The camera shop in the Foundry was small and cramped, the air thick with fixer chemicals and old paper. Juno’s fingers trembled as they tightened around the camera, the weight of it familiar, grounding. The damage from the alley had been easy to fix — a cracked lens, a bent shutter. They’d spent hours, as if they could repair more than just the machine, and yet they hadn't used it in the month since the alley other than a bird here or a flower there. The pictures came out wrong.
Their apartment was the same way: walls papered with photos, a darkroom carved into the bathroom, shelves sagging under the weight of manuals and film canisters. A shrine to control. To something tangible. Because if they could capture a moment, they could keep it from changing. Keep themselves from changing, while at the same time they struggled to give form to themselves.
Nat wanted them to photograph her. Nude.
Juno’s pulse spiked, their throat tight. That had been before the alley. Before the blood, before the laughter that wasn’t theirs, before the way their hands had moved without them.
«She still wants you, you fool.»
“I didn’t ask you,” Juno hissed, their voice raw. They adjusted their glasses, the frames digging into their temples. “What almost happened — I wasn’t strong enough, and—”
«But we were.»
Juno slammed their palm against the counter, the glass display rattling. In the reflection, Fuckerina’s grin split their own face, a too-wide smile, teeth too sharp, horns curled. Juno looked away.
“Look,” they muttered, “`Rina, I don’t know what this is, what you are, but—you fuck with people. Do you even get that?”
Silence.
Juno exhaled, shaky. They wiped their palms on their thighs, then lifted the camera again, pressing the viewfinder to their eye. Closed the other. Imagined:
A room painted in Natsuko’s blues — deep cobalt. A cube at the center, draped in lighter fabric, like the sky before a storm. Nat sitting atop it, lit from behind, her silhouette sharp as a blade. Maybe Juno would tell her to tilt her head, just so. Maybe Nat would laugh, and Juno would forget how to breathe.
Their finger twitched on the shutter.
Then—
«You’re going to take pictures of her like she’s some fragile thing?» Fuckerina’s voice was oil in their ear, slick and cloying. «Like you don’t want to taste her?»
Juno’s stomach twisted. “Shut up.”
«Why? You know you do. You’ve been aching to for years. Remember that time she leaned over your shoulder. Her breath on your neck. The way she smelled—»
“Stop.” Juno’s voice cracked.
«—like cloves and honey and a hint of nail polish—»
The camera slipped in Juno’s grip. They squeezed their eyes shut, but the memory was there—Nat’s lips brushing their ear, her fingers tracing the spine of a photo-book, the way she’d laughed when Juno had stammered something about lighting.
«You’re terrified she’ll see what you really are.» Fuckerina’s voice dropped, almost gentle. «That’s why you hide behind this toy.»
Juno’s arm snapped out.
The camera tumbled through the air, smashing into a shelf of tripods. The clatter was deafening—glass shattering, metal bending, the sound of something irreparable. Juno stood frozen, their chest heaving, hands clenched into fists.
For a long moment, they stared at the wreckage.
Then—
«Coward.»
Their knees nearly buckled. Gripping the edge of the counter they pressed their forehead against where the glass met metal frame, the cool smoothness grounding them.
“What if I ruin it?” they whispered.
Fuckerina’s laughter echoed in their skull, dark and knowing. «Darling,» Rina purred, «what if you already have?»
Juno flinched. Because it was true. Because every time Nat looked at them, Juno felt the weight of what they were hiding — the voices, the violence, the way their own hands had moved in the alley first. The way they wanted to move now.
And Nat — sweet, steady Nat — would she run? Would she stay?
Juno didn’t know.
But they knew this: while they were tired of being afraid, they were more afraid of the monster.
The voice chuckled. «She's one, too.»

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