I think this has basically turned into a journal entry now. I wish I could add some interesting description but it hard when I am not inspired. It took me three hours to color this base and I am absolutely frightened to go from here. I usually do a horrible job coloring and many times after coloring and inking my art I find myself hating myself hating my artwork. I feel as if I lose something when I ink and color my drawing.

But after reading Socializing 101, I love her art style. At first when I read the comic, I always wondered why her artwork still had her penciling and sketching. At first I thought it was because she had forgotten to erase them. But as time went on and I continued to read and fall in love with the series. I found myself falling in love with her art. How they build the pictures, how reassuring it felt to see someone who could draw that good still use the basics to get their product. It felt good seeing the sketching beneath the color, because for the first time I realized that the artist was actual person. A person who worked hard drawing their characters, who used base and structure to conjure her creations. After years of seeing people just draw whatever they wanted on the page with no needed help. I felt encouraged seeing someone so successful but who drew like me.

I still hate my artwork, but I hope to be like Pandastrophiic. I hope to gain their confidence, their love for their passion, their story. That I may also grow stronger in my own passion and courage.

I hope one day, that I can overlook my faults and flaws. And that I can one day see the beauty in my own style.