'Dear Ananya,
Sitting alone, my mind keeps going far away… not knowing its destination but my heart knew it all and secretly whispers to me. Finally our friendship was about to convert into love on the day when I decided to approach you; but since I was tight-lipped, the story between us got hidden under the backspace!
My love for you started without letting me know that I had fallen for you. In the beginning it was really difficult for me to believe the fact that I had fallen in love but as we started to approach each other and spend time, I was clear…I was clear about my love… but I wasn't clear about you love.
My words have always betrayed me and will continue to betray me whenever you are near. No matter how much I rehearse, no matter how much I recite those three words; yet they evaporate as soon as they sense your presence. I know my silence was complicated which got unnoticed by you and so the story between us got hidden under the backspace!
I could never speak my heart out to you and you too never tried to understand my silence. Feelings started from my heart and always stopped when it reached my mouth and thus a friendship always returns back from the doorstep of love; whole life I’ll regret that you could never read my eyes; thus the story of my love got vent out through the saline water of my eyes.
If you don't believe my words, just ask my pillow how much I dampen it. My bedsheets mocked me every time I return home dejected.
It would be a lie if I say that I never tried. I tried…everyday… alas I was too scared to lose you as my friend. Because I also know that a lie gets easily sold out in the market but true feeling are always filtered by people. Thinking about the harsh consequences I step back everyday and console myself and so the story between us kept folded inside my heart.
Sometimes i feel how could I not speak my heart out and say what I feel for you? Apart from you, whosoever knew me, saw my sincere love for you and they suggested me to confess. I always make up my mind to do so but whenever my eyes met yours, I come back to my senses and the reality speaks up before my heart could do that.
Believe me, I would have never told you about all these, but yesterday, the moment I got your wedding invitation card, my hands aren't even listening. As if my hands are in total sync with my heart, it keeps on going on and on.
I have no harsh feelings that my truth got suppressed somewhere within my heart. Though I wanted to express my love for you, but I guess it was my love (one-sided love) that chose to be calm and let it go unnoticed.
If this would have been my infatuation, I would have easily moved on; alas it was love and so was left folded and you never tried to unfold it and so the story between us got hidden under the backspace!
This is what makes me step back and walk away…the fear that I might love you more and the belief that you’ll never!!!
Don’t know how long is it that I have to resist everything and hide all of the truth in my heart; but I can’t reveal it. I can only hope that you’ll know it…someday!
Though I love you, though I feel for you but deep inside isn’t brave enough to reveal it. I can only hope that you’ll know it…someday!
I know I can’t move on, also I know that you’ll never know what I felt for you...you are special to me who made me experience this crazy beautiful thing called ‘love’ unknowingly.
Every time we met, my heart yells to you but you never heard it. Do you know how much I had to force myself and pretend to be still? Alas, you never saw it and I never tried to show it. But I can only hope that you’ll know it…someday!
I don’t understand why it must be you…to be the one in my heart…to be the owner of my heart; I guess that my heart is never confused…it’s certain that you are the only one that my heart chose.
The saddest part is that I can never blame you for not knowing my love for you. Neither can I blame myself. How could I ditch my best friend who is also your boyfriend? How could I tell him to leave you for me? How could I approach to you when I know that he loved you a lot? How could I?
But sometimes I really get confused about you. There are times when I feel that you love my best-friend and will never leave him. There are also times when I feel that you don't want to be in the relationship and somehow throws a hint to me. I don’t know how far it’s true but my love for you is real and will always be the same… and I can only hope that you'll know it someday!
I really don’t know what to do. Should I back off or approach? I really don’t want to be the villain of your love-story; I can only become a silent lover and in return never expect anything from you. But can only hope that he’ll know it somehow someday!!!
It is a complete lie when someone says that one sided-love is painful. I think it is one of the best feelings ever where no one knows about our secret admirer including that person itself; where there is no greed but only hope; where there is no fear of losing but only hope. And in my case I can only hope that you’ll know it someday!
You might not love me but you taught me, you changed me, you grew me. I don’t think my love has failed because it is you who has actually failed. It was you who made me fall in love but yourself forgot to fall. I’ll never stop for a moment without thinking about you and I know for sure that you’ll never stop for a moment and think about me. Days are flying and I don’t know what to do. I cannot fight more… I’m tired now …only I can hope that you’ll know it…someday!
I’m begging you please know it…please know it…..someday!!!'
Your Gotham."
Removing his spectacles, Mr. Nair wept his soaked eyes.
"Tsk! How can life be this complicated? Sometimes you know you'll fail but still continues to cling on a single thread."
He gradually slided his bag over his shoulder and moved to the door. Opening the door he again murmured, "What would have been the scenario if this letter was delivered on time?"
He nodded his head in despair. He switched off the light and locked the door from outside.
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