Okay, this will be a tough one to turn around.
So, in the last episode, I said that I'll take a break from Tapas after me publishing that particular episode. About a couple of days later, I uploaded a comic. so I guess my mind reckons I should clear some things up.
So yes, I'll be leaving Tapas for a while. This is because I think that Tapas is linked to my depression. Now this is no fault of the platform or the creators; this is all me and my stupid, irrational brain. But I will say that Tapas did introduce me to depression. You have a comic called 'Daily Me' to blame. (I just re-read it, it's only three episodes, and it is long past its final episode but it is still interesting and I encourage you to read it as well. This comic, in summary, is an auto-bio of a struggling artist/programmer, who represents himself as a duck, and it shows about ten different situations where he struggles with himself and his depression. Link in the description!) But anyway, after reading so many comics with so many people becoming depressed and suicidal, it started to have affect on my mental health. Even fucking fictional characters have been doing this to me! So I did will do is I will be able to do: block myself from the source of the problem. Sure, it's not as effective as other ways, but until then I'll block out Tapas for a while.
Some questions that you may have:
Are you going to stop drawing? No. The opposite, in fact. I'm planning to do art more. Make a comic series or two. Maybe fucking finish my Petité Prince rip-off (how has no-one noticed that?) and the new one that I've written a script of (secrets!). And I'll be doing more traditional art than usual. This is because my visual art course starts next semester! And I am excited! I'll put them on my Instagram.
Will you be inactive on Tapas during your hiatus? Yes. See, something that I have, and possibly you do to, is a Tapas addiction. I can not go on the internet and not check Tapas. I reload and refresh pages checking for a comic or an update or anything! I refresh the fresh page, for crying out loud! It's honestly sad. So, yeah, no Tap for me.
When will the hiatus start? When the two-year anniversery comic is uploaded. I'll finish up then.
When will the hiatus be over? Whenever I'm satisfyed with myself, when I'm the person who I want to be, when I know who I am now or how to live with my negative thoughts. Let's hope that these things come quick. Also, I am reading on ways to help myself. (Quick recommendation: 'First, We Make the Beast Beautiful' by Sarah Wilson).
Hope you understand!
(Don't worry, I'm still quite depressed and anxious)
-Bumble.
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