were the actual mates. But then again, they never stopped smiling since they met each other. It's really annoying.

The lunch break wasn't any easier for me. Greg was giving me these weird looks from time to time and I don't know what that's about. We were just fine last Sunday.

But I push through, even the awkwardness between me and Felix when we're near each other. He kept stealing glances at me. But I didn't care about it. If that's a crime, then everyone should be in jail.

The next day, things were a little less awkward when they arrived at school. I guess it is one of those things that does get better over time. I certainly hope so.

By lunch time, we were almost normal. Emphasis on 'almost'. My siblings and I were sitting with Micah, Felix and his siblings. We're all a twisted family of sorts.

"So, now that you found each other, when is the biting thing?" - I asked Tisha and everyone gasped in shock at the question. They all looked at me like I killed someone.

"Did you mean: completing the bond?" - Micah asked me after a moment of shock. I think they were not ready for this question, apparently.

"Yes, that." - I replied in a matter of fact tone.

"River, you can't ask anyone that question. It's a couple's decision." - Tisha barked at me. She looked very uncomfortable next to her mate, who was glaring at me.

"Sorry. I thought it was a natural thing." - I defended myself, peeved at why they are freaking out about this.

"It is, River, but that can only be decided by the couple in conjunction. And privately." - Felix spoke, glancing at me uncomfortably.

"I see. Forget I asked then. Don't get any ideas, Felix, I was referring to them." - I provoked him with a wicked smile.

"It doesn't work before I'm 18, stupid!" - He rebuked me, sounding annoyed.

"Really? I didn't know that. I was just about to offer my neck." - I joked.

"Seriously, was your brother dropped when he was a baby? I can't believe he is Greg's twin!" - Felix was revolted as he looked at Tisha.

"No, he wasn't. Humans, am I right?" - Tisha glared at me. And so did Greg.

Like I said, almost normal. I just rolled my eyes and continued eating my lunch.

At night in my house, I caught myself staring into the ceiling of my bedroom, thinking about this whole crazy story. Felix can never be my mate. It's impossible for this to be true.

"Are you sure?" - Felix asked me, making sure I gave him enthusiastic consent. We're in my room alone.

"Yeah, I am. Almost. Go for it!" - I stammered, nervously.

Felix kisses me passionately. Though I was eager for this, there were butterflies in my stomach.

I'm enjoying it very much. His mouth is so soft, his tongue massages mine like he knows what he's doing. After a while, he stops then stares at me.

"Are you okay?" - He asked me, feeling unsure.

"Yes, I'm great. Continue." - I demanded him, assuredly.

He keeps on kissing me. Suddenly, I can feel his hands over my pants. They're sliding them over my legs as if he wanted to keep me warm. I like it.

"Can I take your shirt off?" - He asked me after a while. I nodded and he took it off. His too. He has an impressive washboard chest.

Then, he continued kissing me. Lips, neck, ears. Everywhere was fair game to him and I'm loving every second of it. I'm feeling warm and fuzzy inside.

After a while, I took his hand and put it over my crotch. He feels my hardness and widens his eyes at me.

"Look what you're causing me." - I snickered with a devious smile.

"I can take care of that for you, if you want." - He suggested with a naughty inflection in his voice. I grinned widely at him. He just made my day.

"Go for it!" - I exclaimed, enthusiastically.

He unzipped my pants, pulled my underwear down and...

"Son, wake up! Time for school!" - Mom bangs at my bedroom door, startling me. I woke up panting and sweating.

What the actual fuck! Did that just happen?

Later at school, we are waiting for them to arrive like always, it turned into Tisha and I's routine. I almost decided against it, but I couldn't. I can't stop thinking about that weird dream. What the fuck was that about?

Micah and the Huntingtons arrived. He kisses my sister. We all greet each other. Meanwhile, I can't shake this image of my head. I looked distraught.

"Are you okay, River? You look upset about something." - Greg asked me with a worried expression.

"I am, brother, thanks for asking. I just have a lot on my mind." - I replied, sounding disturbed. He frowned, concerned for me.

I step closer to Micah and Tisha, then I glance at him for a moment, looking inquisitive.

"Micah, can I ask you something?" - I wondered, unable to hold myself back.

"No, I don't know when we're completing the bond." - He snickered.

