"Come on! Go say thank you to the nice lady!" He said as he pushed his son in front of the store.
The kid, now taller and more like a teen and less like a kid, though still shorter than me, bowed.
"Thank you miss! If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be here right now!"
I merely played it off as being the right thing to do, and that Charllem did more than me, and took the buffalo meat and the pork belly from them. Before long, we were back on the road.
"You didn't have to lower yourself like that. It was you who helped that kid. I only came in and killed the Wyvern."
"Nah... If you weren't there, my helping, would've been for nothing. The Wyvern would have just killed me, and moved on to the others."
She then punched me in the shoulder, giving me an annoyed look. I merely brushed it off with a huff, before both of us continued walking without saying a word.
After a couple more minutes of walking, Charllem suddenly broke the silence.
"About what you said... Were you serious about being interested in being an adventurer?" She asked with a calmer look. I turned to her, then away, pondering on the question. After a slight minute, I replied.
"I'm not really sure what I want... I just said that in the moment. But, maybe if I were asked at a later time, I'd say yes."
"Is that later time before or after we leave?"
She's really striking deep
"Why?"
"Because if you become an adventurer after we leave, we might never meet again. But if you become an adventurer before, you could join my party."
Ever since I was born into this world, I never really had a motivation or a goal to continue, aside from my reasoning that I shouldn't waste a second chance at life. But, ever since that fight with the Wyvern, and strengthened further by that fight with the Lich, I've found fighting... Thrilling. And seeing that kid thanking me earlier made me feel really happy, and made me think maybe I could continue helping others.
"I'll consider it... But before that, let's give this to Sylpha." I say as I raise the tied buffalo meat and pork belly.
"Alright. I really do hope you can consider it before we go."
She's really determined for me to join, huh.
We then ran once more.
***
When we got back, I gave the meat to Sylpha, and she quickly placed it in the basement storage where it'll hang in a cold room. I've always thought we were really rich for having that... A basement. After, I headed to my room, and laid down on my bed.
"An adventurer huh... I wonder what I'll even do as an adventurer."
"Don't even try it kid."
I then turn to the person who said it. Reigna.
"Did Char try and convince you to become an adventurer? Don't even try it. You may be a pretty good fighter and all, but being an adventurer is different. It's not just about fighting. And you'll lose a lot of things from you. Limbs, your life, the lives of others, the lives of your lov- Just... don't."
She's being oddly... Melancholic.
"Of course, heh, it is your life after all. Go ahead and waste it on a job like ours."
Despite what she said, she still had this extremely sorrowful look. She looks like she has a lot of bad memories of bein an adventurer. She is an elf after all, so she might have experienced so much more pain than I can even imagine in her long life. Charllem did say that the reason she acts so annoying at me is because she lost some friends, and doesn't want to see anyone else die.
"Don't worry. I'm not sure yet, just considering it."
"Like I'll be worried about a brat like you."
Despite what she said, and how she's trying to act all annoyed, she has this look of concern. She did spend a year healing me, and wasted a week of her mana to help me after what happened in the mines. I stand, and give her a hug. TIght, and warm, keeping her close.
"What are you doing you brat! Stop it! I barely even know you!"
"It's fine... You don't have to hide anything from me. You can let it all out."
"As if I'll do that with you! Let me go!"
She continued to lash out, trying to push me away. I don't even know what got into me, why I'm doing this. Maybe it's because I felt pain like her. Even if we struggle from different things, maybe the reason why I'm trying to console her like this is because I understand, even just a little, how it feels to lose someone you love. This is so random for me to do...
"Let me go! Let me... go..."
She then started to cry into my shoulder, clutching my arms, and no longer trying to push me away.
"You idiot... Why are you doing this..? Why did you, have to go..?"
She's talking about someone she used to love, isn't she?
"It's fine, let it all out..." I say, continuing to rub her back.
"It hurts. I know. But you don't have to hide how hurt you are. You don't have to act tough just to hide it. It's okay to let it out. Let it all out."
