Headcanon = Elements of a story or character that are not explicitly stated within the original content (so the canon content) but which is either something a fan themselves believes to be true, or which the fanbase at large believes to be true. This can range from shipping two characters who aren't explicitly involved in the original content to a favourite food of a character based on their personality. Fans can get really enthusiastic about their headcanons.

My heart feels like it's going to break out of my chest, it's beating so hard.

I just told Elliot about being trans, about being born a boy but growing up a girl. I told him the scariest thing I can imagine ever telling someone I've met just a day ago...

And he didn't seem to be bothered by it. His lips are back on mine, his arms around me, and it feels so good. I can barely believe it!

I've never dated before, I never even attempted it, because it's hard enough to find friends who are accepting, let alone finding someone who accepts me for who I am and who will still date me. To have Elliot accept me so easily...

Wow.

Double wow, as he tightens his arms around me and deepens the kiss, taking away my breath. This feels so good, so, so good.

I can hardly believe it, it's unreal. I've read so many stories about coming out as trans going wrong that I never really considered even attempting to date, let alone being accepted so easily.

After a while, I pull back.

We're both out of breath, and I stare at him, at the way he's looking at me. He doesn't seem scared, or repulsed, or anything like that, he seems simply interested, and turned on... Like he did before, like I feel when he holds me...

I swallow hard, stepping back a little, sliding my hands down his arms and taking his hands in mine. It's hot, sweaty, and we're sticky, but I still really like touching him.

Then, out of nowhere, my stomach grumbles, loud enough for Elliot to hear it too and he laughs.

"Maybe we should go back inside." He squeezes my hands a little. "I think they're all waiting to see what happened, and waiting to get food." He smiles.

I nod, suddenly anxious again. Yeah, everyone is going to be waiting to hear if Elliot freaked out about finding out about me or not. Great... "And what... How did we..." What do I even try to ask? What are we to each other? What are we going to do going forward?

Elliot's eyes soften and he leans a little closer. "I'm thinking that there is something going through your mind again." He gives me a quick kiss. "This doesn't change anything between us, not anything that we talked about this morning. I still want to get to know you better, and take things slowly."

I nod. But I don't know how easy this is going to be. This is totally new for me, but I guess we'll see. I look up at him, a smile tugging on my lips. "Let's get inside and get some food." I tug on his arm and he follows me, his hand in mine comforting and strong.

As we walk into the hall, everyone is sitting around, waiting for us and a blush creeps up my cheeks. I feel like they're staring a little too much, but I know that they're also worried and protective, they want to make sure that I'm okay and all.

Jason stands up, grinning. "I guess it's time to go get food now. I'm hungry." He acts like nothing just happened, like they were just waiting on us. I mentally thank him for acting so casual.

Emma also stands up, smiling. "Yeah, we've been here waiting for long enough. Though... I guess I can see why it took so long." She raises her eyebrow and looks from me to Elliot and back, her eyes on me smiling.

I look at Elliot too, and realise that his lipstick is a lot more shimmery than it was before, and I'm wearing a glittery lip gloss...

Ah... Yeah... Oops.

I've got to ask him the brand of his lipstick though... That stuff stayed on well, and it's just my lip gloss which isn't exactly kiss-proof.

Elliot raises his eyebrows at me. "What is it?"

I reach up, running my thumb over his lower lip, showing it to him. "Your lipstick has turned a little more shimmery than it was before."

Elliot laughs, the sound so comfortable and happy, wrapping his arms around me, pulling me against him. "We're going to have to match lipsticks next time."

I lean against him for a moment, happy with how easy this feels. "Maybe." Then I pull back again. "But first, food." I tug him along, my heart beating loudly, in a good way.

Maybe things don't have to be as scary as I keep imagining them.

***

We sit down on the grass next to the restaurant. Jason and Elliot went in to order our food and the rest of us just made ourselves comfortable out here.

On our way out of the building earlier, we ran into Kevin and Mya, who seemed a little flushed and very very close as they came from the elevators. Well, good for them. And Ruby, Evelyn, Justin and Mark were already waiting for us out front.

As Jason and Elliot get back, they're carrying so much food. I can barely imagine that we'll be able to eat all of it, though, I know that some in our midst are pretty big eaters, myself included.

Elliot sits down on my one side and Jason on my other side, and suddenly I feel like a princess, surrounded by her bodyguards... Very handsome bodyguards, in pretty dresses too.

It's so nice being surrounded by people you like.

My burger is as good as I remember it, and next to me, Elliot is eating a burger too. I can't keep my eyes off him. I keep trying not to stare at him, but that's just...

Yeah... I keep failing at that.

After all the food is gone, we don't move. The evening is much too nice, the light breeze takes a little off the heat from the day, and being outside after spending most of the weekend inside is really nice.

I listen in on some of the conversations around me. Listening to Jason talking to Ruby about some manga and Kevin and Mark discussing the next con they're attending and what they'll be cosplaying there.

Then Elliot's fingers play over my back, leaning close. "I don't know how to ask this..."

I look his way, he sounds... different. "What is it?" My heart skips a beat at the look in his eyes.

Then his eyes drop to the top of my dress, to my boobs. "Well... ehhh..." He runs his hand over the back of his neck, quickly looking up at my face and then away. "I was wondering... Like..."

"Yeah?" I can't help but smile a little at how awkward he seems.

"How do you like... fill the top of your dress? Like... how do you create boobs?" He almost whispers the last word, his eyes darting away and his cheeks colour.

I stare at him, for a moment not sure how to answer. But Jason breaks whatever awkwardness going on as he bursts out laughing next to me.

"That's..." Jason keeps laughing. "Of all the things you ask her..."

I push at Jason, trying to push him over. "Stop being such a jerk."

