‎ ‎The house is small, there's only two rooms, one is a bathroom, the other one is a bedroom, kitchen and living room. Little Man seems even bigger in this house, there's not a lot of furniture, only a stove, four chairs, one table, one box and one bed. Little Man was really happy seeing Iara and Lily. He sits in one of the chairs smiling at the two sitting in front of him.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎Little Man is actually called Daveed, he is a 6'8, muscular man, with dark skin and a gentle face, he is wearing a flannel red shirt and jeans, the smile on his face makes the two girls unconsciously smile too, Iara got a cup of coffee and Lily a cup of tea. After a little bit of small talk Iara puts her cup down, sighing as she says.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"The actual reason we came here is because we need something and it" She stops talking when Daveed holds one of his hands and shakes his head no.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"You know my rule girls. Only sell when there is booze smell. I don't deal outside of parties" Iara always found that weird, it's not like he is stopping people from using it, they could just find another person. But before she can counter that logic just because she is pedantic Lily responds with a smile.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"Actually, this time the drugs are from another kind... we need information, is that okay?" He seems a little confused as he puts his cup down and looks at Iara and Lily as he slowly says.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"Information on what? Do you guys wanna compare prices? Because Lily I don't think you can do this, Iara you're like, halfway there but I would not recommend it you know" Iara laughs as Lily puts her hand on her chest offended that he doesn't trust her, she gets even more offended when Iara says.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"Yeah she would use it all, but no it's not about prices, it's about people did you ever sell to this girl?"
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‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎They ignored the offended "hey" from Lily as they both looked at Iara's phone. The picture has a blurry Anastacia, she is wearing a short pink dress with one strand of hair painted purple. Iara can't help but notice the very highlighted curves she has. Little Man is looking at her face when he says.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"Oh yeah! I could never forget her! She called weed marijuana, when she brought it!" He looks up with a smile, reminiscing about the interaction. "She wanted a lot for her first time, so I just sold her three joints and said I was out, I didn't want her having a bad trip or something like that." They probably have a very malicious face because Iara can't hold her smile and Lily almost muttered a "hehehe", Daveed fixes his posture and crosses his arms looking disappointed as he says.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"What are you gonna do to the poor girl? She looked sad, she doesn't deserve bullying." Iara scoffs and Lily almost spits her tea when she quickly says.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"Of course she deserves it! She's like the season eight of Game of Thrones at our school!" Daveed immediately understands saying a little "oh" while Iara doesn't really get it. She holds her finger up and says.

"Actually, she's not like season eight of game of thrones, because at least game of thrones had a good first season, she doesn't have a good season in the past she is just insufferable kinda like Joffrey but hot"

Lily laughed uproariously while Daveed shaked his head disappointed, he does not like when people are mean for no reason, deciding it's time to talk about something else he clears his throat and smiles analyzing Iara while saying.

"By the way, why did you stop meeting us at parties? You were the only one that could keep this little monster controlled." He points to Lily with his head and Iara chuckles. It's true, Lily is a completely different person when she has some alcohol running in her blood.

"I... I actually don't really know, guess I got tired of it. Like I'm not against it, but I would rather be home sleeping or something like that."

That's a bald-faced lie. She stopped going to parties because after a while one night stands got boring and drinking was not doing anything to her. Actually it was doing the opposite, Iara would drink a little bit and immediately start to spiral about everything that happened, usually this ended up with her laying down on the cold floor face down crying and choking while trying to breathe. She tries to think this is behind her because it hasn't happened in about 9 days, which is a milestone. Lily puts her hand on Iara's shoulder and with a proud face she says.

"Don't you worry Little Man, the next full party, Imma bring our favorite sketchbook with me!" Iara doesn't answer, she just glares with disappointment at Lily, not hiding her annoyance at the joke, she spent a lot of money on these tattoos. Daveed smiles when LIly tries to win Iara over by kissing her on the cheek only to get pushed away with Iara covering the mouth of her friend. Little Man did notice the sad expression that took over Iara's face for a second before Lily's joke, he sighs before saying.