Continuing to cry, she hugged me back, pulling me closer to her. Her head dropped from my shoulder, into my chest as she nuzzled lose.
I wonder who I'm saying this to... Her? Or me?
Thinking about it, I don't even know if I've fully recovered from my own depression. Sure, now I'm laughing, and now I'm smiling. I'm able to enjoy, and be happy with my life, content with what I have, and be all bubbly. I'm able to show more of my emotions. Love, anger, disgust, joy, and a lot more... But deep down, am I even truly... Happy?
She tugged on the hem of my shirt, her crying now reduced to sniffles and sobs.
"Thanks... For that."
"It's nothing."
Pulling herself away from me, she wiped her tears with the back of her hand, still looking away.
"Why did you..." Sniffle "Do that?"
"I guess it's because, I kind of know how it feels."
I could visibly see her confusion, since I haven't lost anyone in my life here in this world.
"What do you mean? You still have your parents, your siblings, Sylpha... Who did you lose."
I breathe out heavily.
"It's not... Here that I felt that kind of pain."
I then pause for a second.
"I'm reincarnated, from another world. Back there, I lost someone I love because they left me, and another because they died. That was the pain I had. I know it's nowhere near your level of hurt, but... Yeah."
She looked at me, like really looked at me, with eyes that felt like they said 'I understand'.
"So, you held that pain, and carried it over here? Through your memories of that past life?"
"Yeah. Even when I... Was already here, I was still wallowing in pain, and practically considered my new family as strangers. I was stuck in the past, not considering what I had now. Stuck in my own world, without considering the world outside."
She chuckled, though her eyes were still teary.
"You sound like a poet."
She then held my hand.
"I'm sorry for acting like that. Being all bratty, y'know? I was... I didn't like seeing people risking their lives without onsidering that someone will hurt, from them being gone. So make sure, if you ever become an adventurer, you mix in a little cowardice at times. Because being afraid of death, is completely normal, and something you should have."
"Alright. I'll keep that in mind."
I say with a warm smile, and she smiled back.
"I've decided. I'll become an adventurer."
She chuckled happily.
"And I've decided that I'll make sure to keep your ass alive when you join our party!"
"Nah... If you weren't there, my helping, would've been for nothing. The Wyvern would have just killed me, and moved on to the others."
She then punched me in the shoulder, giving me an annoyed look. I merely brushed it off with a huff, before both of us continued walking without saying a word.
After a couple more minutes of walking, Charllem suddenly broke the silence.
"About what you said... Were you serious about being interested in being an adventurer?" She asked with a calmer look. I turned to her, then away, pondering on the question. After a slight minute, I replied.
"I'm not really sure what I want... I just said that in the moment. But, maybe if I were asked at a later time, I'd say yes."
"Is that later time before or after we leave?"
She's really striking deep
"Why?"
"Because if you become an adventurer after we leave, we might never meet again. But if you become an adventurer before, you could join my party."
Ever since I was born into this world, I never really had a motivation or a goal to continue, aside from my reasoning that I shouldn't waste a second chance at life. But, ever since that fight with the Wyvern, and strengthened further by that fight with the Lich, I've found fighting... Thrilling. And seeing that kid thanking me earlier made me feel really happy, and made me think maybe I could continue helping others.
"I'll consider it... But before that, let's give this to Sylpha." I say as I raise the tied buffalo meat and pork belly.
"Alright. I really do hope you can consider it before we go."
She's really determined for me to join, huh.
We then ran once more.
***
When we got back, I gave the meat to Sylpha, and she quickly placed it in the basement storage where it'll hang in a cold room. I've always thought we were really rich for having that... A basement. After, I headed to my room, and laid down on my bed.
"An adventurer huh... I wonder what I'll even do as an adventurer."
"Don't even try it kid."
I then turn to the person who said it. Reigna.
