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Am I Alone?

Chapter 08 : Not Running Away This Time

Chapter 08 : Not Running Away This Time

Jun 17, 2026


woke to the sound of my phone buzzing incessantly ,seventeen missed calls from Woo-sung, dozens of messages I couldn't bring myself to read. The rain from last night had stopped, but the sky remained gray, the world itself was mourning something that had died yesterday.

Min-jae hadn't answered any of my texts.

By the time I dragged myself to school, words had already spread like wildfire through the hallways. Students clustered in whispered groups, phones out, sharing screenshots of police reports and hospital records. The story had mutated in the telling like Jin-seok wasn't just a stalker now, he was a "psychopath," a "rich kid who thought he could buy consent," a "predator who should be locked up."

I felt sick listening to it all.

"Ji-hoon!" Woo-sung appeared at my locker, looking like he hadn't slept. His usually perfect hair was disheveled, his school uniform wrinkled. "Thank god you're here. Are you okay? Is Min-jae okay? I can't believe I mean, Jin-seok seemed so normal, so friendly. How did we not see it?"

"I don't know," I said quietly, shoving books into my bag without really seeing him.

"The police came to my house last night," Woo-sung continued, voice dropping. "They wanted to know about Jin-seok's behavior, if I'd noticed anything suspicious. I told them he seemed like a regular guy, maybe a little too interested in our friend group, but..." He trailed off, running his hands through his hair. "God, Ji-hoon, what if we missed signs? What if we could have protected Min-jae sooner?"

The guilt in his voice was like a knife to my chest. Because I'd been thinking the same thing all night what if I'd been braver two years ago when Min-jae first confessed? What if he'd never felt the need to transfer schools? What if Jin-seok had never had the chance to find him?

"It's not our fault," I said, though the words felt hollow.

"Isn't it?" Woo-sung's eyes were red-rimmed. "We welcomed him into our group. We both laughed at his jokes. We let him get close to Min-jae. We brought a wolf into our pack and dressed him up like a friend."

Down the hallway, I caught sight of a familiar figure Jin-seok, walking alone toward the main office, flanked by what looked like lawyers in expensive suits. Even from a distance, I could see the bruises on his face from where Min-jae had hit him. Students parted around him like he carried some contagious disease, pointing and whispering behind his back.

For a moment, our eyes met across the crowded hallway.

The look on his face wasn't what I expected. There was no defiance, no anger at being caught, no rich-boy entitlement. Instead, he looked... broken. Lost. Like someone who'd just realized the cost of his actions and found it too heavy to bear.

But then I remembered Min-jae's voice from last night"He cornered me... grabbed me... kissed me... wouldn't let go even when I pushed him away" and whatever sympathy I might have felt curdled into disgust.

Jin-seok looked away first, disappearing into the administrative office with his legal entourage.

"Good," Woo-sung said grimly. "I hope they expel him. I hope his family's money can't fix this."

But even as he said it, we both knew it probably could.

Min-jae didn't show up for first and second period. By lunch, I was seriously considering ditching school to go find him, but Woo-sung talked me out of it.

"Give him space," he said, picking at his food without eating. "Yesterday was... a lot. He probably needs time to process."

"Or he needs his friends," I countered.

"Sometimes the best thing friends can do is know when to step back."I wanted to argue, but deep down, I knew he was right. Min-jae had spent two years carrying this secret alone. Maybe he needed to decide for himself when he was ready to let us help carry it.

That didn't make the waiting any easier.Around us, the cafeteria buzzed with gossip. Every few minutes, someone would glance our way and whisper something to their friends. I caught fragments of conversation:

"...heard the police are pressing charges"
"...rich family trying to cover it up"
"...always knew something was off about him"
"...feel so bad for Min-jae"

The attention made my skin crawl. We'd become characters in other people's drama, our pain turned into entertainment.

"I can't take this," I muttered, standing up so abruptly my chair scraped against the floor.

"Where are you going?"

"To find Min-jae."

Woo-sung grabbed my arm. "Ji-hoon, wait. What if he doesn't want to see us right now? What if seeing us just reminds him of... everything?"

