"You're terrifying and mysterious, strange and beautiful, someone a lot would want to love but rarely who would know how to."

Chapter 9:
Shattered

BELLAMY POV:

''Bellamy!!!!'' Clarke called out to me, screaming, begging to stop as my fists still flew back to Finn's face. Something about it got to me because I found my body moving away from the Spacewalker's. Looking down at my knuckles I saw the blood dripping towards my palms. My jaw was still hurting a bit but he had it worst. Finn was left on the ground, his nose was broken, blood oozing out of it and he had a black eye. 

Clarke ran up to me, searching for any damage on my body what so ever. She took my hands and placed them in her palms, gently tracing her fingers across mine. She looked up to me, her eyes were full of guilt but also satisfaction, she hadn't expect me to defend her, especially not when it came to Finn. That fight wasn't mine to begin with but I couldn't just let him do as he pleased. I knew he had hurt her but other than that there were various rumors about what had happened between them. The tension was overwhelming. 

''I'm..'' I was cut of by her own words.

''Thank you, you didn't have to do it and it certainly wasn't the right thing to do but thank you, Bellamy.'' She held my hand while saying it, looking down at them I rose my head and met her gaze. Her blue eyes were brighter now from the sunlight. It was like the whole sky was trapped in them. Her curly golden hair was a bit tangled but it still had a shine to it. I moved some hair behind her ear while still looking directly into her eyes. Her pale soft skin and her pure soul - she was no where close to understanding what I did and why I did it. 'Princess' was given to her because she was privileged because we knew she had it all. She didn't have to know about pain nor suffering. She didn't know about a rough life, because she never had it. Her thank you wasn't honest, with violence it never was. At least not with her. 

''It had to be done Clarke, If I...'' She cut me off again.

''I know Bellamy, you were trying to protect me from him and I am thankful for it. Although I don't approve of violence, he had it coming when he punched you.. and you? You were just being a good friend while protecting me from him. I am truly grateful for that.'' I looked down at her beautiful blue eyes, she met mine. I nodded my head and went up to Spacewalker, our gaze breaking and her eyes filled with confusion. 

''Try pulling that again and you'll end up with more than just a broken nose.'' I glanced back to him over my shoulder, my confidence high and my ego even higher. 

Clarke ran off to treat Finn, something about it was right to me, seeing her treat a guy that just tried to hurt her and had hurt her before wasn't a pleasant sight. She traced her hand across his face. I glanced back at her one more time before heading off to my tent. 

CLARKE POV: 

Bellamy did that, he did that to protect me. I guess I was so shocked that I had forgotten that it was still a physical fight. I glanced over to Finn. He was laying on the ground but he eventually pulled himself up, a crowd looking around him and at him. Raven ran up to him screaming about who did that to him. Finn didn't say, he just shook his head and just as Raven moved on from asking to seeing and worrying  someone from the crowd said Bellamy's and my name. Raven turned around, shooting me a death stare, she came up to me. 

''You and I are gonna have a little chat later but right now, you need to treat him.'' I nodded. To be honest she frightened me. A few of the boys carried him to the dropship's med bay, I looked at his wounds and treated him, Raven was there holding on to his hand. I glanced over to her and all I could see and hear was her worryingly comforting Finn. 

''Hey! Everything is gonna be alright, It's not even that bad, your nose is still in tacked and you look as badass as you'll ever be!'' She joked, comforting him and smiling. Finn stood still as I wrapped some bandages around his wrist and handed him a pack of ice to keep on his nose and eye. 

''Raven, can we have a moment..'' He told her, pointing up to me. 

''Sure.. Call me when you're ready, I'll wait outside.'' Raven replied, I must say I could feel unpleasantness coming from her voice.

''Finn, I'm sorry for what happened with you and Bellamy but there is nothing to talk about. He was trying to protect me.'' I said. 

''I know Clarke, but I wanted to tell you something since we came looking for you. I told myself whatever happened, you should know this.'' He said as I looked at him full of confusion. I nodded and let him continue. 

''I am in love with you Clarke. I was and I always have been.'' 

RAVEN POV: 

  ''I am in love with you Clarke. I was and I always have been.'' Was the last thing I heard before storming off to my tent. I cried and cried, the tears just came flooding out of my eyes - oozing. How could he do that to me? We were still together, and after all she's done to him... he's like this because of her! I came to the ground because of him, Finn - my best friend, a part of my family and my boyfriend. He promised he'd be there for me, that he's going to stay after what happened to my parents. We were each others family for so long and the love we have was stronger than anything! Well, anything except her..  I pushed my head in my pillow and screamed, all I wanted to do is punch the princess right in the head and hope she never wakes up.

