The clock suddenly froze as my phone buzzed, and my heart skipped a beat. Something about that vibration felt different. I was anticipating a message from someone, not just from anyone, but a message from her. I was right, she sent a 'goodmorning' message. My vision blurred as my fingers felt numb. I don't understand why I felt so nervous all of the sudden. I mean, it was just Ria right?...right? For the first time, I hesitated to open our chat. Usually, I would open her messages instantly and surprise her with an energetic greeting, but something was holding me back this time. I left her message on delivered for ten minutes straight, thinking what I was meant to say. I was acting as if she asked a question that was worth millions of dollars if I got it right. After all that overthinking, all I replied to her was a simple, "Goodmorning! How was your sleep?"

Something about today felt off, especially with Ria. Not because of the dream, but because she sounded worn off, and really toned down. She didn't sound as enthusiastic as she always was whenever we texted. So I wanted to ask how she was even when we were both in class. I was getting worried.

"I'm just tired," Ria responded, "I haven't been sleeping well, plus, school has been pretty draining."

I couldn't really blame her. Even I was getting tired of always waking up early, and having to do so much in class everyday. I felt bad, mainly because we text a lot at night and sometimes we both would even stay up until 1 am. There were times where she even fell asleep in the middle of our conversation. Some people would find that rude, or annoying, but for some reason, I found it cute.

A part of me also felt relieved and happy, knowing that she's open to share even a little of this vulnerable side to me. I've always seen deep conversations about emotions within a friendship as something truly precious, a way to strengthen the bond between two people. Ria, being someone who's mostly joyful and radiates a sunshine like aura, is one of the people I was most excited to connect with on a deeper, more emotional level. 

When she first mentioned that she didn't feel too well today, I had major flashbacks of that dream last night. I debated whether or not I was going to tell her about that dream. It's probably not the right time yet, maybe one day. I don't want to make things awkward between the both of us, but because of our distance from each other, I felt upset that I couldn't really do anything powerful to show that I was there by her side, to listen to her, and make her feel comforted. 

Although an idea crossed my mind, she mentioned how she enjoys my poems a lot. Like those videos where I record myself within nature, narrating one of my own pieces. I thought that maybe she would appreciate a little, personalised narration that can maybe help her feel more comforted and understood. I thought of writing a descriptive monologue, narrating it, and sending it to her tonight. Something that she could hold close to her heart, especially during difficult days like these. Randomly, in the middle of class, while I thought about that idea, I immediately got excited, I got a burst of energy to finish everything and start planning it all out, because I always loved making little gifts and giving it out to the people I care about, and I wanted to make something special for her too. After all the times she made me laugh all night long, she deserves to recieve true, genuine appreciation in her life.

On my way home, Ria was still in school, she was having her lunch break, and I took that as the perfect opportunity to ask what her favourite song was. 

"Seasons. Seasons by Wave To Earth," She answered without hesitation.

Throughout the span of our friendship so far, we've loved talking about the most random things ever, music being one of them. One moment you'll catch us talking about people's weird behaviours in school, and the next second, we're suddenly talking about food we randomly crave. We change topics so smoothly and casually, it somehow all makes perfect sense for us both, every single time.

With the music in the current topic we were talking about. I wanted to use her favourite song, a piano ballad version, as the background music for the little gift im making tonight, to make it more sentimental, and 'Seasons' just matched everything so perfectly.

I was so ready to cheer her up tonight, I have it all planned, but then I started overthinking, what if this gift weirds her out? Or that I'm moving too fast? I don't know why I started overthinking about these little things out of nowhere, and somehow I just felt so nervous whenever she crossed my mind.