Elliot awkwardly moves next to me. "I didn't want to..." He looks spooked, like he may have done something wrong. "I was just wondering, you know?" He looks down to his own dress. He looks a little lost and panicked.

I reach out to him, trying not to laugh too. I take his hand. "It's okay. It's not a bad question and Jason is just being a jerk." I glare at Jason, who finally stops laughing, then I look back at Elliot. "These are... Ehh... These are my real boobs. I don't have to make them anymore." I squeeze his hand again. "But I can teach you how I used to do it. Or show how I help Jason when he wants them."

Elliot nods, still blushing. "Sorry. That was... It was a stupid question"

I shake my head. "Nah. I can get why you'd be curious. But yeah, these are real." Hey, I've asked the same questions before. When you can learn how to improve your cosplay, you've gotta ask, even if it's awkward.

I see his eyes widen a little and he licks his lips. "Right." His voice is different now and I feel how the mood around us has changed a little, more charged.

Oops.

I bump my shoulder into Elliot's. "Don't worry about it. It's really hard to ask stupid questions and we both have to kind of ehh... feel our way around things."

Elliot's cheeks go even darker and I realise that, yeah... maybe not the best choice of words. Ah, whatever.

"I'm going to shut up before I say anything more stupid." I glance at Jason, who is trying really hard not to laugh again. "Are you serious?"

Jason shrugs, letting his laugh out. "It doesn't happen often that you end up all tongue tied." He shakes his head, then he looks at Elliot. "She can still help though, she's great at that. Just, you know, the moment of question was just a little... funny."

From the other side of the group, Mya is looking at me curiously. Oops. She doesn't know yet...

I get up. Some things are better explained at a short distance, even if the rest of the people in the group already know about it. Some things you just don't yell over the crowd.

"What are they laughing about?" Mya eyes me, raising an eyebrow.

"Elliot asked a... ehhh...." How can I explain it best? "He asked a question which could have been insensitive and he didn't know how to ask it."

"Which was?" She looks more confused now.

I think for a moment how to word it best. "He asked me how I 'fill the top of my dress' when I cosplay." Still awkward, still odd.

Next to her, Kevin lets out a laugh, eyeing the guys on the other side, amused.

"And that's a strange question, why?" Mya now looks between me and Kevin.

"I ehhh... I'm trans. A trans girl. So boobs aren't exactly a given for me." Could I have said it better? Sure, but it's better to just be blunt and get it over with.

"Trans?" She blinks, looking me over, more confused somehow.

"Born a boy." I try to help her out.

She grins, shaking her head a little. "I got that part. I'm not unknowing. Just... surprised." She smiles now, her eyes softening. "Cool." Then she looks at Elliot. "Yeah, that could have been a really insensitive question to ask. I'm sorry for my best friend not always knowing how to ask things."

Kevin shakes his head. "Too bad I missed it. He must have looked really uncomfortable."

I smack him on his arm. "Kev. Don't be mean. It's a valid question and pretty useful for guys crossplay anime girls. You know that yourself."

"Yeah, yeah. I'm just imagining the horror on his face as he realised what he asked." He keeps grinning, holding up his hands to me. "Sorry. I'll stop." Then he leans close to Mya, who still seems a little confused, but also not that disturbed by what I just told her. So, that's good. But I guess she's thinking the whole 'best friend dating a trans girl' thing over.

On the other side of the group, Elliot stands up and comes over, sitting behind the two of us. "What are you two talking about?" He's smiling, his eyes shining, happy.

Of course, Kevin has to butt in first. "You asked her about her boobs?"

Elliot narrows his eyes at Kevin, then he looks my way. "This is going to haunt me until the end of time, isn't it?" I'm glad he's taking it so well.

I nod, smiling too. "Probably."

He seems to think this over, then shrugs. "There are worse things to be known for." He leans to me, putting his head on my shoulder. "Hey, I was thinking, how about some ice cream?" Then he looks at Kevin, shooting a glare his way. "And we can leave these troublemakers behind."

"Sounds like a plan." I stand up.

We'll all be leaving for our own places tomorrow, so time with Elliot is limited. I better sneak in some alone time now.

"You going to ask more boobie questions?" Kevin turns to us and I push at his shoulders, making him topple over.

"You're such a jerk sometimes." I shake out my dress, taking Elliot's hand. "I'm in for some ice cream. It's still way too hot out here, even this late in the day." I wave at Jason, who looks up at me. "We're going to have ice cream, will be back later."

"Sure!" He waves back. "Try to behave yourself, yeah?" He grins.

I just shake my head, pulling Elliot along. They can be such meanies. All of them. But it's also why I like them best.

Instead of going to the cafe that we just got our food from, we turn a corner into one of the streets going away from it.

"I know a place where they have really nice ice cream. It's just down the road, found it last year." Elliot smiles. He seems pretty relaxed, but his hand is a little tight around mine.

"Nice." I tug on his arm a little, making him stop.

He turns to me, his eyes curious.

"I just wanted to say..." I shrug a little, now feeling awkward. "Thanks for not freaking out?" I know that not everyone would have responded as relaxed as he did.

He steps in closer, sliding his arm around my waist, as he keeps doing somehow, but it feels so nice. "I know it must have been scary for you to tell me. I understand that. But... I don't think thanking me for being a sane human being and not an asshole is really that much of a compliment." He winks and then leans closer, his lips near mine. "Plus, I don't think it matters."

I want to kiss him, but at the same time... "Why not?"

"I've seen you before, cosplaying and everything. To me, you've always been you. And I don't think that knowing you're trans really changes much for me." He sounds so serious, and I can barely hear myself think over the beating of my heart. Is this real?

"Really?"

"Really." His voice is low, husky, and then his lips are on mine.