= CHIRS POV =

12 hours earlier

I couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t! I was wrong, no matter how I looked at it. Sarah’s soft hands on my skin was too much. I bent over her, my face in the pillow next to her face. Her breath was on my neck and she had wrapped her arms around my waist in a hug.

“You are my best friend, the best person in the whole wide world, do you know that Chris? I love you so much” She whispered and my heart just broke.

What kind of scum would take advantage of someone this precious, who believes in me this much in such a vulnerable state?

I bit my lip and dragged myself off her. Sarah looked up at me as if I was a dream, and as I brushed strands of hair off her face, I wondered if she knew that I thought she was heaven itself.

“You. You are my heart” I said and smiled, reaching around to pull her small hands off my back and tuck them under the sheets. I sat down at the edge of the bed beside her and stroked her hair “ Aren’t you sleepy? Don’t you want to take a rest? Drift off a little?” I asked her as patiently as I could, even though I was so turned on.

“Hmmm…. that sounds nice since you’re sleeping with me” she giggled and turned to her side, her hand wrapping around my waist like I was a big bolster.

‘F*** my life’ I thought to myself as her fingers rested gently on my crotch. I shifted her hand gently down my leg to my thigh where it couldn't do as much damage to my nervous system.

I patted her back as I had done so in the past when she was crying herself to sleep on my couch after so many breakups, and within moments she was snoring so deeply, one would never imagine that anything indecent had occurred between us a few moments ago.

I slowly peeled myself away from her grasp and replaced my body with an actual bolster, which she immediately hugged and snuggled her face into. I clenched my fist. It wasn't normal to be jealous of inanimate objects, however, it had been ten years of abnormal urges because of this woman. I sucked in my breath and forced myself to turn around and leave the room.

After closing the door I fell to the floor immediately. Straight girls are the worst. Ok not all straight girls, just this particular straight girl. Does she know what she does to me?

I sat back on my heels and leaned against the closed door. I pulled out my phone. I was horny and frustrated, and I needed to do something about it. I knew just the person to call.

“Hey sweetie, need something?” A familiar voice purred over the phone after the second dial.

“Free up your day from now until midnight tomorrow,” I said and hung up. I grabbed my keys and left the house for Jenny’s place immediately.

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Driving over to Jenny's I went back and forth in my head about my decision to leave Sarah alone at the apartment. On one hand, she was clearly asking for something explicit. All the signs were there.

I wanted her so badly, but could I really throw away 5 years of our life, of our relationship? Absolutely not. I had loved her from afar for so long....just having sex with her like this, could reduce us to...

No, I didn't even want to think about it. To be used and discarded by anyone else would be fine...but not if it's Sarah. I would rather die bearing this unrequited love to my grave than have a one-night stand with her.

Sarah was far too precious... I would give anything, tolerate anything...as long as she always looked at me the same way she always does.

I parked my car, called up Jenny and walked over to Jenny's place. She buzzed me up right away, and as she opened the door, her smiling face fell as she saw me, troubled and arms folded in contemplation of what I was to do, with the sweet dream I had left behind in my bed.

"Darling, I guess you're here to forget about her again" Jenny smiled and held out a hand to me.

I nodded and put my hand in hers, allowing myself to be pulled into her apartment for the night.

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“Let’s go see her” Jenny whispered gleefully after I got up and headed to the bathroom at dawn. I turned back. I was so tired and groggy, but I felt anxious and on high alert at the same time. It must have been from three cans of energy drinks I had drunk throughout our sessions together.

“No, that’s messed up” I replied curtly.

“Why? Doesn’t she have work? It’s not like she’s going to be there when we turn up. I see pictures of her, you say you have a photo of the two of you on your desk…and then I just wanna f*** in her bed. Do me like you wanna do her in her bed” Jenny grinned ”Isn’t it gonna be more fun, if you can smell her, instead of just fantasizing about her?”

I froze up. I don’t know why it didn’t occur to me before, but of course Jenny knew. However, could I bring Jenny to such a sacred place as where Sarah slept? They were both similar built, with tanned skin, long brown hair, only Jenny’s was straight while Sarah’s were full curls that bounced and fell around her shoulders when she walked. It would be the true peak fantasy of my wildest dreams, but it wasn't fair to Jenny, to be forced to be Sarah's stand-in, for real.

“I can’t do that to you” I said, looking away guilty.

Jenny got up and strode over, her tawny skin golden in the daylight with only a thin kimono robe covering her back and thighs, and even that hung off her body like a loose veil. With a smoking cigarette in one hand, she reached out with her other hand grabbed my jaw and made me look at her.

“Don’t try to play games with me. I know you're only here because you can’t do it to her. If I’m gonna be used like a roleplaying prop, the least you can do is take me to the correct setting” Jenny smirked and then walked past me, stubbing out her cigarette in the ashtray on the side of the tub.

This was a bad idea…a very bad idea…

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