I just feel sad. All the time. I want to die, but like, in my sleep. but that wont happen. I dont have a single reason to live anymore. parents? is that really a reson? in a year or so they will get over me being ded, sure, they will be sad but so am i. since i cant die in my sleep, i have been SHing. if you dont know what it is, you are a lucky person. i do it because my dads gonna get fired BECAUSE OF ME, i dont have any friends and everyone hattes me BECAUSE OF ME, im so fucking ugly and fat BECAUSE OF ME, the list goes on. i wanna run away, starve, loose weight, and then come back if i can so people can maybe apreciate me just a bit more. i just dont wanna wake up anymore. i just dont wanna have a gender or a sexuality, like ghostgender maybe. i probably should not post this info but whats the point anymore? i have been skiping meals to lose weight but is wont work. im ugly and fat and should be used to being called that by my parents and kids at school, but is still hurts. if theres anyone out there that are smileing through the pain, im sorry for what they did or are doing to you. it is not your fault, even though if feels like it. you are someones reason to smile, and if your not, tell me and i will smile thinking about you. <3