The hot liquid cascaded down my thighs dampening my pants and pooling around my feet as I stared at the multiple eyes watching my every move. It was humiliating and embarrassing as a boy pointed out that I had peed myself as if it was not obvious enough. 

My breath began to quicken as the whole class erupted in laughter and students began to point at me with their mouths open with laughs escaping continuously. The teacher immediately came to my side although he did put a slight distance between us, as he tried to calm me down and advised me to go to the bathroom and clean up. 

I was about to ask him 'what?' because all that I had done, would be staying in the classroom for the kids to keep making fun of me when they look at it. I looked down at my shoes that were now surrounded by the yellow disgusting liquid as its smell invaded my nostrils. Tears brimmed at my eyelids and when I looked up at the students laughing and staring at me in disgust, they flowed down my cheeks. 

I had peed myself in front of my class and now I was crying in front of my class like the day couldn't get much worse. 

"Ms. Bryan. Please, go and clean yourself up in the bathroom." The teacher spoke as he pointed his index finger at the door and I silently obeyed him as I could still hear the deafening laughter of the students. I bit my lip as I refrained myself from wailing out loud in the middle of class. I would not allow myself to be even more embarrassed, even though the idea of just lying on the floor with my body curled into a ball was very comforting.

I dragged my feet and my sneakers made a soggy sound when I took a step towards the door. The teacher wasn't following me but the booming laughter was and it was completely dreadful.

I opened the door silently and closed it quickly as I stepped foot into the hallway. My eyes looked from side to side as I tried to calm my heart down that no one else would look at me in this pitiful state because first of all, everyone had class and second of all, I could not bear one more person looking at me with disgust and then make fun of me.

I ran with all my strength as I passed multiple classes and three bathrooms in counting, but I didn't want to stop at the bathroom and clean myself before going back to class pretending that I just did not empty my bladder in front of my whole history class. I just could not do that, so I just did one thing as I reached the double doors that connected to the outside world and I just pushed through. 

The parking lot was empty as in no one was there except for cars and I silently thanked God, even though I knew that God was the one that brought this misery on me but I couldn't just hate him. What if he makes me poop my pants later in life? I don't want that.

I fumbled through my wet pants and brought out my slightly wet keys before I ran towards my car as if my life depended on it. As I reached my car, I quickly unlocked the car before getting inside in a hurry. Closing the door, I sighed in relief as my tears began to flow more than before. My jeans were wet and it was completely visible as to what I had done and I was pitying myself for it. 

Starting the car, I quickly drove out of the parking lot and to the only place I knew I could find solace. My house, well my room to be precise. I'd find the greatest of comfort in my room surrounded by my comforting bags of feathers, also known as pillows.

It only took me minutes before I was in front of my house, I looked out the window towards the driveway which was empty meaning, Mom and Caleb were not home yet. I quickly scanned the area to see if anyone would see me if I got out of my car. When the coast was clear, I quickly got out of car and with fast steps reached my front door. A smile broke out on my face as I was about to reach for the front door but something stopped me, more like someone's voice stopped me.

My eyes widened and I slowly turned around to find my mother standing there with bags of groceries in her arms and a confused look on her face. "Jade, what are you doing here so early?"

I managed to give her a light smile but my eyes told her the whole truth when my tears escaped my eyes and slid down my cheeks. Her eyes went towards my eyes before they drifted down towards my pants, well to be more specific, her eyes went towards my crotch and the way her face showed pity was what made me break down in front of my front door as my mother placed her bags on the porch and came towards me. 

"Oh honey, what happened?"

***

"So, you basically peed in front of your whole class?" Caleb looked at me with his eyes sparkling with amusement, well his voice was filled with humor as well as he stared at me. My mom gave him a glare as she kept running her hand through my hair trying to sooth me. It was working but the moment Caleb entered the house, I was reminded of every detail of what happened and I could still feel the stares and hear the laughter of the students. 

Caleb raised his hands in surrender as he silently laughed at me, while I just snuggled into my mother more, to get the comfort I wasn't getting anymore. My mother kept telling me that it was an accident and that it wasn't such a huge deal but I told myself the exact opposite. 

I should've gone to the bathroom before that god-awful project presentation. I should've never drank too much juice at lunch time. I was blaming myself for the horrible thing that happened. I mean, peeing in front of teenagers and then crying is like I'm inviting them to laugh at me for my whole life. I could just imagine the future where I'd be made fun of still, as every one of my classmates would point at me and say, 'Hey look, that's the girl that peed her pants.' And they'd then tell their kids to laugh at me as well. No one would want to marry me or even date me and then I'd die unmarried without a job and childless. 'Here lies the girl that peed herself in front of a whole classroom', would be written on my tombstone and no one would visit my grave. 

A flick to the head got me out of my horrible expectation of the future and I glared at Caleb, who just smiled in amusement. "Scoot over." I scooted away from him as I realized that mom wasn't beside me anymore. Caleb plopped himself on the sofa and began to browse through the TV channels with a bored expression on his face. Mom must've gotten up to cook dinner.

I sighed before I tried to get a little shut eye before dinner, but with the worst in my mind I couldn't ask for more than a little sleep.

***

"Stop being so childish!" Mom complained as she dragged me by the collar of my jacket towards her car as I kept struggling out of her grip. "I don't want to go!!" I cried as I grabbed a hold of the door frame. Caleb was just enjoying the view as he stood leaned on the stairs' railing with a coffee mug in his hands, he took sips before laughing at me. 

"Jade, let go!!" Mom yelled as she kept on pulling me but I shook my head hugging the door frame. I didn't care if the whole neighborhood saw me. I was never going to go back to that hell. Not after what I did yesterday. No one would if they were in my place.

Peeing is something intimate which is why it’s done privately, away from people's eyes. I just did it in front of my class and I am pretty sure that those students would've told the whole school. I'm amazed the whole town isn't buzzing about it right now, since nothing is kept a secret in this town.

"NEVER!!!" Mom huffed before she let me go. I looked back at her to see her glaring at me while catching her breath. My mom isn't old or fat but she is bad when it comes to exertion. Caleb laughed and mom's glare turned to him from me. "Are you going to help me or not?!!" Mom had her hands placed on her hips as she stared down at her oldest son. 

I pleadingly looked at Caleb as he smiled like the Cheshire cat. I shivered before I hugged the door frame more tightly. They'd have to cut my hands to make me let go of this wood.

"Honey, it'll be okay. Just let go." My mom began to sooth me as she rubbed my back but I knew better. She was just trying to be nice and polite so that I'd let go of the door frame. I shook my head frantically which made Caleb laugh and mom to sigh out in frustration.

"Why!?" Mom yelled and I felt tears pooling in my eyes before I answered her question. 

"Because I'm embarrassed. I don't want to go back to school. Please, I'd do anything you ask but not this. I can't do this." My voice cracked at the end of my sentence and her eyes softened as I tried to hide my head in the frame. 

"Oh, my baby." She engulfed me in a hug and I buried my head in the crook of her neck as she rubbed my back soothingly. A moment later, I felt someone else hug my back and I immediately relaxed in the arms of my brother and mother. 

"Everything will be okay." I nodded my head dumbly as I believed every single word that my brother said.

Well, that was only the beginning to my despair.

***