"Then I'll leave," I said. "But I'm not going to sit here pretending to eat lunch while my best friend is somewhere hurting alone."

I found Min-jae on the rooftop the same place where everything had started to fall apart two years ago when he confessed his feelings. He was sitting against the far wall, knees drawn up to his chest, staring out at the city skyline.

"You missed four classes," I said, settling down beside him but leaving enough space that he wouldn't feel trapped.

"I know." His voice was hoarse, like he'd been crying or hadn't spoken in hours.

"Woo-sung's worried sick. We both are." I Said.

Min-jae was quiet for a long moment. When he finally spoke, his words came out small and fragmented.

"I keep thinking... what if no one believes me? What if they think I'm making it up for attention, or to get back at him for some stupid reason? What if his family's lawyers find some way to twist everything around and make me look like the liar?"

"That won't happen," I said firmly.

"You don't know that." He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. "Rich families like his... they have ways of making problems disappear. They probably have more money than my entire family will see in a lifetime."

I wanted to tell him he was wrong, that justice would prevail, that the truth always comes out in the end. But we both knew better. We'd seen enough news stories, heard enough whispered rumors about powerful families and the things they could make disappear with enough money and influence.

"Then we fight them," I said instead. "All of us. Together."

Min-jae let out a bitter laugh. "Fight them with what? My part-time job at the convenience store? My mom's nursing salary? We don't have lawyers, Ji-hoon. We don't have connections. We're nobody."

"We're not nobody," I said, surprised by the fierceness in my own voice. "We're your friends. We're people who care about you. And we're not going to let them erase you like you never mattered."

For the first time since I'd arrived, Min-jae looked directly at me. His eyes were red and swollen, but there was something else there too - a flicker of the stubborn determination I'd always admired about him with his strong vanilla scent.

"Why?" he asked quietly. "Why are you doing this? Two years ago, when I told you how I felt, you ran away. You couldn't handle the idea of being with someone like me. So why now? Why do you suddenly care so much?"

The question hit me like a  blow. Because he was right—I had run away. I'd been so terrified of what loving him might cost that I'd chosen safety over everything else. I'd chosen fear over the person who mattered most to me.

"Because," I said, my voice cracking, "I was an idiot. I was scared and selfish. I thought I was protecting myself, but all I did was hurt you. All I did was waste two years we could have spent together... I don't know."

Min-jae's breath caught. "Ji-hoon..."

"I'm not running away this time," I continued, the words tumbling out before I could stop them. "Whatever happens, police, lawyers, gossip, everything I'm not leaving you to face it alone. Not again. Never again."

Something in his expression shifted, walls I'd built up over two years starting to crack. "You mean that?"

"I mean it."

The rooftop fell quiet except for the distant sound of traffic below. Min-jae leaned back against the wall, some of the tension leaving his shoulders.

"I was so angry last night," he said after a while. "At Jin-seok, obviously, but also... at myself. For letting it happen. For being weak enough to let him corner me. For not fighting back harder."

"It wasn't your fault," I said immediately.

" Logically, I know that. But knowing something and feeling it are different things." He picked at a loose thread on his uniform sleeve. "When the video went viral, the comments... some people said I was asking for it. That I must have wanted it, or I would have fought harder. And part of me started to believe them also."

I felt rage burn hot in my chest not at Min-jae, never at my Min-jae, but at every person who'd looked at that video and seen entertainment instead of assault. At every comment that had made him doubt his own experience.

"They were  wrong," I said. "They were all wrong."

"Were they?" Min-jae's voice was barely above a whisper. "Because sometimes I wonder... what if I had been braver? What if I'd reported it immediately instead of trying to handle it quietly? What if I'd told you and Woo-sung the truth from the beginning instead of making up lies about wanting a fresh start?"

"Then Jin-seok might have found another way to make your life hell," I said bluntly. "Abusers don't stop because their victims fight back. They just get more creative."

Min-jae looked startled by my directness, but I pressed on.