"Did Char try and convince you to become an adventurer? Don't even try it. You may be a pretty good fighter and all, but being an adventurer is different. It's not just about fighting. And you'll lose a lot of things from you. Limbs, your life, the lives of others, the lives of your lov- Just... don't."
She's being oddly... Melancholic.
"Of course, heh, it is your life after all. Go ahead and waste it on a job like ours."
Despite what she said, she still had this extremely sorrowful look. She looks like she has a lot of bad memories of bein an adventurer. She is an elf after all, so she might have experienced so much more pain than I can even imagine in her long life. Charllem did say that the reason she acts so annoying at me is because she lost some friends, and doesn't want to see anyone else die.
"Don't worry. I'm not sure yet, just considering it."
"Like I'll be worried about a brat like you."
Despite what she said, and how she's trying to act all annoyed, she has this look of concern. She did spend a year healing me, and wasted a week of her mana to help me after what happened in the mines. I stand, and give her a hug. TIght, and warm, keeping her close.
"What are you doing you brat! Stop it! I barely even know you!"
"It's fine... You don't have to hide anything from me. You can let it all out."
"As if I'll do that with you! Let me go!"
She continued to lash out, trying to push me away. I don't even know what got into me, why I'm doing this. Maybe it's because I felt pain like her. Even if we struggle from different things, maybe the reason why I'm trying to console her like this is because I understand, even just a little, how it feels to lose someone you love. This is so random for me to do...
"Let me go! Let me... go..."
She then started to cry into my shoulder, clutching my arms, and no longer trying to push me away.
"You idiot... Why are you doing this..? Why did you, have to go..?"
She's talking about someone she used to love, isn't she?
"It's fine, let it all out..." I say, continuing to rub her back.
"It hurts. I know. But you don't have to hide how hurt you are. You don't have to act tough just to hide it. It's okay to let it out. Let it all out."
Continuing to cry, she hugged me back, pulling me closer to her. Her head dropped from my shoulder, into my chest as she nuzzled lose.
I wonder who I'm saying this to... Her? Or me?
Thinking about it, I don't even know if I've fully recovered from my own depression. Sure, now I'm laughing, and now I'm smiling. I'm able to enjoy, and be happy with my life, content with what I have, and be all bubbly. I'm able to show more of my emotions. Love, anger, disgust, joy, and a lot more... But deep down, am I even truly... Happy?
She tugged on the hem of my shirt, her crying now reduced to sniffles and sobs.
"Thanks... For that."
"It's nothing."
Pulling herself away from me, she wiped her tears with the back of her hand, still looking away.
"Why did you..." Sniffle "Do that?"
"I guess it's because, I kind of know how it feels."
I could visibly see her confusion, since I haven't lost anyone in my life here in this world.
"What do you mean? You still have your parents, your siblings, Sylpha... Who did you lose."
I breathe out heavily.
"It's not... Here that I felt that kind of pain."
I then pause for a second.
"I'm reincarnated, from another world. Back there, I lost someone I love because they left me, and another because they died. That was the pain I had. I know it's nowhere near your level of hurt, but... Yeah."
She looked at me, like really looked at me, with eyes that felt like they said 'I understand'.
"So, you held that pain, and carried it over here? Through your memories of that past life?"
"Yeah. Even when I... Was already here, I was still wallowing in pain, and practically considered my new family as strangers. I was stuck in the past, not considering what I had now. Stuck in my own world, without considering the world outside."
She chuckled, though her eyes were still teary.
"You sound like a poet."
She then held my hand.
"I'm sorry for acting like that. Being all bratty, y'know? I was... I didn't like seeing people risking their lives without onsidering that someone will hurt, from them being gone. So make sure, if you ever become an adventurer, you mix in a little cowardice at times. Because being afraid of death, is completely normal, and something you should have."
"Alright. I'll keep that in mind."
I say with a warm smile, and she smiled back.
"I've decided. I'll become an adventurer."
She chuckled happily.
"And I've decided that I'll make sure to keep your ass alive when you join our party!"
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