''Raven, are you done with the'' Bellamy stormed in my tent, cutting his question short when seeing me in tears. He looked at me confused as if he didn't know how to react. 

''I'm sorry, take your time.. '' He said, putting his head down looking at his boots. 

''No, stay.. I'd really use the company.'' I said, trying to fake a smile. 

''You know I'm not a guy to comfort you right?'' 

''Right. Well right now you're the a person I need.'' 

''If you want to talk, I'll listen. But I can't promise you I'll be of any help.'' Bellamy implied.

''I don't wanna talk.'' 

BELLAMY POV: 

''I don't wanna talk.'' She said as she stood before me. Once she whipped her eyes with a tissue she looked as if she hadn't been crying at all, her dark brown hair fell perfectly on her face. I stood before her, my head up, waiting for the response my look gave her. She looked up at me, every trace of her emotion towards anyone had disappeared from her previously warm but broken eyes. Now she looked at me with rage, vengeful and emotionless. How did I know that look? I used to wear it everyday, I still do in fact. She took off her jacked and the shirt followed as well. I could feel the warmth of her skin already surrounding me.

''Are you sure?'' I asked as I looked down at her, now bare chested. I wouldn't have any regrets over sleeping with a random girl, but I though she wanted more than just a one night stand. 

''What is there not to be sure of? '' She nodded at my question and than replied with that.

''I can't be that  for you. If we are doing this, it is just sex, nothing else.'' I told her. My voice calm.

''Just sex.'' She said as she pulled my shirt off. I took my pants off and the rest was as it was with almost every other girl present here on the ground. 

CLARKE POV: 

I was so shocked at Finn's confession, it was so sudden and besides, what ever feelings he my have or thinks he has, he was with Raven and he wouldn't do that to Raven. 

''You love me? You lied to me!'' I yelled, my heart was slowly breaking at the remembrance of those nights we spent together and the time we shared our body warmth, we shared love and a relationship which was slowly building up but he demolished it - when we were so near the top. 

''I didn't lie to Clarke! I never mentioned her because I thought I'd never see her again!'' Finn exclaimed - loudly. 

''Gosh! You are impossible.'' I placed my hands on top of my head and started walking back and fort trying to come up with something. 

''I may have hid her from you but I never lied about how I felt!'' I shot him a broken look, tears filling my eyes immediately. 

''You broke my heart.'' 

FINN POV: 

''You broke my heart.'' She said as tears filled her eyes.. It made me feel like crap honestly speaking. 

''I.. Clarke I'm sorry.'' I muttered as my look fell to her feet.

She shook her head in denial, she didn't accept my apology. I wanted her, I wanted her so bad that I hurt her in the process and I don't think she could ever forgive me for that. Hell I wont be able to forgive myself for the time being. 
Before I knew I did the thing I was the most afraid of. I crashed my lips against hers, kissing her passionately. I broke the kiss looking directly into her eyes, asking her if she wanted to continue. 
She crashed her lips against mine within seconds and continued kissing me. It was intense, I thought she'd break it off but she didn't. She continued but eventually stopped. She broke my gaze as she mumbled the exact words I didn't want to hear.

''No, Finn stop, this -  'us' -  we are wrong!'' I grabbed her by her arm as careful as I could. Pushing her against my chest, forcing her to look up directly into my eyes. 

''Clarke, we are right  - but we're trying at the wrong time.. you clearly need more.'' I pressed my lips against hers and released in the matter of seconds. She looked at me with confusion.

''No Finn, we are wrong and this is the best time to let you go.'' She said as she released herself from my gasp. My jaw clenched in anger of losing her, in a second I had her and in the next, I lost her all over again.  

CLARKE  POV: 

I exited the dropship, going towards God knows what. I wanted to have some alone time. The sun was setting and I decided to go to my tent. I changed my clothes and hopped in my bed, I covered myself while the whole event replayed in my head over and over again. Tears filled my eyes while I remembered an awful decision I made when kissing him back. I made up my mind and Finn and I were never gonna happen again, I made a mistake while I was craving for his attention.

We were over. 

I drifted off to sleep, waiting for what the next day will bring.