I'm a little nervous to say this but maybe there is someone else who might be able to relate to this and maybe find comfort in knowing they aren't alone.
For Sandra's story I wanted to cover the topic of anxiety and panic attacks due to verbal abuse, I personally can't handle drawing about physical abuse because something inside tightens up and snaps.
For those that read my other comic Love! Love! Fighting! and read my notes know about my history with father figures in my life. For this comic I wanted to share that difficult situation of having a loved one that you want to help but fear and anxiety cripples you from reaching out and helping because of their past history of verbal and physical abuse they've done to your loved ones around you.
I'm not close to my father but I've learned that after he came back from serving in the army his mindset hasn't really been the same. One moment he's normal and the next it's like something snapped and he's totally different and it's terrifying. I struggled with guilt for not being like other daughters and having that close father daughter relationship and also fear of not knowing if I might accidentally do or say something that will trigger that brain snap.
I feel like I'm talking in circles but making comics to vent out my fears just to stop them from bottling up inside helps and I hope this can help someone else.
I don't know if it should, but that line scares the shit out of me. From personal experience, I know I don't fit certain criteria for a person with mental health issues. And it doesn't help that most assessments are based off of white males (as shitty as it sounds).
Because I was struggling in my classes one semester, I told one of professors I knew for a couple years about my issues before because I needed (a) help and (b) a reason for my need in an extension. And she just looked at me like "you don't look like it." and said something along the lines of, "I feel like you're lying." And I just sat there, and laughed with a smile like usual until she gave me the extension. Only for her to take it away a week later saying (in a fairly polite tone) that I would end up failing anyway. *sigh*
I don't like criteria sometimes because a lot of people only see in black and white.
Sandra may be known as an ice burg at her job but at home she is a committed granddaughter who is trying to rescue her verbally abusive grandfather from his toxic behavior but she's struggling to maintain her own sanity. His toxic behavior gets worse when she makes three new friends: her coworker, his father and their little dog Chamski.