I was never really into relationships. If I liked someone, I just like them. I don't imagine if we would be together forever. I only enjoyed being with them or hanging out. To me, that's the best part when you like someone. And a disclaimer: I am not against people who watch porn. I don't care what people do. To me (the me back then), it was disturbing and didn't really know porn existed (JK). Oh yeah, I met P-Guy in the club.. or was it math class?
I want to talk about my life during college.. mixed in with old and new experiences. Knowing that I view the moments back then differently, I want to recognize it. I'm not living in the past, but sometimes.. just sometimes.. I feel haunted by the past. I'm not traumatized. I want peace with my past. Opening up and finally recording what happened will most likely help me with that.
That's just one part of it. The more important part is to finally use my dormant and rusty inner artist.. which, by the way, is slowly dying.