Carissa was already asleep in his arms all cozy, Shizuo on the other hand can’t stop thinking. Izaya’s smile...why did I? Shizuo flashbacks to Izaya’s smiling face. Why did my heart do that, and why was I so worried about the flea. Another flashback occurs of that man hitting his Izaya. Wait a minute...wait a fucking minute...did I just call Izaya mine?! No way in hell will I. Then his mind gets perverted, he tries to shake the images away but can’t. A naked Izaya's, face flushed on his hands and knees looking at him. Izaya begging him for more. He shakes his head waking up the sleeping Carissa.
“Is everything ok Shizu-kun?” Carissa looks at Shizuo with sleepy eyes. He smiles at her.
“Everything is fine little one, just go to sleep. Shizu-kun is...just thinking a lot.” She falls back to sleep in his arms. I need to stop this, when we hang out again, I’ll find a way to separate us from Izaya and talk with him one on one. But how will I separate us from this stubborn girl. Shizuo falls asleep contemplating his choices.
Izaya is tossing and turning trying to fall asleep but can’t. That entire time I was so...what on earth do you call it? Nervous? Flustered? I can’t remember. But why was I that way around. He turns to his nightstand and sees the figurine on the desk. He smiles at it. I’ve got a good idea….why don’t I ask people on the internet. No one knows who I am so no problem. He got up and went to his computer outside of his room. He then looks at it and logs in to one of his account.
Izaya: Hey! I have a problem and need some advice.
Person 1: What you need boo?
Izaya: I’ve been getting nervous around this guy and I’m trying to figure out why.
Person 2: Oh give us juicy details girl! ;)
Izaya: Well, I kind of get this mixed feeling when anyone flirts with him as he gets it a lot. A part of me wants to laugh and the other wants to rip their heads off. I think but don’t really want to believe it’s jealousy. I also start to get this red tint in my face when he talks to me or worries about me. Idk why though.
Person 2: Say no more! That’s called love my dear. Izaya nearly falls out of his chair and his heart starts to beat faster. Love! No way in hell! I can’t be in love with that monster.
Person 1: She definitely sounds in love. You go girl! Get your man!!!
Person 2: She needs advice on how doll, she didn’t even know that your face getting all red is called blushing. The best thing you could do is tell him how you feel. At least then you won’t regret not asking. Izaya gets back on and responds.
Izaya: I can’t be in love with him though! We’ve always annoyed each other and never EVER liked each other.
Person 1: That’s usually a subconscious ruse to stay near the guy or ignore your feelings. How long have you acted like that around him?
Izaya: NEVER, or not until recently.
Person 2: Yeah you might just be getting hit with the love symptoms. I believe you should do it. Say that you love him or his name to yourself and see what you react. Izaya leans back in his chair and looks up to the ceiling. He takes a deep breath. “I love you Shizu-chan.” He feels his heart swell up and his mind just clicked. As if he pushed a button or flicked on that lightbulb to say that it’s true.
Izaya: NO NO NO! I REFUSE, I HAVE NO WAY OF TELLING HIM HOW I FEEL AND EVEN IF I DID WE HATE EACH OTHER AND THEN THERE’S SO MANY OTHER FACTORS I CAN’T EVEN LIST.
Person 1: Calm down love bug just listen to us. You need to tell him that you like him or else you might never get the chance to. What if he falls in love with someone else. As once said it’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. Izaya sighs and rubs his temples. I think I need to.
Izaya: Alright...I’ll try.
Person 2: YAH!!! Tell me how that goes.
Izaya: I might...see you later.
Person 2: What you mean you might?!
Izaya signs off and sighs. I’m in love with Shizu-chan. Izaya goes to bed saying that over and over again just thinking about Shizuo as he falls asleep to end up dreaming about his newly found crush.