Today I cleaned out El's apartment. Everything was going fine until I found it.. A letter that was stuck under the couch.

I knew it wasn't that El just left. And I had proof. I'm not sure if I should take this letter in. If I do will they do anything? I doubt it.

When I read that disgusting letter I instantly curled into a ball and for the first time since el disappeared, I cried. Where was El? were they safe? Were they in hiding from Tearin? I wish there was a way to know.. Something else.

I cried for a good hour. And even though my other friends were there, they just watched. They knew nothing they would or could say would help me. I wish I could see el.. Hear el.. Talk to el...

Earlier after I moved all of El's stuff into my place my mom called. She normally calls every few weeks to check up on me as well as el.

Hey sweet heart how are you and el..?" At the sound of their name I burst out into tears again. My mom obviously got extremely worried. Once I calmed again she flipped out. I said the police just put them on the missing list after I reminded them again. My mom freaked out and I could tell she ran next door to tell El's parents. I could hear El's mom shriek with absolute fear. She was saying, "I told you we shouldn't have upset him. I told you we shouldn't have let him leave." She cried. I could imagine the scene El's mother being panicked lightly gripping on El's father's shirt as he turned and went to lock himself in the bedroom. He was a silent traditional man and that's why his and El's heads often clashed. Deep down I know both of them really care for each other. But they both couldn't see it. I gently let the phone fall to my lap as I leaned against the wall and fell silent. I lifted my head to the ceiling and thought. The tears had dried and my thoughts over flowed. I didn't snap out of it until my mom was screaming my name on the other end. I quickly put it back to my ear again and just listened to her constant comfort. It didn't help. Her telling me we were going to find them. If it wasn't El telling me they were safe then it didn't help. I missed their voice.