"You survived," I said. "You got away from him. You built a new life here, made new friends, kept going to school and working and living. That's not weakness, Min-jae. That's the strongest thing anyone could do."

For a moment, I thought he might cry again. Instead, he leaned against my shoulder—a small gesture, but one that felt like trust being rebuilt brick by brick.

"I'm scared," he admitted.

"I know. I'm scared too."

"What if this ruins everything? What if people look at me differently now? What if I can't... what if I'm never able to trust anyone again?"

I chose my words carefully. "Then we'll deal with that too. Whatever happens, whatever you need—therapy, legal help, just someone to sit with you on bad days we'll figure it out together."

Min-jae was quiet for a long time, processing. Finally, he said, "The police want me to give a formal statement tomorrow. About everything that happened at school."

"Do you want us to come with you?" I Said.

"Would you?"

"Try and stop me."

A small, genuine smile crossed his face, first I'd seen from him since Jin-seok's arrival. It was fragile and tentative, but it was real.

"Okay," he said. 

We stayed on the rooftop through the rest of lunch period, not talking much, just sitting together in a kind of peaceful quiet that felt precious after all the chaos. When the bell rang for afternoon classes, we walked back downstairs together.

The hallways were mostly empty now, students already in their classrooms. As we passed the main office, I noticed Jin-seok was gone his lawyers probably whisking him away to some expensive private school where his family's money could buy silence and fresh starts.

"Do you think he's sorry?" Min-jae asked suddenly.

I glanced at him, surprised. "Does it matter?"

"I don't know. Maybe." Min-jae paused outside his classroom door. "When I saw him yesterday, for just a second, he looked... different. Smaller somehow. Like he wasn't the same person who used to corner me after school."

"People changes," I said carefully. "But that doesn't erase what they did."

"Yes," Min-jae agreed. "It doesn't."

He hesitated for a moment, then reached out and squeezed my hand brief, but warm.

"Thank you," he said. "For coming to find me. For not running away this time."

"Thank you," I said, "for letting me stay."
In my heart, I was thinking, Did I just get permission to taste the vanilla that will belong only to me? heee...heee.

As I watched him disappear into classroom, I felt something shift in my chest. For two years, I'd been carrying around guilt and regret like stones in my pockets. Now, for the first time, those stones felt a little lighter.

I couldn't erase the past. I couldn't take back the hurt I'd caused or the opportunities I'd wasted. But maybe—just maybe—I could do better from now on. Maybe I could be the friend Min-jae deserved, the person brave enough to stand beside him instead of running away when things got difficult.

It wasn't redemption. It was just a start.

But sometimes a start is enough.

That afternoon, as I walked home from school, I found myself thinking about Jin-seok one last time. Despite everything, despite the anger and disgust and protective fury I felt on Min-jae's behalf, there had been something in his expression that morning that I couldn't shake.

He'd looked heartbroken. Not angry at being caught, not frustrated that his plans had been ruined, but genuinely, deeply heartbroken.

It didn't excuse what he'd done. It didn't change the fact that he'd terrorized Min-jae and violated his consent and used his family's wealth to escape consequences. Nothing could excuse that.

But for just a moment, I'd seen something in his eyes that looked almost like... grief.

I shook the thought away. Min-jae was the victim here, not Jin-seok. Whatever pain Jin-seok might be feeling was his own fault, the natural consequence of his choices.

Some people didn't deserve sympathy, no matter how lost they looked.

When I got home, I found a small package on my doorstep with no written address. Inside was a bottle of antiseptic, some bandages, and a simple note written in careful handwriting:

"For your friend. I'm sorry for everything. - Someone who cares"

I stared at the note for a long time, something cold settling in my stomach. The handwriting was familiar, though I couldn't place where I'd seen it before.

Jin-seok was supposed to be gone. His lawyers were supposed to have taken him far away from here, far away from us.so it can't be jin-seok.

So why did it feel like he was still watching?

I crumpled up the note and threw it away, but I kept the medical supplies. Min-jae still had bruises on his knuckles from hitting Jin-seok. If this could help him heal faster, then I didn't care where it came from.

To be continued...


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