"Funny." - I rolled my eyes. - "But no, what I wanted to ask was if you dreamed with my sister before you met her?" - I questioned him, quizzically.

"I wish! But no, that only happens to ascending Alphas and..." - He trailed off. Then he realized something, looking at me wide eyed and shocked.

"Oh my Goddess!" - He shouted, gobsmacked by the realization.

"Oh my Goddess!" - Felix screamed as well, staring at me in shock.

"What? What is happening?" - I asked him, confused. Everyone was looking at me perplexed by this. And I'm lost as to what is going on with them.

"River, that only happens to ascending Alphas and their mates." - He replied with a cheeky smile. Then he turned to my sister and spoke with a smug grin on his face:

"Tisha, you owe me dinner." - He told her as if the two of them had a bet or something. She gasped in shock at this.

"No, she doesn't!" - I interjected, nervously.

"I can't believe it!" - Tisha was baffled by this revelation, staring at me like she had just made a breakthrough discovery. It was really annoying me.

"Stop it, okay? She doesn't owe you anything! It was just a dream. My brain was probably influenced by the talk I had with Felix on Saturday." - I tried to reason with them, but this statement actually made it worse for me.

Last Saturday, I ran into Felix at the park and invited him to eat with me. It was meant to put an end to the awkwardness between us, but in reality I ended up asking him to service me, in not so many words... *blushes*

"Oh my Goddess!" - Micah shouted again. So did Felix. They were both gobsmacked, surprised by this.

"Dinner. Saturday. On you." - He told her, incisively. He was looking so smug I wanted to punch him.

"What talk? What did he dream about?" - Greg was confused. So was Tisha, a little. I guess they didn't know what I had said to Felix. However...

"Did you tell him, Felix? About what we talked about?" - I asked him, nervously.

"Of course I told him. He's my best friend." - He replied and my heart sank.

"Motherfucker!" - I screamed, angry at him.

"Hey, don't blame me, buddy. No one told you to ask him about dreams." - He snapped back at me, defensively.

"Is anyone gonna tell me what the hell is going on?" - Greg shouted at us.

Felix approached him and whispered something in his ear. Great, that's just great... Why don't you tell my sister too? *grunts rabidly*

"Shut the fuck up!" - Greg gasped in shock at hearing this.

"If everyone could please never mention this again, I'd very much appreciate it. Forget I said anything." - I told them, embarrassed about the whole episode.

"Of course, River. No one wants you to feel ashamed or inadequate. Your feelings are valid and you're entitled to believe your dream was brought upon our talk." - Felix comforted me in a soft tone.

"Thank you, Felix." - I replied, smiling at him contently.

"I told you, Tisha, the Goddess is never wrong." - Micah whispered to her. Then we started walking towards our respective classrooms.

By lunch break, there were still some whispers among them as if I couldn't figure out what it was about. Nevertheless, I tried to ignore the issue as much as possible.

What I couldn't do, however, is to take the damn dream off my mind.

So, while they talked and laughed, I excused myself and left the table.

The next day, I was silent as a mummy. I didn't want to talk to anyone about it or prolong the conversation around the topic of me and Felix. I just pretend nothing happened and they respected my wishes by not bringing it up.

Later on, we had gym class. I didn't even register it last week, but for some reason, I was feeling anxious this time around.

When the [male] students arrived in the shower area, Felix wasn't looking at my direction at all. I half expected him to ogle me naked but nothing. It happened as if I wasn't even there. But he glanced at the other boys, so it's not like he's blind all of the sudden.

With that being said, I did glance at him briefly. His body was not that muscular, but he wasn't skinny either. His abdomen was ripped, of course. Just as I imagined it in the dream. And he does have a nice ass, I suppose.

But when I looked at his dick, I instantly got hard. It was so incredibly embarrassing.

I had to take my eyes off of him otherwise I'd risk being ostracized by the other students. The majority of which makes the most effort to not look at anyone there down their waste. It was what I did as well, until today.

After I take a quick minute fiddling with the towel in front of me, I finally start taking my shower. By then, I had completely blocked him from my view.

After this embarrassing incident, the rest of school was a breeze.

