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Even If She Never Wakes

The Quiet Permission

The Quiet Permission

Apr 13, 2025

The sun was pale that morning, hanging in the sky like a witness that refused to offer opinion or comfort. In the solarium of the Kang estate — a serene glass-walled room that overlooked a stone garden with a koi pond — Han Soo-Ah sat wrapped in a soft shawl, her hair now growing back into the long silk sheets she used to wear like armor. A tray of untouched tea cooled beside her.

She hadn’t seen her father since the night before her discharge. He hadn’t visited the hospital much — not because he didn’t care, but because the sight of her asleep had broken something inside him that words could not repair.

When she heard the estate gate unlock and the precise crunch of leather shoes on marble tile, her breath hitched. And then, the smell — faint citrus cologne and ginseng — the scent of Han Jae-Sun. Her father.

He entered with his usual presence: composed, lean in a dark tailored suit, silvered hair combed neatly back. His aura still held that same domineering quiet, the kind of silence that could fill boardrooms and crush political careers without saying a word.

But when he saw her, he faltered. His breath caught in a barely perceptible hitch. She rose slowly, unsure what to say.

He approached her not as the Chairman of Han Global, not as one of the ten most powerful men in Asia — but as a father.

“My girl,” he said, voice low and hoarse. “You’re… awake.”

And then, unexpectedly, he wrapped her into his arms. The kind of embrace he never offered when she was younger — too busy, too driven, too distant. But now, when all the polished steel of empire meant nothing, he held her like she was the only piece of the universe worth anchoring to.


They sat down in the solarium, birdsong trailing faintly from the garden. A maid brought fresh tea; neither of them touched it.

For a while, he didn’t speak. He only looked at her — his daughter, alive, breathing, different. She had always been beautiful, brilliant, destined for power. But now there was something more: a subtle stillness, like someone who had gone deep underwater and resurfaced changed.

“It’s strange,” he finally said. “You look the same. But everything else… everything else has changed.”

Soo-Ah didn’t reply.

He turned his gaze toward the koi pond, watching the ripples.

“Do you know what he’s done?” Jae-Sun asked quietly.

She blinked. “You mean Dae-Hyun?”

Her father gave a dry chuckle — not amused, but disbelieving. “He’s not the boy you married anymore.”

“I know.”

“No,” he said, voice sharpening. “You don’t. You see the man who tucks you in at night. The one who cuts your fruit and keeps the house warm. But I see the man who moved through the stock markets like a scalpel. Who bought out both families without firing a bullet. Who made your uncles beg for relevance, who humiliated Kang Tae-Joon’s rivals, who buried old monsters in silence and made new ones with grace. He is not a boy. He’s a cold-blooded empire now. And he did it all for you.”

Soo-Ah stared at her hands. “He did.”

Jae-Sun turned to her, his expression unreadable. “So now I must ask — what do you want to do?”

She frowned. “What do you mean?”

“You have no obligations anymore,” he said. “The companies? He controls them. The shares? Transferred. The alliances? Stabilized. If you want to live in Jeju and raise dogs, you can. If you want to go to France and paint for ten years, no one will stop you. You’re not an heir anymore. You’re not a pawn. You’re… free.”

The word lingered.

Free.

It should have felt like breath after suffocation. Like spring after a nuclear winter.

But it felt empty. Cold.

Because how does one live freely when everything that made life meaningful had either died… or transformed beyond recognition?

Soo-Ah looked out at the garden, at the way the wind stirred the water lilies.

“I don’t know who I am without him,” she said at last.

Her father said nothing.

“I don’t mean that in the old way,” she continued. “Not the romantic way. I don’t mean I’m lost because I love him. I mean… he’s been burning himself alive to keep me warm. And I didn’t ask him to. But I can’t walk away from that.”

“You can,” her father said softly. “But you won’t.”

She nodded.

Then, after a beat, “Do you resent him?”

Jae-Sun gave a slow exhale, one hand pressed to his brow.

“I should. He stole my legacy. He turned my daughter’s tragedy into a reason to become a monster. He didn’t ask permission — he never bowed, never groveled. He took. Like a warlord.”

He paused, then looked at her.

“But part of me… part of me is glad. Because if he hadn’t… you might not have made it back to us. And he might not have survived long enough to bring you home.”

She swallowed back sudden tears.

“Appa…”

He reached out and gently took her hand — his once-calloused fingers now softened with age.

“You’re not the only one grieving,” he said. “But you’re the only one who can choose what your grief becomes.”

He stood.

“I’ll always protect you, Soo-Ah. But I won’t stand in your way. Not anymore.”

He kissed her forehead, and for the first time in her adult life, Han Jae-Sun walked away from his daughter… without trying to control what came next.


Later that evening, Dae-Hyun found her standing barefoot in the pond garden, staring at the blossoms falling into the water. Her hair danced in the wind, and for a second, she looked like the Soo-Ah from his dreams — the one who had never been broken.

He said nothing. Only walked beside her, silent, tall, achingly beautiful in his newly sculpted frame. His presence still carried that coldness — elegant, distant, mythic. But when she looked up at him…

He was still hers.

“He came?” he asked.

She nodded.

“And?”

“He told me I could go,” she said. “Anywhere. Do anything.”

“And?”

She turned, her eyes clear now. “And I’m not going anywhere.”

For the briefest moment, something inside him cracked — a tremble beneath the ice.

Then he nodded.

And together, they stood in the garden of a house built from shattered dreams, under a cherry blossom sky, where grief had made room — not for healing — but for love that had survived the fire.


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