"If there's something happening, you know you don't need to hide it, right?" Iara feels in his tone the pity and worry he has for her, Lily didn't know because she lives in another part of town, but everyone in this neighborhood knows what happened. Iara feels even worse when she looks into his eyes and they're full of good intentions. She lets go of Lily cleaning her hand on the chair.

Inside her head there's a wave of remembering everything that happened, she almost forgot, she was focusing so much on destroying Anastacia that she didn't even think about her parents for a full day, this and the pity from Little Man makes her feel like a failure, like she doesn't really deserve the pity but she deserves the guilt. She moves her hand through her hair and while trying not to sound too bitter, she says.

"If I needed help I would say so." Daveed puts his hand on her arm when she immediately pulls it close to her chest the way Little Man's face falls makes the immediate regret feel like a punch in her face. He looks down and says with a soft voice.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"Alright, but you can talk to us, ok?" Lily sees the tense atmosphere coming from Iara and the way Little Man actually looks little by how sad he is and decides to try something to distract them, she gets up and almost screams burning with excitement.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎"Guys! Check this shit out." They both look at their friend and in a second she is standing there completely still and the other she is doing a handstand for about six seconds before hitting Daveed's head wit her feet, she loses her balance and he has to hold her legs, while she yells that he's "Destroying her show" Iara ends up laughing when she looks at how stupid this scene looks, and slowly she can breathe normally without thinking too much about the pain in her chest, she uses this moment of fun to focus on trying to make Lily fall, because she deserves it.

The time they spend in Little Man's house goes by very quickly, they talk about his plans to go to college, about school, about Anastacia and why she deserves to get fucked, about the problems that come with capitalism, Lily didn't pay attention to the last one. When they are finally saying their goodbyes, Lily goes to her car and Daveed takes this opportunity to have some alone time with Iara, he rests his body in the doorframe and by his serious face she can guess he is going to talk about something she doesn't want to talk about, and he begins.

"Hey, I understand you do not wanna talk about it, but I was friends with Martha and Olivier too you know... my pain surely can't even compare to yours... but I'm here ok?" Iara's face gets red again and she feels a short pain in her throat just from hearing the names of her parents, but at least this time she is a little more ready. She tries to hide it but her voice cracks when she says.

"Yeah... no, yeah, sure... I know, look, I... yeah... thank you... "She doesn't know what happened. It's like she physically could not speak, her palms are beginning to sweat and it feels a little hard to breathe when Little Man hugs her. Iara feels like she is hugging a wall. but somehow it is nice, she takes a second to hug back but when she does he whispers to her.

"You don't need to be ready to talk about now or never, but I'm here whenever, ok?" She backs away sweeping a lonely tear that was forming in her eyes, she holds up two fingers guns and with a weak smile and shaky voice says.

"You have such a big heart Little Man" He smiles and they both hear a Miley Cyrus song coming from Lily's car, she's blasting "Flowers" so loud they can probably hear it at St Damian, Iara waves at Daveed that leaves her with another wisdom.

"Take care, don't do drugs, except for mine, but only do a little."

They both ride in the car in a comfortable silence, Lily already knows not to ask about Iara almost crying and Iara knows that if she tries to talk she may cry, and she is not going to cry again in front of Lily, she's going to save it for when she is in the shower. They stop in Iara's house in less than two minutes, the reason Lily never drives is because Iara doesn't really trust her behind the wheel.
When getting out of the car Iara holds the door open and looks inside the car saying with a smile.

"Thank you for... you know, for everything, drive safe please." Lily laughs, taking her sunglasses from her chest and putting it on her face.

"Bitch, I'm the bald strong guy from fast and furious. Byie "Iara closes the door and is about to tell her to not drive with sunglasses when her friend drives away, way faster than necessary. Iara shakes her head and slowly makes her way into her house.