Later at night, I'm scared of going to sleep. I wanted to watch TV but my mom doesn't allow it past 10 p.m. on a school night. Supposedly it disrupts my sleep and I have to wake up early in the morning.

Even so, it's easier to sleep in front of the TV than in my room alone. I strive to keep myself from sleeping tonight, doing my best to stay awake. But even I can't fight for too long...

"Are you sure?" - He asked me, once again requiring my enthusiastic consent.

"Yes, I am. Go for it." - I replied, apprehensively.

Felix kisses me passionately. I kiss him back. We're enjoying each other's company in my room alone.

Suddenly, his hands are in my pants but not near the crotch area. Instead, he's caressing my backside.

We continue kissing. This is very nice. He has such tasteful lips.

"Can I..." - I started but didn't finish the sentence. He looks at me with a wide grin while I trail off.

"Yes, you can." - He replied, grinning at me.

I take off his pants in a second and go down on him. He's enjoying my mouth very much.

I continued sucking him off for a moment until he warned me and I finished him off by hand. After I'm done, he asks if he can... I say 'yes'.

He unzipped my pants, pulled down my boxers and darted towards my dick. As his mouth approaches it...

There's a bang at the door. Mom's waking me to go to school. As I woke up, I realized my pajama pants were wet. Motherfucker!

This can't be happening to me. What the hell is wrong and why am I being plagued by these kinds of dreams? With Felix, of all people? *gasp*

Later at school, I avoided him altogether. I don't wait for him with my sister, I just go inside and ignore his presence. And it goes fine, until we have class together. But he doesn't look my way, doesn't talk to me. He only talks to the other students, respecting my space.

By lunch break, we continue ignoring each other's presence completely. But that doesn't mean others do as well. If only... *sighs*

"River, are you okay? You seem a bit distraught recently." - Micah asked me with a worried frown.

"I am, Micah. Thanks for asking, I just have a lot on my mind." - I replied, trying to disguise my awkwardness. Guess I do look disturbed because I am.

"I understand. I just want to make sure you know you have a safe space with us. And whenever, if ever you wish to talk to someone, I'm here for you. We all are." - He stated. As he said, I noticed concerned expressions on all of them. Especially my brother, sister and Felix.

"Thanks, Micah. I really appreciate it." - I told him with a soft smile. I am thankful for his words and interest in my well being, especially for a person who knows me for barely a couple of weeks.

"And it's okay, brother. It's normal to be curious about your mate. No one here at this table will judge you for it." - Greg spoke tapping on my back.

"Why do I feel like I'm having an intervention?" - I snickered, starting to get spooked by this.

"You are not, relax. We just know what you're going through, that's all." - Greg reassured me, ever so sweetly and nurturing.

"How? Literally none of you know what I'm going through." - I rebuked him, frowning at this assumption.

"You are dreaming constantly about things you have never dreamed before; you are questioning your sense of reality, your judgment. You looked at your mate in a way you never saw a man ever before. You feel things you have never felt before by any man." - Felix declared, as if peeking deep inside my soul.

I gasped in shock at his words. What the fuck is happening to me? How come he knows all this?

"The point is: we get it. And you're protected with us. Take your time. Go at your own pace. Know we are here for you if you need it." - Greg said with a soothing voice.

"OK, then. Thanks, I guess." - I blurted. I sighed heavily.

So this is my new reality now. People knowing more about me than myself. These fucking werewolves, man... *breathes out a sigh*

I guess it could be worse. At least, they are upfront about it. It's better than whispering behind my back like I was some poor unsuspecting human. I can appreciate their respect for me.

But what about these fucking dreams? Am I ever going to get the chance to finish off? How is this even possible?

I don't even like men. Fucking werewolves... *eye roll*

A|N: Yeah, though this is not my last book. I'm done with the 'straight mated into gay' trope. It's nice and all, but it gets tiring after some time.

As I said before, this book has already been written years ago. I'm just editing it to be more clear and less grammarly challenged.

But my point is: this is my last straight mated to gay novel. It's time to embrace the queerness inside of us.

With that being said, stick around. Things are bound to get interesting. And a drama unlike I've never written before is near. Next is "Glory of Love".

OFF: I LOVE THIS SONG. MY SECOND FAVORITE BY AEROSMITH [after 'I don't want to miss a thing'].

Love,

Léo.