The silence is deafening, in the last months it was never quiet, her father was always watching TV, she never sat down with him for a minute. It's been two months since she is living alone and she doesn't think she has spent a full day sober in this house, maybe this is going to be the first one, she throws her backpack in the couch and moves to the bathroom finding one clean towel in the floor, it's not that clean now but it's enough. She closes the door out of habit and stops at the sink, looking at all the beauty products from her parents. When Martha died Olivier didn't want to throw away her stuff, now that he died she can't do it too, maybe it's a curse, or maybe she doesn't do it because that will make it real, that will make it certain that they are never coming back, maybe if she leaves it here, they come pick it up and she can see them one more time.

"So fucking stupid..." She lets out a bitter laugh at childish thoughts like that, she rubs her face with a lot of strength, trying to stop whatever she is feeling from surfacing, letting out a heavy sigh she gets in the shower, she feel the cold hitting her body and it feels nice to have something else bothering her.

Iara can't believe how far she has fallen sitting in the shower while crying is not new to her drunken self, but this time she is sober and is going to remember everything about this feeling, she read that physical and emotional pain are very similar, maybe that's why her whole body aches and shakes as she screams, alone, completely alone, she wishes they still could complain she was talking to long, but they can't, they never will be.

"I am fine actually, I'm so fine it's disgusting, people write books about how fine I am." She ignores the thought that people who are fine, don't repeat it five times while looking at themselves in the mirror. She puts the first piece of clothing she can find, a very big sweater she got from Little Man. She lays down in her parents bedroom, the only truly clean place in the house and looks at the ceiling. She doesn't spend much time there, being alone with her thoughts makes her think about the past, she grabs her phone and messages the Gossip Instagram with a screenshot of the post about Anastacia being in Adam's party

Iarra: Hey, I was at this party with Anastacia and saw her buying weed. Could you please post that?
Gossip at Saint Damian: Sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE LOVE SOME GOSSIP, we will have to use your name tho, is that fine?
Iara: Stop being weird.
Iara: But sure, you can say that it's fine to ignore me, but they should not ignore the problems drugs can cause in a person's body and mind, we should all pray for Anastacia, she is probably in a terrible place right now, love Iara.
Gossip at Saint Damian: Damnya, you must reallllllly hate her, but people arent gonna hate her for this, but aight, imma post this tommorow morning so people can see her live reaction.
Iara: You write like a child, and that's not even a diss.

Iara spends the next four hours studying and making plans and comebacks to destroy Anastacia, she writes down notes, talking points and things she could do to find out more secrets about the cheerleader. She just put all her effort in her hatred, so she doesn't really have to think about anything else, she knows it's time to stop when she writes Fuck Adam in front of her?. She once again looks at her phone and sees she got a follow request from Nikolaevna, she was about to deny it because she thought it was a bot, but she thinks about that name and laughs as she accepts it just to make a joke.

Iara: Hey, did you survive and live 110 years? cause that would be crazy.
Nikolaevna: sorry to disappoint, we just have the same name haha, but I am 106 years old tho, so that's cool
Iara: Damn, how many communists did you report?
Nikolaevna: actually, 106 too! Isn't that crazy?
Iara: That's your lucky number babe, you should make a company out of that.

Anastacia on the other side of the screen is laying down kicking her feet up and down in the bed, she didn't expect her name to be that recognizable, she just hopes that Iara has not connected the name "Anastacia" with "Anastasia" checking Iara's instagram doesn't show much, there's only three pictures, the first one is a selfie of the scissors duo with the screen covered in smoke, they both are wearing very revealing clothes making Anastacia a little uncomfortable, the second one is just a picture of the sky with nothing written in it, the last one was posted two months ago and it is a family photo with Iara hugging both of her parents in a birthday party, this picture is the first time Anastacia sees Iara truly smile. she was about to answer her, but seeing that she is actually a person makes her rethink that.